Shehnaaz was trying to concentrate on writing, sitting at the study table but after the hug, her mind was thinking nothing except that peaceful hug. She was sitting, holding her head, her elbows were on the table. Her eyes were closed and she was looking so stressed. She was getting frustrated because she didn't want to think about the other man except for his husband because she herself knew that it is completely wrong. Finding comfort and peace in the arms of your husband's friend, is completely wrong.

That time only Shivansh stepped into the room. He found her lost in thoughts and tiptoed toward her without making any noise.

Shivansh stood behind her and shouted, leaning down. Shehnaaz jumped out of the chair, screaming. On which Shivansh laughed loudly.

She sighed after seeing him. "You literally scared me, Shivansh. That's really bad." Next moment he pulled her into his arms, saying sorry.

As he hugged her, her mind again started thinking about that hug because she felt nothing in her husband's arms. The comfort and peace, she found in Sidharth's arms, was not there in her husband's arms. She hugged him tightly in the hope to get that comfort and peace in her husband's arms but nothing happened, she felt nothing. This broke her heart from inside and a few drops of tear automatically rolled down from her eyes to her cheeks. She instantly wiped them off before breaking the hug.

"Shivansh, you get fresh and up. I'm bringing dinner for you." She said as they break the hug. He nodded his head and went to the washroom. Shehnaaz stepped out of the room.

She stopped on the doorstep of the kitchen and her heart skipped beating for a moment when her eyes fell over shirtless Sidharth.

Her eyes were gazing at his hot and tempting muscular body. He had 6 packs abs, a body like a model. She was feeling like her breath is becoming heavy and her heart came into her throat. No man had ever made her feel like this before. This wasn't the first time that she was seeing someone shirtless in front of her eyes, but this was the first when she felt like her body was burning with desire after seeing Sidharth shirtless in front of her eyes. Even she had never felt like this, seeing her husband's body.

She just got lost, gazing at him when he was pouring the water into the glass from the bottle. The glass was kept on the kitchen slab. Sidharth felt like someone was staring at him and he could feel her presence. He swept his eyes from the glass to the door, but before he could see her, she hid behind the wall. He cursed himself again thinking about her and drank the water in one go from the glass.

She stepped into the kitchen after composing herself. Sidharth moved his eyes at her and found her already looking at him only. As he gave her a small smile, she smiled back.

As he walked outside, passing by her and she felt like her heart again skipped beating.

"Oh god, what is happening to me ?" She asked from god, looking up and her heart cried from inside.

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Sidharth was lying on the bed on his one side, hugging his shirt tightly near to his heart because, in that shirt, there was her fragrance. Hugging that shirt, he was feeling like she was in his arms. This was giving him little peace. The girl was making him crazy. After the hug, deep inside he came to know that his feelings toward Shehnaaz were more than just attraction. But he didn't want to believe. Even he was not succeeding to stop his heart from falling in love with her more and more. He was going crazy. Two things were killing him, first the pain of never getting what he needed and second it was the guilt of attracting toward his best friend's wife.

Flashback

It was Sidharth's thirteenth birthday. Sidharth was standing, holding the railing of the terrace and staring at the stars sadly. He was upset and hurt because his parents were so busy that they didn't even wish on his birthday. He had never wished for any gift from them, he just wanted them to at least wish him on his birthday.

"Sidharth, I want to take you somewhere. C'mon, Sidharth." Shivansh patted his back from behind. Sidharth sadly nodded his head after turning toward him. Shivansh encircled his arm around his neck and they both walked out of the terrace. Sidharth's eyes twinkled when they reached the hall. The hall was decorated with balloons and on the table, the cake was kept. Shivansh arranged this for Sidharth with the help of a few maids of the house. Shivansh couldn't see Sidharth upset.

"Happy birthday my best friend." Shivansh wished him and Sidharth hugged him tightly, saying thank you to him.

"Remember one thing that I am always there for you. You are not alone until I am with you." Shivansh said as they broke the hug. Sidharth was just smiling happily. He was feeling blessed to have a friend like Shivansh in his life.

