{Warning!: anxiety, mental trauma, and a bit of PTSD}

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But.. I just hope she can help us get out of here and get Tom out again..

Tom's POV

once we got taken to our room I waited until the door was shut to hug y/n. "I'm sorry I got us in this mess y/n..." I quietly. I felt her hug me back. I rubbed her back slowly as I just felt so bad that she had to go through this...

"It's ok Tom... it's not your fault. We will get through this together and if I need to, I will try and defend you as much as I could tom... I don't want you to go through what you did last time.." I heard y/n say. I couldn't help but tear up a bit as.. no one has said something like that to me and it meant a lot to me. I hugged her a bit closer to me as I started to cry I to her shoulder.

"I'm so sorry y/n.... fuck I even told you I'd protect you..." I said quietly crying into her shoulder. I held her tightly but not enough to make her uncomfortable. I felt her rub my back and try to tell me that everything is ok. "But y/n... it's not ok... this is not all ok... fucking hell, I dragged you to the place that mentally fucked me up!" I cried into her more. God I felt horrible. Anything worse then horrible.

She tells me that things will be ok but it will not be. I'm going to go through things much worse than I did last time... I'm going to go through this pain over and over and over again. Hell at least Matt and Edd aren't in his power. They are in hiding right now.. I haven't spoken to them in a long time as I'm afraid of getting them caught.

"Tom... listen to me... listen to my voice... don't think of anything else ok?" I heard y/n say. I just couldn't if I tried. "Y-y/n I can't... I'm getting so much anxiety... I don't want them to hurt you... I don't want to go through the pain I did... fuck what if that bastard kills you in front of me?!-" y/n cut me off by saying, "Tom.... I'll make sure Tord does nothing to you. Let's not worry about the future and worry about the present. I want you to go to bed tonight not worrying about anything... I don't think they'd do anything to you on the first day Tom-" "yes they will. They did it last time and they will sure as hell do it again y/n..." I began to feel my body start to shake from all this anxiety I'm feeling.

My chest is thumping and I feel sick to my stomach but nothing will come out. I'm feeling light headed and feel like I just can't speak anymore because no one would be able to hear my cries for help in those walls...

"I-I can't lose you to him y/n... please... promise me that you won't fall for him and his tricks... and if you ever get caught or hurt by him.... I'm sorry that I couldn't be there.... fucking hell.... I'm just so sorry y/n.... I don't want you to feel the pain I felt... I don't want to go back to that room.... I don't want to go back..." I cried into her even more. I was scared. I will admit it. I was scared, anxious... and loosing hope for myself.

Y/n's POV

I felt like crying myself. Yes I was worried but I was more worried about Tom as I can tell he was panicking pretty badly, having a anxiety attack. "Tom please... lets go sit down ok?" I said as I lead him to one of the beds. I sit on the edge of it with him as I hugged him close to me. This was the type of hug you wouldn't want to pull away from ever.

I felt him shaking. I teared up as I hugged him closer to me. I slowly began to rub his back and try to do some of the things that I know helps Tom calm down slowly. I quietly hummed to him.

"Tom... look at me.." I said as a tear streams down my face. Once he looked up I cupped his face with my hands. "I promise you that I will never do that with that man... I'll make sure that I try and protect you Tom... I'll do everything in my power to... and I know poppy will help you too.." I told him and softly wipes away his tears. I lean into softly place a gently kiss on his lips before pulling away. "I love you Tom... and my love will never change for you." I told him softly. I hugged him softly before I felt him pull away from me and kiss me again. But Tom held the kiss there.

I kissed back slowly and kept my hands on his cheeks. I gently hum feeling Tom keep the kiss there even longer. I gently breath through my nose and slowly pull back to look at him. I felt Tom pull me down onto the bed slowly. We both faced each other and I saw he was still crying.

I wiped away each tear that escaped his eyes and lays close to him. "I love you.." I said quietly. "I love you more y/n... a whole lot more..." Tom said before he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. I hugged back and let him put his face into my chest.

I lean down to kiss his head and gently pet his hair. I closed my eyes slowly as I just relaxed with him. I felt his shaking stop. He was still crying though. I felt the tears in my eyes still there and threatening to spill. "I'm so sorry I couldn't save you..." Tom says quietly. He seemed that he was beginning to act up again about it. "Tom it's ok... please.. we are here to fight together to get out together... I will never ever leave your side... just how you never left mine.." I told him as I gently pet him.

"But all of this is not ok... you have a risk of getting killed because of me! I can't handle seeing another person I love die in front of me again... please... just have poppy help you. I'll find my own way out... f-fuck I'll go through all my pain again just to save you..." Tom says as I saw him close his eyes tightly and grip onto me.

