"Swayam mahakal ne jinka naam saath likha hai unke naam Kal ka charkr kaise alag kar sakta hai"

It was finally the night before the day I had to leave when Govind came to my room. I was sitting on my bed with my phone after I had done packing everything.

He came and hugged me and started sobbing

"Gogi, babu, shaant shaant, itna fut fut ke kyu ro raha hai" I said rubbing his back and he just tightened his grip on me and snuggled closer to me

(Translation:- Why are you crying so much gogi, calm down")

"I don't want you to go didi, Pack me in your bag and take me with you, I don't wanna stay here without you" he said finally controlling his sobs.

"You will also have to go for your studies next year don't you gogi? You can't just stick with me, right?"

"But I don't wanna let you go just yet" he hugged me tightly again

"I am not going very far gogi, and you have krshu here with you right? And we can do video call, and sometimes you can come to me if you have vacation and sometimes I can come to you"

"But that will not be as same as living together didi"

"Sometimes things change gogi, and we have to adapt to them like that"

"I don't want to learn to live without you"

"How is it living without me, it just a matter of few years till we both complete our degree, then we can live together forever"

"Promise me you will take me with you even after marriage in dowry, didushree"

I laughed at his joke, but felt emotional with him finally calling me didushree after so long.

"Promise" We both hugged each other and talked all night

A guy came out of Gangaji after having snan, water dripping on his half naked upper body, he shaked his head releasing a few droplets of water from his head and stroked his hair back.

He saw a Rishi on the Ganga ghat and joined his hands and bowed in front of him.

The Rishi immediately felt his positive, powerful and other worldly aura.

"Pranam gurudev" he touched his feet

"Jeete raho putr" He placed his hand on his head and blessed him

"Yaha naye ho? Phele toh kabhi nahi dekha tumhe" he said feeling the shine in his eyes and the humbleness in his behaviour.

(Translation:- Are you new here? Haven't seen you here before")

He smiled a bit, looked at his feet and then said

"Gurudev, haan shayad aapne mujhe phele kabhi nahi dekha hoga, lekin unhe toh dekha hai na" Pointing at Gauri Shankar temple

(Translation:- "Yes, you might have not seen me, but you have seen them right?")

"Bas samjh lijiye unhi ka ek ansh hu"

(Translation:- "I am just one of their parts")

"Tum jaise bhakato se mahadev swayam humesha hi prasn rehte hai, Mahadev ki kripa tumpar humesha bani rahe, batao yaha kaise aana hua"

(Translation- "Lord Shiva is always happy with devotees like you, may he always shower his blessings on you, tell me what brought you here?")

"Bas yun samjh lijiye unhi ka aadesh tha, unhi ke diye kary ki purti karne ke liye unka yeh balak aaj unhi ke dar par khada hai"

(Translation:- Just think that he only told me to come here, to fulfill a task given by him, today his son is standing at his door")

"Iss mahadev ki nagri kashi mai toh har kisi ki murad puri hoti hai, tumhara kary avashy sapurn ho jayega putr, jao andar matha tek aao" The rishi said pointing towards the Berav temple.

(Translation:- In this city of Lord Shiva, Kashi, everyone's wished come true, your work will also be done, go inside and have his blessings")

I came to Kashi in order to find my Shivanshi

"Kaisa chakr hai yeh maya ka pitashree, jis ganga ghat se shuruvat ki thi aaj wapas wahi aa khade hai" I looked at the sky and thought in my mind

(Translation:- What is this wheel of illusion, Father? I have reached the same ganga ghat, I started from")

"Jii gurudev" I told to the Munivar who told me to go to the Baba Batuk Berav Temple

I went to the temple and went on my knees, bowed in front of the idol and touched the feet.

I stood up, rang the bell and said

"Namoh parvati pateh, Har Har Mahadev" and everyone present in the temple chanted with me

I was walking out when another munivar stopped me and said,

"Baba ka prashad toh lete jao putr" holding a bowl of madhira

( Translation:- "Take these offerings, son")

"Asambhav, aapse kisne kaha mahadev apne bhakato ko madhira ka sevan karwana chahte hai?"

(Translation:- "Impossible, who told you that Lord Shiva wants his devotees to drink alcohol")

"Baba har tasvir mai bhang ka sevan karte hai putr, yeh unka prashad hai, isse mat nakaro"

(Translation:- "Lord shiva consumes Cannabis in almost every picture son, this is his blessings, don't reject them")

"शिव महापुराण में कहीं नहीं लिखा कि भगवान शिव नशा करते थे, किसी वेद, पुराण और उपनिषद् में नहीं लिखा कि भगवान शिव ने भांग का सेवन किया हो। उन्होंने समुद्र मंथन के दौरान हलाहल नामक विष पीया था और सृष्टि की रक्षा करी थी।"

(Translations:-" In none of the holy sculptures it is mentioned that Lord Shiva consumes Cannabis. He drank the poison named halahal during the churning of the ocean (an event in hindu mythology mentioned in vishnu puran) to save this world from its adverse effects")

I said a little loudly, I can't hear wrong against my father

I took a deep breathe and calmed myself down.

"Gurudev, humari uch awaz ke liye hume shama kijiye, lekin hum yeh madhira grhan nahi kar sakte, mahadev ne hume sikhaya hai ki srishti ki raksha hetu yadi vish bhi grahan karna padhe toh koi sankoch nahi, parantu adhiktar samay unke bhakt unke aadesho ka galat palan karte hai aur sara dosh Mahadev ko de dete hai, jabki woh swayam apni prasanta ke liye Maas aur Madhira ka sevan karte hai, Madhira aur maas ka sevan karne wale sthano par toh parishit maharaj ne kalyug ko sthan diya tha woh mahadev ka prashad kaise ho sakta hai aur rahi baat mahadev ke prashad ki, toh unke charno ki dhol, unki bhabhut hi unke bhakato ke liye prashad hai"

(Translations:- Please forgive me for my loud voice, but I can't consume this alcohol, Lord Shiva has taught us that in order to save this world even if we have to consume poison we should for the bigger good, but most of the times, his devotees take it otherwise and drink alcohol and eat non veg in the name of Lord Shiva when it is not good for anyone and then blame Lord Shiva that this is what he has taught us while it is them who have misunderstood him, and talking about Mahadev's blessings, even the dust of his feet is a blessing for his devotees")

I took the dust and bhabut next toh the idol's feet and touched it on my forehead and tongue. Joined my hands once again and bowed and walked out of there.

As soon as I walked a bit away from Ganga ghat my phone rang.

"Kaho shuban, ab kya hua"

(Translation:- "Tell me shuban, what is it?")

"Aap itne krudhit kyu sunayi padh rahe hai bratashree"

(Translation:-"Why do you sound so angry, brother?")

He pointed out and I realized, my mind was still stuck on what happened in the temple.

Pitashree was right, this Human mind diverts very easily and feels the negative emotions so much, But I have to control myself from falling for these Dosh.

"Kuch nahi Bandage, aap bataiye uss medical college mai admission ka kya hua" I asked him with a smile

(Translations:- Nothing Bandage, you tell me, what happened with the admission process in that medical college)