You don't even know that when you are happily living your life, someone is keeping an eye on you. Someone is head over heels for you, is becoming obsessed from you.

You might never notice but sometimes, we cross path for a reason. Every person we meet in our life is for a reason, few might bring happiness while few might be the calm before storm.

It is your mind which could identify the company you need and which one is bad news for you. If only, if only we could think out of our hearts and for once, listen to our mind.

You never know that your friend craves you in a way you never thought. They know that you're committed yet they wait for their chance not just because they fell for you but they were obsessed with you.

Love is about others but unhealthy obsession is about yourself. Love is a feeling felt from heart but obsession is a crazy feeling that takes over your thinking. Everything that's twisted starts with something simple.

And here, it started with simple friendship.

Love excuses the lust user but sometimes lust excuses the love. When they love, they love hard. Don't get it twisted though because when they fall back, they fall back even harder.

You can have a crush, get attracted, have infatuation, even love but never get obsessed. It looks all good in books and movies but it only destroyes the person in real life, you can't gain anything from it but lose everything at once.

~♥~

" I wish I could punch him hard on his face. " I said furiously, clenching my fist together and flared my nose in anger.

The freaking nerve of that guy, if only he could have tasted blood from his mouth and said thanks to my hands for the deed.

" Alaia, calm down...." Ashton cooed and I took few deep breaths to calm myself down.

Well all must be wondering that what in the world is going on here? For everyone's knowledge, a guy was non stop flirting with me and not to forget the touchy part and I wanted to punch his guts.

Ashton had held me from behind in order to stop me and not make the situation worst. Uff! why can't the boys understand that no means no. There's no hidden yes behind it!

I wriggled out of his grip and rested my head in my hands. My mood swings are getting worst.

" I think, I need to go home. " I said and they looked at each other, nodding their heads.

Only Nick and Ashton were present there, Jake had got a call from Laura to come back home.

I got up with a sigh and looked around for the last time and straighted my dress.

" Bye Alaia " Nick said and hugged me, patting my head and Ashton bid me adieu with a smile.

While releasing a breath, I walked to my car and sat in to drive back home.

While driving I wondered.

I guess we all atleast once questioned God for our very existence, even I did. But left after few times because when God created you, he might have thought something.

There has to be a reason for it, when you can not thank God for your smile so you have no right to complain him about your sadness.

People who cry are the strongest ones atleast they let their emotions out, their pain out.

But when you don't, you become numb. The guilt and pain eats you up inside, it seems like you're in a tycoon, just roaming around with the force.

Everyone has a breaking point in life and sometimes you go beyond it. A hallow shell of a man you used to be, driven only by anger and hate.

I wish we could understand the games of God, you think he does not helps at the right time but in reality he helps in wrong time to make the things right.

I wish we all could erase memories and have a peaceful night for once at least. All the memories keep coming back, and they are haunting. Very haunting.

♥

I sat beside the window panel with my chin resting on my folded knees and stared at the dark inky sky. The silver stars outlined the black velvety sky beautifully.

A sigh escaped from my lips as I closed my eyes in exhaustion.

The ringing of a phone call got me out of my thoughts. I picked up the call without even looking at the ID.

" Alaia, are you fine? " are the words I heard as soon as I answered the call.

I looked at the phone, it was Ashton.

" yes sir, I am fine " I answered and took a deep breath.

" Did you reach home? "

OK that was sweet.....

" yes, I did. " I said and looked at the pillow which was kept on the bed.

" I mean are you sure that you're fine? " he asked again, concern lacing his voice.

OK, I am actually getting butterflies in my stomach.....

" Yes, I am absolutely fine " I lied, it is so easy for a person to lie right?

" OK good night Alaia. Just wanted to make sure, you reached home safely. " he said and I could imagine him smiling already.

Ashton I beg of you, please don't give me any reason to call you a sweetheart....

" Good night " I said and tossed my phone on the bed, staring at the moon.

"I was cursed to be the moon and who was destinied to be the sun took away all the light and now it's all dark here" I whispered to myself and chuckled lowly.

Darkness, a feeling, should not be felt. When everything you ever loved is just harshly snatched away from you. All you can think is hatred, anger, pain and doubt.

Doubt on yourself, was I not capable enough for him?

" I didn't expect this from you Ian. You knew, I never had someone to love me immensely, you knew, I could never stand you betraying me still you chose to break me once more. " I said, tears rolling down my cheeks.