"Shh... listen to my voice again Tom... we will get out of here together... I will do everything in my power to keep them from what they did to you the last time you were here..." I spoke quietly. I felt the pain in his voice, just how sad he truly was and how he didn't want to be here.

"I know.... but I'm more worried about you than any thing y/n.... I really, really can't lose you...." Tom says as I knew much more happened here than what he told me. I wasn't going to ask him to talk about it though. I don't want him to feel all those painful memories that this placed caused him. "I love you Tom... and for how much I love you we will never be separated..." I said to him and I put my forehead against his with my eyes closed.

"I love you to y/n...." I heard him sighed. I stayed like this for a bit as I slowly pulled away to look at him. "We should get some rest.." I said quietly. "I don't think I'd be able to sleep.." Tom says in a upset tone. "Just try for tonight..." I said softly as I didn't want to say that this is probably going to be the last night they can be together.

"Alright.. turn around," I heard him say and then I did so. I felt him wrap him arms around me and pull me to him. I felt him put one leg between mine as his other just rests against my other leg. I lean into him and smiled softly feeling him out his face into my neck. "I'm sorry y/n..." I heard him mumble behind me. "Don't be sorry Tom... it's not your fault and it will never be.." I told him and placed my hand on top of his.

I felt him grab my hand and place it on the bed, then his hand went on top of mine and held it. I smiled softly and softly kissed his hand. I tried to take in as much of this as possible. I just hope Tom will fall sleep.

I'm worried of what they'd do to him if he was 'too tired'. Or if they would make him do much worse if they find that out.

I turned myself around to face him. I nuzzled my face into his neck holding onto him tightly as I tried to savor every moment of this. "I love you Tom..." I said quietly. I felt toms Ames wrap around me and put his head on top of mine. "I love you more y/n... goodnight my love..." I heard him say. I reach my hand up to softly play with the back of his hair on his head as I slowly drifted into sleep.

[The Next Morning]
Y/n's POV

I woke up to a loud knocking on the room door Tom and I were in. I groaned sitting up and noticed Tom wasn't next to me anymore.

I heard the door open and I quickly looked but felt a bit relieved seeing her. "Good morning y/n.. where's Tom?" Poppy asked looking around the room. "I think... he went to the other bed in the other room," I told her as he could have moved just Incase if it wasn't poppy who came through that door.

I watched poppy go look and come back a moment later. "Yeah he's there. Man he looks like he just went to bed too. Did you two stay up late?" Poppy asked as I could tell what she was implying. "No, we did nothing interment but Tom I guess.. was having really bad anxiety to the point where he probably got a anxiety attack... I don't really know how late we were up but we did talk for a good couple of hours." I told her and stretched. I soon got up and looked over in the room seeing Tom still asleep. "I will always be the one to get you two in the morning Ok? So you two don't have to worry about getting caught sleeping next to each other. But if there is more then three knocks then it isn't me." Poppy explained to me and I nodded. "Well.. today RedLeader wanted me to take you to get you fitted for a army uniform... and I do warn you now... Ugh.. some of the uniforms can be a bit.. revealing. I don't get why and I've been fighting on that for years for him to change that. But unfortunately I work with the biggest hollow-minded leader in existence. The only mind he thinks with is his dick but even his brain down there fucking fuzzes out when he thinks to hard." Poppy said and I couldn't help but laugh. "And I know I say this all the time, but that's why I'm the assistant. I at least keep this shit hole in place while he just works on shitty inventions that will never work." Poppy continues and I continued to giggle.

Hearing poppy say that made me think of less about Tord. Yeah his appearance looks scary, but if he is as dumb as poppy says then maybe she has nothing to worry about. "That's really funny poppy," I continued to giggle. "Well, it's true." Poppy says and chuckled with me and soon sighed. "Hey, we should get Tom up. I know he may not want to but... some other people are taking him today.." I heard poppy say. My smile turned into a frown. "Can't Tom come with us? Wouldn't this Tord guy want him to have a uniform too?" I asked as I just didn't want to leave him alone in this room for these other people to take him in.

"I mean.. I can ask him," poppy said as I saw her pull out her walkie-talkie and saw a few things into it. I heard someone else speak after that and a few more things. I smiled again as it sounded like we should take Tom.

"So.. we can.. but tomorrow they have to take him in.. there is nothing I can do on that." Poppy told me. I quickly hugged poppy as I was very relieved. "Thank you... Thats all I'd like for today... so I can spend time with Tom.." I said softly. I then let go of her and went to the other room to wake up Tom.

Hopefully we don't run into Tord again..

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I'm so sorry this chapter took so long to get out. Since school started I've had no time to work on this chapter and finally finish it until now. -LB

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