The gun didn't shoot. I dropped it. I laughed, and laughed, and laughed. Maybe I laughed because I was relieved. Maybe I laughed because I was going crazy.
I placed the gun back in their bag. I went back to sit in the middle of the room, staring at the rotten wooden walls. It felt like the calm before the storm. It felt like something big was coming. Bigger than hunters, bigger than Andrew. Hell, even bigger than demons. Maybe it was just a feeling. But I enjoyed the calm before the storm. You just accept your fate and wait it out. I was sort of glad the gun wasn't loaded in a strange way.
Soon, the moonlight I was staring at became sunlight. I heard the door open. Still, I stared at the sun. Sam came in and sat across from me. I stared past him until I decided it was rude.
"Penny for your thoughts", he said with a harmless smile.
"Something big is coming"
"What do you mean?"
"I can't shake the feeling that we're sitting ducks until something comes for us"
I should be dead on the floor right now, not talking to Sam. Life is funny.
"When it comes, we will be ready. We can only be prepared for whatever comes"
"Sam", my breaths were slow and controlled.
"What if I got taken and I weren't dead? What if you thought I was dead and I would be praying to find you three again? "
"We would search everywhere. We would talk to everyone. We wouldn't stop until we found you"
"Okay", I wasn't convinced.
He scooted closer to me, slightly. He made me feel safe one minute and a different feeling the next.
He made me want to make out with him for hours and not care about anything else.
" Your eyes look like they hold the Earth in this light", he pushed hair behind my ear.
"How many times has that worked for you? ", I laughed.
"I've never said it before", he said with a serious face.
He leaned in and I felt as his lips touched mine. I thought of the rough, sloppy kisses from Shape shifter Sam. These were soft and gentle like he was careful.
I pulled away for a second. I regretted it. " Dean could come in"
He grabbed my face and kissed me one more time. What if this is the last kiss?
He let go of my face and unattached himself from my lips. We walked out of the room to find Dean with bags of junk food from a local gas station.
We ate the junk food and watched old western movies and such. For the time, it felt like I had no worries and the bad feeling I had went away. It felt as if we were just living in the moment.
I saw Ash in the corner of the room. I ignored it for a minute.
"Do you see that?", I asked
Sam and Dean jumped off the couch and I stood as well.
"So this is her", Dean smiled.
" Go to the back", Dean said to me.
"Dean.. No", I said defensively.
" Go", he said in his Dad voice.
I did. I went into a room with Dean's bag. For a while, I sat there. Then, I opened the door..
"She needs to be with me. It's time", Ash said. I grabbed the knife from Dean's bag and sliced my hand.
"I don't think so", Dean said.
I began drawing the symbol on the wall.
"You won't let her go because you like her", she said smiling at Sam.
Sam was angry.
"Oh. You really like her. You almost feel out of control with her. Like maybe you can't handle yourself. You can't wait until you get her all to yourself so you can lose control"
"That's enough", I said finishing the symbol.
"Don't do that", she screamed.
I slammed my hand against the wall. She disappeared in white light. Then, I felt sharp pain. I disappeared too. We fell into the field.
"What?", I screamed looking at her.
It was painful and I was confused.
" Surprise", she said.