Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand  

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I woke up to feel my body lying stiff and uncontrollably on some kind of bed. I tried to sit up but the second I did there was a sharp shooting pain in my head. I felt as if someone had taken an aluminum bat and smashed it on my head like I was the object that the batter was trying to hit. The pain was excruciating but I fought it and sat up. My sight was all blurry and out of focus as I tried to get a scene of where I was exactly. I rubbed my eyes and blinked a bit. Then I waited.

when my eye's finally cleared up I saw that I was in a hospital room. I looked down at my arm where there was some I.V. needless in it. It hurt but I pulled it out. I looked down to see I had on some sort of mask.

" What the hell is this "? I said as I pulled it off of my face. The mask was attached to a big machine and resembled some kind of gas mask. I put the mask on top of the machine that was beside the bed I was on and threw the thin blanket off of me.

I got up and got a cotton ball out of a glass jar on top of this small countertop in the room. I placed the cotton ball over top of where the needle was to stop the blood that oozed out of my arm. I looked down to see I had no clothes on. Just some hideous looking hospitals dress. I scanned the room to see if there was any actual clothes in the room with me but found none. Only a chair, countertop and sink, some medical equipment, the bed I was on and a door. At least there was a door.

I decided to wait to see if someone would come check up on me, but no one did. I gave up and decided to go look around the hospital. I opened the door slowly and walked out of the room. The floors where cold as I walked barefoot down the busy and crowded hallway. The fist person I saw when I opened the door and stepped out made me gump. I threw my body up agents the hard white wall. I finally gatherd myself as I passed by a bunch of nurses or doctors running up and down the long hallway. Some pushing hospital beds with people on them, some where bloody others not at all. others where pushing people in wheel chairs.

I was thinking about asking one of them to call the doctor that was tending to me or someone who could explain to me what exactly I was doing her and what happend to me? But they kept running back and forth so I chose not to. As I kept on walked down the long hallway, some woman stopped me. She was in a doctor or nurses outfit whit blonde hair and brown highlights.

"Hey! Your finally woke up! Thank god! We weren't sure if you would"! She said to me relieved that I did.

"Sorry what "? I asked her and she took my arm, dragging me to a beach on one of the sides of the hallway.

" I was looking after you well you where here. You where in an accident and where in a coma for three months". The woman said and my moth dropped at the words that had slipped out of her mouth.

" MONTH'S! What do you mean I was in a coma? What happened to me"?! I asked the woman and she looked down at her feet.

"You feel from a four story building and hit your head really hard. As well as braking quite a bit of bones. Your lucky your even alive! A fall like normally would have killed someone so we where more then shocked to see you didn't brake any big bones or your head. Although..... we did take a brain scan and it showed the impact of your fall has given you Amnesia". The woman said trying not to sound so worried about this like the only think that was important was that I serviced. What about the fact I fell out of a building hun! Or that I now have no memoirs! No that's not important at all. Everything she said didn't make sense to me. My body was frozen and I could even blink!

How would you feel if it was you who couldn't remember a thing? Not your friends, where your worked or lived. God you couldn't even be able to know for certain if your had any of those things. You didn't remember your name, childhood or your own parents! How would you react to something like that? How is anyone supposed to act to that?

" Sorry wait a second! You just said I fell from a four story building? A FOUR STORY BUILDING!!! No one falls accidentally from a building that absurd! What next your going to tell me I got piss-drunk and thought I'd try to fly like a Bat Man! Really"! I said not believing what this woman was saying. I was confused but I still knew this was horse shit!

" Well that's good you have memories of character's maybe you can trigger back your memories. It can often happen ". The woman said ignoring everything I just said.

Was that what these people did? Analyze you without giving you the answers you asked them!

" Hey Doctor Peterson can you please just explain what happend"! I said razing my voice to her in frustration.

" How did you know my name"? She asked really shocked and confused. Surely not like I was about all this.

" It's on your nametag ". I said pointing to the metal tag she had pinned on her shirt. Really the girls this freaked out about someone knowing her name? I'd hate to see her in my shoes! The girl would be off the rails for sure.

" Um well there was no sign of alcohol in your blood when we had it tested. Besides being low on iron, that's all we found". Doctor Peterson said. Did she think I was actually being serious with the alcohol thing?

" Ok then can you tell me how I supposedly fell "? I asked her kind of in a sassy way, but not to much that I would come across as being mean or a well ... bitch.

" I'm afraid not miss. We tried everything but we couldn't determine if you where pushed or if it was you that jumped". She said almost scared of my reaction when she told me they where considering I might have jumped. She even sounded a little sympathetic but I didn't want sympathy. I WANTED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME! WHO THE HELL AM I? But only one of these things I can find out here and they can't even give me a straight answer! Wow i'm so lucky!

"Sorry but do you honestly believe I would jump of a building like that"! I said to her expecting a "No" but...

" Well yes actually! People do it everyday..."! She tried to say more but I cut her off.

" Yeah but that's completely different! I wasn't trying to kill myself"! I said almost yelling. I didn't care how much I sounded like a total ass or if I yelled. I was fed up with not knowing anything and them trying to fill in the blanks with shit that's not true.

" No! You don't think you were"! The doctor said and I was ready to rip her head off. I could use it as a bowling ball or foot stool"!

" EXCUSE ME?! Look doctor I may not have my memories, but I know enough about who I might be to know i'd NEVER do that"! I said making sure she got my never in that. I was fed up with all of this. This girl was making me want to jump! She was actually trying to tell me! What I might have done. I get she's a doctor but i think i'd know if I was capable of doing something like that and i'm not! I know i'm not!

" I miss where just trying to rule out the possibilities. Your not the same person you once were and we don't know want you would or wouldn't have done"! She said trying to be polite because she made me mad before. But news flash lady, i'm still mad!

" THIS IS CRAZY! YOUR ALL CRAZY! YOU SHOULD BE LOOKING INTO IF I WAS PUSHED THEN IF I JUMPED"! I said furiously as I yelled at her in front of all these people passing threw the hall. I could tell she was embarrassed but I didn't care one bit! Be embarrassed for all I care! She's no use to me. She's just a dead end that's not leading me anywhere!