" Alaia.....Please I am sorry. Please give me a chance, trust me. please..." he begged and I just looked down at the ground.

" Do not ask me to trust you because I can't anymore. After all the shits in my life, I dared to love you again, trust you again only to be broken by you again.

"I am torn and ripped apart brutally, my roar left inside to burn me. It went from butterflies in my stomach to hundreds of staggers stabbing me in my heart "

" Alaia please give me a chance " he said and kneeled down to my level with tears in his eyes.

I can't even make any decision right now, I don't know whom to trust.
His words or my mind.

My mind and heart are at battle where the outcome will remain the same, In both cases I will be suffering. If I leave him my heart will cry, if I give him another chance the insecurity will kill me inside. What do I do?

Somewhere between love and hate lies, misunderstanding, confusion and desperate hope of making everything alright. But how do I make things right where some part of my heart is not willing to.

" you cheated me Ian. How can you expect me to give you another chance? " I asked, looking at him with a look of disgust.

"If it was for once then I would have thought something, if you would have been drunk or intoxicated I would have thought of giving you a chance but no..... You slept with her, multiple times, that too when you were in your senses. How can you expect me to give you a damn chance? " I heaved, feeling emotionally drained.

" Alaia, I am sorry. I know what I did was wrong " He cried, clinging on to my palms and held them near his heart.

" I did even worse than you " I whispered, he lifted his eyes up and looked at me confused and slightly scared.

" what? " he whispered back.

" I TRUSTED YOU" I said and closed my eyes, letting those stray drop of tears fall away from my eye. I tried to grasp my hand away from his hold.

" Alaia " he tried holding my hands but I jerked it away.

" For once we were strangers but after loving you, I thought I found my soulmate. " I whispered, dreamily and he looked at me red eyed, with guilt.

"Yes, we made mistakes. Some by your side and lots more by my side but I still held on your hand because I couldn't let you go.

" But now, I am feeling something I never felt, it's like I want to hate you but I can't, I want to love you and give you a chance but I can't even give that. " I said.

" You broke me Ian. You became my utter destruction, my solace became my ruin. For the first time my home felt like a jail, all thanks to you. You broke me to an extent where I won't ever be able to love again, trust again. "

Tears rolled down both our jaws, a part of my heart sobbed for him yet a part wanted him away from him.

" Alaia I know I hurt you a lot but can you just give me a chance to prove my love for you " he said, I didn't dare to look into his eyes or I knew, I would melt.

I didn't wanted to.
I didn't wanted to melt.
Cheaters didn't deserve a chance, did they?

" I was not expecting you. I did not think that we would end up together, the single most extraordinary thing I have ever done with my life was fall in love with you.

"I never felt so completed ever in my life, I never loved someone so passionately to anyone. But now everyhing is destroyed, just by a blink of an eye "

I whispered to him with a pained smile. He closed his eyes in pain and bit his lip to not burst into sobs.

" you will miss me and when you do, you will realize that you have only yourself to blame and I hope that blame hurts you, like the pain of you cheating me hurt" I said looking straight into his eyes.

♥

I woke up startled, breathing heavily and looked around my surroundings. A sigh escaped from my lips and I shut my eyes.

No! not again.

Again these nightmare, again those memories, again that betreyal. I can't take it anymore. Running a hand through my hair, I breathed out heavily.

I forgot sake just want to move on. I don't want live in my past anymore but harder done than said.

I chuckled sarcastically, if I would have moved on then the first thing I would have done is to throw his ring away.

.......

I was getting ready for another yet, hectic day. With my black and white full sleeved shirt, black pants and white converse I was ready.

My hair was in messy bun with slight makeup on my face which has become everyday thing. To hide my dark circles of course.

I sighed and started driving.

♥

" Good morning, Alaia " Diana greeted me in a chirpy voice as soon as I entered the office.

Her face had a different type of glow, she was blushing.

" Good morning, it seems like someone is in a good mood today" I teased and she blushed harder. OK, something is definitely wrong.

" actually I have a date today with Carter " she said, blushing.

Oh....If she's blushing then carter must have become a red tomato by now.

" Good luck with your date and enjoy " I winked and walked past her to my cabin.

I was checking my mails when a booming voice echoed in my office. Of course, it was Mr Ashton on intercom. This man really needs a chill pill.