Flashback Over

He closed his eyes and flashes of old memories came into his mind. Remembering those memories, he felt more guilty and a few drops of tears dropped down his cheeks. The friend who was there with him always when nobody else was there with him and the friend who always thought about him before himself. He helped him whenever he fell. He supported him every time. He was thinking that how he could fall in love with his wife and how he could betray him.

"I am sorry, Shivansh but this," he paused and closed his eyes dejectedly. He continued, "the feeling is not in my control. Mujhe, mujhe kuch smajh hi nhi aarha hai ki mere sath.. ho kya rha hai aur kyu ho rha hai. (I am not understanding that what is happening to me and why this is happening to me.)" Sidharth cried badly while saying the last sentence. The guilt was burning his heart and soul from inside.

"No, I won't let anyone come in between our friendship. Never.." he suddenly sat up on the bed and shrieked in anger, staring at the shirt which he was holding in his hand. His eyes were filled with pain, anger and guilt. The pain of constantly ignoring his heart and the pain of not getting what he needed. He needed her in his arms. Anger and guilt of falling for Shehnaaz who was his best friend's wife.

He climbed down from the bed. From one hand he held the shirt and from the other, he took out a lighter. He brought the shirt near to his nose and inhaled the scent of her from the shirt for the last time. As he slid open the lighter, fire lightened up, and then he touched the flame to shirt from down. The shirt began to burn. He dropped down the shirt, having tears in his eyes of agony. He cried, slumping down on the floor because with this, he was burning all the feelings which he had for Shehnaaz. The burning of his feelings means he was burning all his happiness.

On the other side, Shehnaaz was lying in the blanket in the arms of Shivansh but her mind was thinking about another man. Shivansh had slept but the sleep was far away from her eyes. Her eyes were staring at the ceiling blankly. There was a storm in her head. She was confused that what was happening to her and why it was happening to her. Why she was thinking about some other man after being in the arms of his husband? All these questions were making her crazy. She didn't want to think about somebody else other than her husband who always loved her unconditionally. She was feeling like she was cheating his husband by thinking about somebody else.

On closing her eyes, she was seeing the shirtless him. That's why she was afraid to even close her eyes. She was completely baffled. She had no clue that her heart always wanted Sidharth, her heart never loved Shivansh.

Next morning

Last night was difficult for Shehnaaz and Sidharth both. Shehnaaz wasn't able to sleep properly the whole night. She was waking up after every few minutes while breathing heavily. On one side she was confused about what was happening to her and why she was thinking about Sidharth and on another side, her heart was getting restless because it was craving to come in his arms which were like home to her where she felt secure and comfortable. She felt like his arms always belonged to her. Her heart wanted to be in his arms again, but her mind was making her think why she was thinking about another person instead of her husband.

Sidharth cried the whole night, lying on the floor, cuddling himself into the small ball but the pain of guilt and the pain of burning of his feelings was not going away. He wanted someone to hold him tightly and say that everything will be fine, Sidharth and there is nothing wrong to fall in love. He wanted to make everything fine. He wanted to be the old Sidharth again who was stressed free, who was happy in his life without any tension.

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"Good morning Shivansh." Sidharth walked to the dining table where Shehnaaz and Shivansh were already having their breakfast. Shivansh was happy to see him after so many days in the morning. He wished him back cheerily.

"Good morning, Shehnaaz." Sidharth wished Shehnaaz too, sitting on the chair beside Shivansh. Shehnaaz who was lost in her thought instantly looked up at Sidharth when he wished her good morning. Her heart stopped beating as her eyes saw him.

She calmed down herself, taking a deep breath then spoke. "So good to see you at the breakfast table after such a long time." Sidharth gave her a smile. Her mind and heart both stopped working, seeing his smile. For the first time, she noticed his smile and it made her heart go crazy. She found his smile captivating and beautiful.

Sidharth and Shivansh were busy talking to each other and she was busy admiring his perfect face for the first time. She saw his black eyes which were filled with lots of emotions, she admired his perfectly shaped nose and his lips and his perfect jawline. His face was perfect from everywhere.

