I am honestly happy that I've never fallen in love.
All I've experienced are these little crushes...
"He looks nice. Good personality... I wouldn't date him."
That's all I feel.
But every relationship...
Your man cheating on you with another.
Abusive boyfriend.
The cold one who doesn't show affection.
Or even the too clingy one.
The boy who tried to make you happy, but at the end
You had to be the bad guy, for it just wasn't working.
The guy you're obsessed with.
The lover who dies.
The boyfriend who really is just a boyfriend, because
The two of you only date for lust.
I'm reading and reading, it always comes down to your bad love stories.
I'm listening to music and it's always about love or ex lovers.
My friends sharing their feelings and experiences.

When I think of all of this...
I am glad I haven't experienced love.
"Well it's worth going through the pain."
If that's the case, then I better wait until my feelings kick in.
No one appeals to me.
I don't want to go through nights were I can not sleep because of you.
I don't want to go through the heartache.
I'm in no rush.
I'm just wondering, which relationship scenario will I experience?
Will I end up having a guy who mistreats me?
Or will I break his heart and make him feel like trash?
If so, will it be on purpose, or did I love him and was bad at showing it?

For now, I have my girls
And I need no one else!
Thank you my friends, for being here for me, even if you have a boy.