The song La Vie En Rose started playing on the radio as what the siblings Sandro and Sunny intended.

Napatingin ako sa asawa kong nakasilip lang sa labas ng bintana unbothered by the song. It wasn't just a song, it was our song yet he didn't even glance at me.

As soon as we arrived at Sandro's resort ay hinayaan lang nila kaming mag ikot ni Agustin.

Agustin was just silent the whole time. Kahit na lumalayo na kami sa mataong parte ng isla ay wala siyang imik. Bakit ba niya ako ginaganito?

Hindi ko siya nilingon at tinignan lang ang karagatan na nagsisimula ng magkulay kahel dahil sa papalubog na araw. Napatawa ako ng mapakla. We once loved seeing sunsets together. We used to see the world like there's no body else around us.

"E—ricka."

Tila naramdaman ko ng tuluyan ang lamig ng hangin mula sa dagat. Tila nakita ko ang kadiliman kay'sa liwanag na kaakibat ng unti-unting paglubog ng araw nang marinig ko ang boses ni Agustin na tila pinipigilan ang sarili na maiyak. Why was he acting like that?

Ayokong makita siyang umiiyak. Natatakot ako na sa paglingon ko ay hudyat na hihiwalayan na niya ako.

"H—hold me close and hold me fast."

I started singing our song. The song that symbolizes our love and joy just being with each other.

"The magic spell...you cast."

"Ericka...listen." Pilit niya akong hinaharap sa kaniya pero matigas ang ulo ko't ayaw ko siyang lingunin.

"This..is.. la vie en rose."

"Ericka!"

"Do you remember that song Agustin?" Tuluyan ko na siyang nilingon kahit kitang-kita sa mata ko ang sakit. "Ba—bakit ba tayo naging ganito? Mahal mo pa ba ako?"

"I—I just want you to leave me, Ericka."

Leave? It's a big word! Kung gusto niyang iwan ko siya bakit siya umiiyak? Bakit magkaiba ang sinasabi ng salita niya sa mga ipinapakita niya ngayon? Alam kong may mali dahil hindi niya ako iniwan pero hindi naman niya ako kinakausap. It's like he's debating whether he wanted me out of his life or not.

Hinawakan ko ang magkabilang braso niya habang inaalala ang mga pagtrato niya sa'kin noong mga nakaraang buwan. The cold shoulders, the blank stares, the silent treatment I have recieved from him no matter how hard I try to make him happy, he wasn't enthusiast about anything I do. It all happened so sudden.

My voice cracks as I lean my head on his chest holding his arms. "Ma—mahal kita. Ano bang mali sa'kin? Is there anything you hate? Tell me. Ju—just tell me. I want to bring my Agustin back. I—I want you back."

"I—I want you to be happy, Ericka."

I heared him snorted an indication he was silently crying so bad but why does he wish me happiness by leaving?

"I'm infertile, Ericka," usal niya sa mahinang boses.

I felt like my whole world crushed. That only means one thing. We can't have our own baby.

"See? I can't give you a child. A child you always dream of having Ericka." He bursted crying like a fragile child longing for love. "Ma—mahal kita Ericka pero isang bagay na hiling mo hindi ko pa matupad. You've always been a good wife to me."

Hinawakan ko ang magkabila niyang pisngi at hinalikan siya sa labi. I want to calm down his insecurities.

"Ayoko ng makita kang umiiyak kapag napapatingin ka sa pregnancy test only to know it is negative. I—I want you to be with someone who could give you everything."

"Agustin."

"I know Sandro still loves you. He—"

"Agustin."

"Didn't you said you like Sand—"

"God! Agustin! Listen." I squished his face close to mine and stared right to his panicking face. His words literally contradicts his actions. "Sinabi kong gusto ko si Sandro but goodness honey hindi pa nga tayo nu'n. Ikaw ang mahal ko okay? I love you. I don't care if we'll have a child or not. Ikaw lang sapat na sa'kin. All I want is to have the old Agustin who loves me back."

He cried but this time it was probably tears of relief. Tears of joy?

"Mahal kita, Ericka. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I'll make this right, babawi ako sa'yo."

I kissed him as I finally get to understand his concerns for us...for me. If the cost of loving him is not having a child then so be it. This is what fate had given us. I'm his wife and he's my husband and not having a child doesn't make us less family.

Because in la vie en rose. You see everything with outlook of positivity, everything is suddenly beautiful than it is. With Agustin by my side I don't have to worry with anything.