Shehnaaz came on the earth back as Shivansh and Sidharth laughed together loudly on something which she didn't even know because at that time she was completely busy admiring Sidharth's perfect face. She looked down immediately and scolded herself after realising that what she was doing openly a few seconds ago. She was admiring her husband's best friend face shamelessly when her husband was also sitting beside her.

"Shivansh, I'm bringing more sandwiches from the kitchen." Suddenly Shehnaaz excused herself, getting up from the chair. Shivansh nodded his head, looking at her and Sidharth was busy eating the buttered toast. She immediately left from there without looking at Sidharth because his presence was affecting her. She was feeling like she was losing control over her own mind and heart when he was sitting near her. That's why she came to the kitchen, giving an excuse.

"What is happening to me? Why he is affecting me like this? What is happening to me? Oh god, this is so wrong." She walked into the kitchen, muttering. Luckily there was no maid in the kitchen. She was breathing heavily. Her mind was blasting, thinking about what was happening to her and why. She only knew one thing that what was happening to her, was completely wrong. The feeling of guilt started building in her. She was waiting to fall in love with his husband one day but she never thought that one day her heart would start liking someone else. She wanted to fall in love but she wanted to feel all this for her husband, not for his best friend. Deep inside she knew that she had started falling in love with him but she was scared to accept it.

After composing herself, Shehnaaz came back to the dining table, holding the plate of sandwiches in her hand. Sidharth's eyes fell over her. He looked at her from her toes to her head. She was looking stunning to him in a simple black top with rugged jeans also. Their eyes looked at each other for a few seconds when she was serving him a sandwich, standing beside him. He passed her smile and on which she smiled back. Then she again settled down beside Shivansh and served him too. They both also passed a smile to each other. Shivansh raised his eyebrows because she was looking lost to him. She shook her head in response, giving him small smile.

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Shivansh and Sidharth waiting for Shehnaaz to come because Shehnaaz had gone to bring blazer of Shivansh from their room. She came back with his blazer, putting it on her arm. She got successful in controlling her mind by not looking at Sidharth this time. She helped Shivansh in wearing the blazer. Sidharth was looking at them and this time he was normal.

"See you soon, Mrs Oberoi." He kissed Shehnaaz's forehead, holding her face. Sidharth's heart ached, seeing this but he was seeing them as nothing happened. Shehnaaz heart also cried because after having a so caring and loving husband, her mind was thinking about the person whom she met a few weeks back. Then Shivansh and Sidharth left the house together and Shehnaaz went to her room.

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"Shivansh, I am really sorry. For a few days I had been so busy that I didn't even get time to talk with you. But I promise you, this won't happen again." Sidharth apologised when Shivansh was about to sit inside his car. Shivansh gave him smile, turning toward him. Sidharth was looking at him, having guilt in his eyes.

"Sidharth, I was really worried for you because you had never ignored me like this before. Sidharth I just wanna say that.. for me, your happiness matters a lot and you know that. You will always remain my priority. You are not my best friend, you are my brother. If something is bothering you, you can share it with me. I will never judge you. We will find a solution like always. But please never ignore me like this again. You can make the whole world fool but not me. You are pretending that you are happy but your face is telling to me clearly that something is there which is bothering you. Whatever it is, I don't care. I just only care about your happiness. Always be happy, Sidharth." Shivansh sat down in the car, saying this. Sidharth just passed him a small smile because he had nothing to say at that moment. His words made him stronger to fight with his feelings for his best friend.

Shivansh left and then Sidharth reached toward his car and after checking his all pockets, he realised that he forgot his car's key in his room only. He went into the mansion after shaking his head. He reached his room, passing by Shehnaaz's room. It was difficult but he got successful. He picked the key from the table and walked out. He walked a few steps and this time he couldn't stop his mind from peeking inside her room.

She was standing on the stool, trying to hang the painting on the wall, but her hands were not reaching. As she stood on her toes and stretched her arms up in the air, she lost her balance. The painting fell from her hands and before she could fall, two protective arms saved her from falling. She fell in the arms of Sidharth.

Finally Shehnaaz P.O.V. Still you all will be having lots of Questions related to her marriage. You will get answers to all these questions in upcoming updates.

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