i hate to sound like a crybaby
cause it's all i've been lately
but it's just my stupid mind
and the happiness i can never find

i'm staying up past midnight
wondering if i'm alright
cause i feel nothing inside
don't know what it's like to feel alive

i don't have time for the things that i love anymore
i'm busy stressing about things and i don't know what for
i'm scared of missing out on what should be a happy life
and if this is it what's the point in even trying to survive?

some days i all can do is hate myself
going home, crying and feeling overwhelmed
some days i don't care about anything at all
enjoying the relief before the next day i fall
some days i laugh and smile with hope in my eyes
those days feel good til i remember they're all lies
and i'm so tired of all of this when i've got nothing in my life

everything about me is a mess
a disorganized ruckus in my head
i just wanna go to bed
i don't wanna feel dead

i don't have time anymore
cause i'm busy stressing for
missing out on a happy life
and if this is it why should i survive?

some days i all can do is hate myself
people always blame themselves
some days i don't care about anything at all
apathy has become my default
some days i laugh and smile with hope in my eyes
and those days feel good but they're all lies
and i'm so tired of all of this when i've got nothing in my life

i ruin my own life
and i wanna say i'm fine
i tell you i'm alright
but maybe that's a lie

some days i hate myself
feeling overwhelmed
some days i don't care at all
that's when i start to fall
some days you'll find hope in my eyes
but remember they're all lies
and i'm so tired of all of this when i've got nothing in my life