" Alaia, check if there's any email from Mr Peterson." He said.

" OK sir-" I was cut off by another voice in office, I kept the intercom on the table and turned around. There was carter standing behind me with a file.

"Alaia here take this file, it has the budget of this month with calculated profit and loss of each deal " Carter said, giving me the file.

" Well, by the way, all the best for your date " I said and winked, his face turned red.

" Diana told you? " He said, blushing.

" Of course.....and enjoy " I chanted and he groaned, suddenly his attention snapped towards my hands.

" Alaia you consider me as your best friend, right? " he asked, I looked at him confused.

OK from where is it coming?

" One of my best friends or my best friend will kill me for giving his place to you " I corrected, because it is actually true.

" OK whatever, but don't you even trust me a bit for not sharing such a good news with me " he said, mocking hurt.

Wait, which good news? As far as I remember, my life is worst than anything. I do not find anything good in this.

" Can you come clear, what do you want to say? " I said and he pointed towards my hands.

I looked at my hands and then at his face with a confused look.

" You did not tell me that you're engaged. " he said, making me startled.

"WHAT!" two voices shouted together.

Wait first one was me but who's this second one? Fuck. I forgot to cut the line after talking on intercom.

He must have heard everything. I closed my eyes in disappointment and banged my forehead.

" Alaia, I want you in my office now " Ashton said.

"Yes sir " I said and made sure to cut the line first and groaned.

" You idiot firstly tell me in which hand do we wear engagement right? " I asked, irritated.

" Left "

Exactly! we wear it in left hand.

" Exactly left. And I am wearing this ring in right hand. " I said and his mouth formed into an o, he just realised what blunder he created.

" Holy shit! I am sorry I misunderstood your hands " he said.

What the hell does he means that he misunderstood my hands, how did he even got job in this company?

" It's OK but please next time just see and make sure twice before speaking " I said and he just hummed and went outside but not before winking at me.

Ughhhhhhhh!!! now what does this Ashton wants ?

I walked towards his cabin and entered without knocking.

" Yes sir you needed something? And I checked the mails there was no email from Mr Peterson "

" Actually I just wanted to congratulate you. " he said, he had his grumpy evergreen face on.

" I am sorry I didn't understood. Why did you congratulate me? " I asked and he smiled sarcastically.

" Your engagement " he said and I bit back to curse aloud.

Holy fuck!

He actually heard everything there.

" Sir actually carter had misunderstood my right hand as left and blabbered anything " I said and there was a full blown smile on his face.

Is he mental?

" oh " he said, smiling to himself.

I looked at him weirdly, he is officially mad.

" I think your boyfriend must be very lucky to have you " he said.

Huh, Only if I had one.

" Why do you say so? " I asked, I was actually curious now.

" Nothing.... just, I think you're a great company, you're smart and beautiful " he said.

OK why do I think he flirted with me? Or I am imagining things?

" I don't have a boyfriend sir " I said and his reaction seemed like a 5 year old kid just got his favorite toy for Christmas. Why is he so happy?

" why? " he asked

" excuse me. " I looked at him offended and he quickly tried to cover up.

" I mean to say, you're smart, intelligent " he trailed off

" Actually I don't believe in it. It is just I don't want any kind of relationship. How about you? " I asked, I couldn't help my curiosity.

"No.... I don't have any girlfriend, the one I had she cheated on me. I thought falling in love just take minutes, like love at first sight. I just fell for her in days, I loved her but maybe for her it was just an infatuation " he scoffed.

I gazed at him, his face particularly. He looked normal while talking about her but his red eyes said some other story. He is hurt.

Hurt of a betrayal. Just like me.

" Don't fall in love too fast. Because when you fall in love too fast, it is not love. You think you know their dreams but you just know their plans.

" You think you know their heart, but you just know their mind. Let the right person show you that they are the right one. Don't just give away your trust, let someone earn it. "

♥

Love at first sight is not real, when you don't know what their nature is, when you don't know what their behavior is. How can you fall in love without knowing someone? It's just attraction you feel towards their beauty.

Love at first sight is unreal

~♥~

Hello people, hope you all are doing good. Just wanted to say thank you for supporting me so much and stay tuned for next chapters.

I think now it's pretty much known that our dear Alaia was betrayed and has lost the word love. What do you think about Ashton's behavior?
Well for the answer you need to wait for next update

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