(Y/n)'s Journal on his thoughts.

Monday, October 31, 20XX

Some time has passed since I wrote in this book. But I need to get my thoughts down or I may go crazy... Something terrible happened at the ball game that was supposed to be a peaceful day. My friends had tried to get my mind off of what was going on with me and then a new enemy appears to try and ruin more of my life. Great... Their name is Discord. A man in metal armor and equipped to do almost the same things I can do. Big difference is that he can use chains made of energy and bind people to either a wall of tie them up to incapacitate them. Before the fight could truly begin, Discord's first target was me to keep me from transforming the CPUs.

I don't know what this person wants with me, but it was enough to make me lose it and go on a rampage when Sophie and Abby were in danger. I felt tons of rage and hatred when Discord tried attacking them... When I was in that state, I also discovered that the lady I had tried to chase before was Ivory. Even when I don't sleep, she appears in my world and talks to me... I don't think I could ever understand what is going on... But when seeing a picture I had drawn before... I passed out and fell to the ground when attacking it in rage.

Saturday, November 5, 20XX

With all that's happening, I needed to create precautions to better ensure my family and friends' safety. I decided that we were going to head out for some time and do some training. Sure I got a kick out of hearing (F/n) scream in agony, but keeping the CPUs on their game was absolutely needed. I didn't care how much we trained, I wanted to help those I love and protect them. Sure Neptune may hate me when she could be relaxing and having fun. I know the CPUs can hold their own, but against someone we don't know and some how has a grudge against us? I can't take that chance...

Not to mention Ivory keeps appearing whenever she wants. I had Blanc and Noire go with me to go chase her down to get some answers, but to my luck... I end up facing an enemy only me and Ivory can see and there are more than one of them. Shadow like creatures... able to wield weapons and able to speak simple words... They were even able to hit me. I was left with no choice to run from the fight.

Friday, November 11, 20XX

Well... My day was certainly very weird. After we returned home from training, I take one simple nap, and somehow the girls find a bowl full of alcoholic bon bons! Neptune was still the same with being who she is and talking nonsense, But she was the least of my worries if I have anything to say about it... Vert was cuddling with Abby and tries to get me to fall asleep with them, but I couldn't just sleep until I found Blanc and Noire. Lucky for me, I found Blanc pretty quick. When I found her, she seemed to be in a daze. Couldn't blame her with what alcohol can do really. I felt sorry for them considering they never probably felt drunk in their life or anything. I took Blanc to my room in wanting to keep her situated and figure out where Noire could be, but my troubles don't end there...

Thinking of having the bon bons safe in my room with Blanc, she doesn't think and pops another one in, becoming more drunk!! If not only that, but Blanc felt hot and almost did something that I can't even describe in words, but stopped her in time... Once heading downstairs, Noire seemed to be affected the most as her usual tsundere like personality was gone, and gained actual confidence in trying to get me to blush. It didn't help when all four of the CPUs began wanting my attention, but I was able to get some time to recover when (F/n) and Emma had returned. But just when they arrived, Vert said something to make Emma and (F/n) leave fast. I was about done. I wouldn't be able to take much more, but then it happened... Neptune tricks me and when I was channeling energy, the CPUs jump onto me and gain their HDD forms!! Now not only were they drunk, but they were sexually hot as hell!! I tried to get away, but with having trained so hard, and only rested for an hour... I couldn't do much to get away. I couldn't remember much what happened next, but all I could feel after waking up, was feeling so happy.

Sunday, November 20, 20XX

I don't even know what to say... I'm so lost... I'm so confused with what's happening to me... I can't think straight... Not after what I've experienced... I saw... a murder... No, THE murder of the Shinzuyaku Clan... I was looking through Shalla's eyes and... I can't... I feel sick just thinking about it...

I got invited to go to a fair with (F/n) and Emma and mother thought it would help with how I'm feeling... I went, with the CPUs and Abby in toll. Though, most of my time there was with Neptune due to her sneaky attempt to get me away from the others. But she was able to help cheer me up with what we did. Not to mention (F/n) and Emma having been in a relationship. So that's new.

Wednesday, November 30, 20XX

A lot has happened... But to be short... Everyone knows me, the CPUs our enemies... Everything... The day started off with me going to school with the others and messing around like usual, but then IF comes into... Huh... Haven't wrote about her and Compa yet... First off, when I went missing, my mother had some help from a certain police Captain. To my surprise and the others, it was the IF in my world. When having fought Discord at the mall, I had fallen into a short coma with the Compa from this world to help out. Surprising enough... Abby had imprinted on them and now they're our Aunts. This will be weird to tell the IF and Compa I do know back in Hyper dimension.

Went off topic... IF had pulled me out to interrogate two people she caught and that was Grif and Simmons in my Aura Knight clothes. Can't say I do so well in torturing them, but being the son of my mother, Iris, I learned a thing or two from her on how to make a person talk. My "fun" was short lived when IF came in to tell me what was going on outside. Dionix had kidnapped people that were on a train and called me out to go to where he was. When I got there, more trouble showed its face... Discord, that bastard... He attacked my girlfriends and Vert while I was away from them. I don't know how that person knew I would be away, but I was in for a big fight.

A lot of damage was done around a certain area of the city, but it was sustainable to deal with for some time. In my need to stop holding back, I revealed who I was in front of many reporters and other people nearby. I was able to defeat both Dionix and Discord... But I found out that Discord, was Johnathan... My world was being torn to shreds with each bad thing that happens... Because of it, I feel distant from my world more than ever...

Sunday, December 11, 20XX

Winter, the time of cooling and enjoying the peace that it can bring with Christmas coming closer each day. I haven't had that kind of peace with being in the city from the fight with Dionix and Discord after I revealed myself... Ever since I revealed myself, people looked at me differently and I didn't know how to take it. Day after day, I would get no rest from people swarming in on me and those that I know because of what we can do. Feeling fed up with how we were being treated, mother decided we needed to get out of the city for a few days. Two days have passed since we came back to the shack to get some peace and quiet while we were able to convince (F/n) and Emma's parents to let them come with us also. IF and Compa also decided to come with us to enjoy some time away from what happened in the city to get some peace and quiet. IF probably needed it more, due to the fact she was on the scene and got the CPUs and myself out of there in the way she did. Probably dealing with her superiors in her line of work and getting shunned for it. I never meant to make her job harder than it was... If I could do something to help her out... I would do it in a heart beat.

Thrusday, December 15, 20XX

The power of the Shinzuyaku Clan... So many things I have never known about... One being the power to train skills and feel pain. Jeez... talk about a trouble some thing... Not only that, but Blanc seems to be able to enter the same place as I am through Ivory's connection for some reason. I plan on asking her, but I have other ideas of what I wish to do. With having exited out of Guardian mode in a battle with Dionix in my sleep, I was afflicted with blindness again. Once I recovered, I was able to go buy the necklaces I wanted to go get.

On my way, I was able to meet with Ami, a friend of Ryuuji and Taiga that I had met before. She walked with me to the jewelry store and to see what I was gonna buy. The necklaces... The angel winged heart for Blanc, The game controller necklace for Neptune and The crown shaped necklace. Each was just perfect for the three I loved and I felt every being in me be happy that I had earned enough money. But an incident happened where a robbery happened while I was inside and even those were taken. I felt anger surge when people were being robbed of their belongings and even the necklaces I had worked so hard and long for. When I caught up to them, I could barely control my growing anger. If I hadn't called IF to arrive at the scene, I fear something would have happened. But yet... I can't shake this feeling... That something bad could happen... Should I let my full anger out...