Are you guessing what that means? Well think hard. A little bit harder. Let your imagination run wild. Think....

If your answer was Very Important Rant, then congratulations, you thought correct.

If your answer was something else, well congratulations, you have a good imagination. :)

So let me get started. I will be tagging as many people I know in this chapter. No, this ain't a prompt or a dare or a challenge or a Graphics giveaway, which I know I should be doing, but my graphics aren't worth it right now. So first, I will tag and then get started, again.

zuko_42
AMaZingAK3
OmaimaAkbar
smileinqss
LlynWildr
TorissaNikole
-Vellichor
-verdant-
stelliferous-
RachelS8766
shadowsleek
MulanJiang
sugarcrystals
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Forgive me all of you for tagging you, in case you weren't interested in this. I just thought this needed more attention from everyone. And I still believe it does.

Let's start over now. Hello everyone. My name is Lillian Jones. Please, call me Lillian or Lilly. How are you all? Hope you all are doing great. I just wanted to know, how many of you have read the book, 13 Reasons Why ? You tell me in the comments below if you want. Why am i asking you this? Because it's necessary. Because it might just help you stop someone from killing themselves.

If you haven't read it, Go and read. The cover is given right here, and you can read it online on PDF as well. No, it's not a Wattpad book.

What is the book about? It's about a girl, Hannah Baker, who suicides. But "it's not a spur of a moment decision", as a Hannah puts it. She thought through it, and what did she do before died? She recorded 7 tapes, both sides, which makes it 13 recordings. 13 reasons why she decided to do what she did. I'm not telling you more, because that would just give away the plot. My reason for bringing this up is because every word she uttered, was true. It was so freaking, terrifyingly relatable to real life it scared me.

Half the things she says, we might be doing just that. I have never ever heard much of suicides in my school, though they do happen quite often. Have you ever wondered, if you could ever be the reason for someone's bad luck, or to put it straight, somebody's death? Can you imagine, finding out after the person's death that you were the reason he or she ended their life? Or for their sorrow?

Have you ever wondered what your gossips could do to others around you? How a single rumour you thought was a joke and spread around, could do to someone's well-maintained reputation? I'll tell you what it'll do. I'll ruin, shatter that beautiful and true reputation that took so many years of hardwork to build, in just a matter seconds.

What ever I'm quoting here, in these picture inserts, these are all words of Hannah Baker. If you don't plan on reading the book, go listen to recordings in this site below, though I doubt if you'll understand anything just by hearing her part. It's better to read the book. I insist. :

www.hannahsreasons.com

Simple as that. Are you asking me if it's real life incident? No. It isn't. But just because it isn't real, you're not willing to understand the kind of problems people around you might be going through? Well, that's a pathetic excuse then.

Note that I'm not being rude or insensitive to all those who are reading this. These are just my thoughts that I'm speaking out loud and sharing with you. I love you all very much.❤ Please do not feel offended. :)

So, where was I? Oh yes. I remember. There is this one girl Hannah mentions in her recording, named Courtney Crimson. When Hannah spoke about why she was one of those reasons, the first part, I felt as if she was talking about me. You know one of those girls who are so sweet to everyone, and everybody just  loves talking to her because she's so helpful and sweet? Yeah, that's Courtney Crimson. And that's me. But behind that beautiful and appealing personality, is a person who just may be using you without you realising. Yes, I admit this. I do this sometimes, or maybe so many times. If you're wondering if I have done this with any of you, then yes. I have.

But, I did want to be friends too and for me, that's how I do make friends. I didn't mean to use you. So relax, I'm not completely Courtney :D. I mentioned this because I wanted to give an example, that's all. So put out that raging fire. I'm not that bad.

Little jokes that might sound funny,  might be as small as a mustard sized seed, but when passed around without being careful, could have the impact of a nuclear bomb. YOU NEED TO BE CAREFUL. IF YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHERS, THEN ATLEAST MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT THE REASON SOMEONE COMMITS SUICIDE OR THE REASON BEHIND A TRAGIC INCIDENT.

I'll explain the last part, alright? I hope I am being clear and not exaggerating much, because I do the latter best. :) Just making it a bit lighter.

Okay. Just think this through. A girl walks past you in the hallways of school. You bump into one another, and she mutters an apology, like "I'm sorry." You ignore her, or say something snappy to her in return, maybe because you're in a hurry or you might be having a bad day or something. The next day, you don't see the girl again. And you hear she committed suicide. What's your first thought?

Maybe something like,

"Oh my god, that girl I bumped into. Oh god. She must've been so depressed to do such a thing!"

Don't deny it. We all will have this thought, no matter what. But the thought that YOU might've been the reason, would never cross your mind. It would never cross OUR minds. And thats the sad, disgusting truth about life. Can you imagine that feeling when you find out you were the reason for her death, and that you could've stopped it? You could've, but you didn't. We just don't think it that way.

Do me a little favour, and go read up the signs a suicidal person shows. I'll tell you two: 1.A drastic change in appearance and behaviour.
2. Handing out possessions. You'll find more I guess. These are mentioned in the book, so I know. I haven't looked them up yet, but I will. And comment here once you do, if you want to.

The only reason I have written this is to try to make every single person I know aware of this fact. Whatever you do, be careful. Think atleast 10 times before you do or say anything about anyone, or say anything to anyone at all. I know it's not easy. For a person like me who has severe temper issues, I blurt the most hurtful of things. But we can always try, right? I mean, no one's perfect. We all have a choice. And that's what the outcome is always based on.  What we choose to do.

Before I leave, I'll apologise if I ruined your festive mood by sharing this. I just finished with the book. And I couldn't bare it. You all had to know. Forgive me.

And remember one thing. You'll be responsible for two things in your life for sure: 1) You might help someone have a great life. 2) Or you might end up taking it away from them.

This is Lillian Jones.

Thank you for reading.