Anamika's cries weaken Vineet, her tears are his weakness. He pulls her in his arms to comfort her, Anamika eases herself in his arms and cries her heart out. Requesting him not to call their child a mistake for it's their love for each other.

As she cried unstoppable he gently took her to the bed and took his seat with her in his lap.

He let her cry, he knows he can't stop her now neither for keeping the child nor for not going for the course. She had decided and he couldn't help it, at least after the news had spread to the whole family.

His parents won't entertain such a demand neither Sachin will agree for it, so he has to go with the flow, even if it now ruins her future.

''Vineet, kyun aise kar rahe ho tum? Mujhe itni khushiyan de ke kyun ek jhatke mei mujhe itna bebas kar rahe ho? Tum jaante ho na main tumhare bina nahi reh sakti na hi tumse dur jaane ka soch sakti hoon. Fir tum kyun mujhe paraya kar rahe ho? Please Vineet, mere saath aisa maat karo. Main jee nahi paungi tumhari iss berukhi ke saath!!" She shrieks, holding him tight as if he would slip out of her life if she lossen her grip on him and this fear has terrified her.

Vineet just caresses her back and sighs deeply, he doesn't know if saying anything to her would be even appropriate or not. In the past few days, she has only taken his words wrongly. His intentions have been questioned and now he doesn't want any sort of that.

But how can he stay unaffected when she's crying her heart out on his chest, his heart has already been numb and soul wounded with her cries. He feels severe pain around his chest, his body getting cold with each passing second.

Anamika parted herself and cupped his face, her hair tousled, eyes holding tears, her lips shivering as she sobs and struggles to speak.

He gently tugged her hair behind her ear, cleaned her face with his handkerchief and placed a small kiss on her palm. He doesn't know what that means for her but for him it was an assurance that he is still there, FOR HER!

''Main kahin nahi jaa raha Ana aur aab toh tum bhi nahi jaa rahi. Main bas thoda upset hoon aur kuch nahi,nothing to worry about. Tumhe paraya karne ka toh main kabhi soch bhi nahi sakta, shayad ek baar khudko bhool jau main par tumhe - - kabhi nahi!! The thing is main logon se bahut umeedein laga leta hoon, I know it's idiotic to expect the same thing from others you do for them aur ye jante hue main fir bhi aisa karta hoon.” He expresses what he feels when she again snuggles to him to confess what she feels.

''Vineet i'll do the course, sachi mei. Baby hone ke badh main pakka jaungi course ke liye, tumhe shikayat ka ek mauka nahi dungi, I promise!!" She exclaims almost forcing herself to say that only for him so that he doesn't turn indifferent towards her.

''It's okay Ana, I don't have anything to say over that. Let it be, it's up to you now if you want that or not, it's your choice. It's just main apne sapne ko tumhare through poore karne ki koshish kar raha tha, bhool gaya tha hum kissi aur ke sapne ko jitna bhi chahe nahi apna sakte. There is always a thin line difference between what we desire and what our loved one see to it. I know it's my fault, I should have asked you. Khair, tum toh hamesha se mana hi kar rahi thi main hi baar baar force kar raha tha tumhe. Sorry, I shouldn't have done that but mujhe genuinely laga tha wo bas uss waqt ke liye tha, I thought tumhe hichak hai jaane mei kabhi ye socha hi nahi tumhe wo chahiye hi nahi.'' He choked feeling a lump in his throat, Anamika tried to speak but he stopped her. He wants to clear out everything the very day, he doesn't want to stretch the matter anymore. 

He chuckled after a moment, composing himself to speak further.

''Lagta hai ye start up course meri kismat mei nahi, dekho isse main 6 saal pehle bhi paa na saka aur na aab hi. Pehle khud na jaa saka aur aab tumhe nahi bhej paya, I mean tumhe jana hi nahi tha kabhi. Par jaane kyun iss baar itna dukh ho raha hai, pehle bhi toh ye ho chuka hai. Meine pehle bhi toh apne sapne ko apne hi haatho se jaane diya - - jaan bujh ke!! Fir jab tak itna dukh na hua toh aab kyun ho raha hai pata nahi. Shayad iss baar main confident tha ki aab kuch nahi rok sakti humei.''

Anamika could see the depth of their conversation, the seriousness in his eyes, and the pain that they hold are clearly visible. 

Vineet cast an apologetic look at her,''main galat tha Ana, bahut galat. Kabhi socha hi nahi iss chij ki sabai badi rukawat main khud hoon. Kuch aane ki icha nhi rakhta hoon par uske liye kuch khona bhi manjoor nahi tha mujhe. Lag raha tha sab ek saath mil sakta hai mujhe toh kyun compromise karu and that's where the problem lies. Dekho mujhe tumse koi shikayat nahi hai, kabhi ho bhi nahi sakti kyunki tum meri life ka wo sach ho jisse main kabhi mita nahi sakta. Ek baar main khudko piche dekh sakta hoon par tumhe kissi ke piche nahi dekhna chahta.'' He let out a grunt, fighting with his tears.

''Vineet main course karungi!!" Anamika repeated her words, she doesn't know how to solve the problem between them. She felt if she agreed for the course he would be happy and accept their child.

''Let it be Ana, khud ko ye bolne ke liye force maat karo. I can see it in your eyes, bas mujhe convince karne ke liye aisa bol rahi ho tum and it's making me more guilty. Aab mujhe samajh jana chahiye, the course is not for me. I had let the opportunity slip my hand and now I can't hold it back, I shouldn't have done that in the past. It's over!!!" He completed as he breathed heavily, regretting why he dropped that course back then? Why did he think she would do it for him? Why doesn't he realize that everyone has their own dreams and they can't drop their dreams for others? Was it too complex to realize that he didn't get it?

Vineet closes his eyes, trying to control the tornado of questions bubbling up in his mind, at a moment he feels he would faint with a heavy head.

All this while Anamika kept on staring at him, his words felt like a stab at her heart. Her subconscious mind scolds her for letting him down. How can she be so selfish to just think about herself and not him? How can she say the course is not important when she knows what it means for him? Doesn't she know why he dropped the course? It was because of her, she was the reason he had to let go of his dream!

But then why has she let go of her child because of the course? She can do it after child birth, what is the hurry? Why does he want to abort the child and pursue the course when she can do both!?

The questions are never ending for both of them and they have their own reasons to support themselves. 

They remain seated silently for many moments. Vineet manages to control his overflowing emotions, he is yet to confess something really important.

He softly takes her name, and she becomes curious to hear him.

''Ana main...main apne aap ke siwa kissi ko dosh nahi de sakta iss situation ke liye. Issmei tumhari ya iss bache ki koi galti nahi hai, main janta hoon par...par mei iss chij ke liye shayad khud ko kabhi raazi nahi kar sakta. I love you, I will love you forever but..I can't love the child. I'm sorry, main...main isse accept nahi kar sakta!!" He declares and steals a quick gland of her.

She was terrified, trying to understand what he just said or had he really said what she heard. Anamika was totally gobsmacked, her eyes not leaving his face which shows nothing but stern and firm decisions.

Her fears have come true, he has refused to accept the child - - Her child. Her child has already inherited her bad luck and misfortune. What will she do now?

Anamika couldn't stop but begged to accept the child and at the end Vineet walked out of the room, ending the conversation leaving a weeping Anamika behind.

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To be continued…