"Emotions, give me a break
Let me forget that I made a mistake
Oh can't you see what you're doing to me?
Emotions, please let me free."
-Brenda Lee

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"When are you guys going to make it official?! By what you're telling me it is obvious you both like each other, this is what you always dreamed of April, don't let the opportunity go!" Holly kept rambling on through the phone ad I kicked my feet happily while lying down in my dorm room stiff bed.

Suddenly my heartbeat increased and it seemed like I couldn't manage to get any coherent thoughts as all I could think of was him. Is this it? Am I having my first boyfriend ever? And it just happens to be the sweetest guy. This is like a dream come true.

Without wasting anymore time, Holly and I hung up and I immediately jumped out of bed and went to Andrew's dorm room, each step I took I could feel my heart beating faster but it would all be worth it once I got there.

I stood in front of his door taking a few deep breaths before knocking softly on his door hoping not to bother his roommate.

"April? Andrew left already." his roommate opened the door looking at me like I was some weird creature standing in front of his door. "Did he not tell you...?"

I froze.

He's... Gone?

...

It was a slightly cold night. The trees and the fire kept cracking at the sudden silence that had fallen at the camp. No one spoke a word as my face gave it all away.

He's leaving again?

I didn't notice when my hands started shaking and my breathing became heavier, as much as I wanted to avoid them, thick tears made their way down my face to my neck. I'm suffocating, I need to go somewhere else.

When I finally managed to move, I simply began walking, I didn't know where I was going, but I could hear Andrew's voice screaming my name desperately. I don't want to go back there, I need to go home.

I just kept walking through a path I found not knowing exactly where it was taking me until I felt a strong grip on my wrist pulling me which made me stop. I knew exactly who it was.

"Where you even planning to tell me? I-no. You know what? I don't want to speak to you, please let me go." My voice sounded broken, I hated it, how he had me broken for a second time and I had allowed it.

"April please listen to me! I was planning to tell you! I had to make sure everything was in order for us to go together, 2 months I could get you a position at the same company! " a Headache started forming as he spoke and no matter how hard I tried to get my hand out of his grip it was useless.

"What? You've got to be kidding me right now. You just expected me to leave everything I've worked so hard for behind just because you want me to?" I turned this time to face him while I spoke everything off my chest. I felt disgusted. My breathing was heavy as if I had just ran a marathon. He didn't mutter a single word. This gave me the opportunity to keep pouring my feelings out. "I never want to see you again, not now, not in two months, never." my voice came out almost like a whisper but I knew he could hear them loud and clear as his grip only tightened in my wrist.

"April dont do this to us please... I-I'll come back and I'll give you everything you deserve... I-"

"I said LEAVE!" my voice got louder than I expected to but the longer I stood there I the more I hated myself for letting myself be consumed by what I thought was something perfect.

"I think you heard perfectly that she does not want you here." there he is.
My breathing seemed to steady a little as I felt Eli's hand take mine from Andrew's grip and for a moment I felt like I could finally breath. I turned to look at an angry Andrew as he kept glaring between both Eli and I, I expected he would say something else but without a single word, he walked back to the camp leaving Eli and I behind.

Suddenly my whole body started shaking and I broke down into uncontrollable sobs as I gripped tightly unto his shirt. He didn't say anything, he simply wrapped his arms around me and held me for as long as I needed to as my sobs didn't seem like they would cease any time soon.

H

ow could I have been so stupid.

That was the only thought that flooded my mind as I kept sobbing into Eli's chest which he gladly accepted with no questions.

I didn't realize how much time we had been that way until I felt like no more tears would come out and I sniffed as I pulled back from Eli's embrace. His face had pure worry as I looked up at him, a hint of anger as well could be seen in his eyes.

"Let's go, I'll borrow Riley's car. I'm taking you home there's no way I'm letting you stay with that asshole." I couldn't process what he said as I was being pulled softly back to the camp.

"Wait Eli. It's too late, I-I'll be okay, let's just wait for tomorrow." it was a complete lie, I was anything but okay but I didn't want to bother him so I'd have to bear with it until tomorrow morning. I didn't even give him the opportunity to argue as I walked back along with him to the camps.

"April? Andrew left just now.. You can sleep in the tent by yourself." Riley gave me a soft smile to which I simply nodded and I heard Eli simply sigh by my side.

"I'm taking you home first thing in the morning tomorrow, no discussion." None needed. I didn't have the strength to reply as I walked back into the tent that I was sharing with Andrew.

I noticed the glances I received from everyone as I walked in, I knew they were talking about it. As much as I wanted to pretend I didn't care, I couldn't lie to myself.

I lied down inside the sleeping bag and let my tears simply flow freely.

People say what's meant to be yours will always come back to you. But this time it felt like life had played a trick on my by taking twice what I wanted.

I was suffocating as the silence of the night and the loudness of my thoughts kept me awake. My mind went back to the time in college I found out Andrew had left and all the feelings I had back then only to realize I was feeling the same but ten times worse.

This time adding regret into the mix for allowing this to happen to myself. To say I was sad is an understatement, I felt stupid, I felt worthless, and I hated myself for it. Knowing none of it was my fault but still feeling like I was the one who caused it. Suddenly my vision started blurring again, when I saw a shadow moving outside of the tent which made my breath quicken. What is he doing outside? Riley said he left!

"April? I-it's me, I brought you something." wait. That's not Andrew's voice.

I opened the zipper to the tent and found Eli standing outside holding a water bottle in his hand then handing it to me to which I immediately took a sip of it. Crying so much does make you thirsty.

"I thought you shouldn't be alone right now... You don't have to talk to me, I just wanted to make sure you're okay and fall asleep... I-I'll leave once your sleeping." His voice was soft and as much as I hated that he was probably tired and wanted to go to bed, I didn't bother to contradict him. I simply laid back down after zipping up the tent and my sleeping bag.

Eli lied down on the other sleeping bag both of us on our sides facing each other without saying a word.

"Sleep April..." We both chuckled softly as he brought his hand to brush a strand of hair behind my ear. That action for some reason made me forget everything I was feeling just minutes ago, my eyelids started feeling heavy, and as I felt a soft hand on my cheek I gave into the slumber.

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As Eli said we were on our way back home first thing in the morning. He insisted on dropping me off then coming back to pick Riley up since it was her car but she decided to ride with us since quote "the fun was over long ago". So the three of us rode in her car silently, every now and then Eli making some small talk with Riley while I simply sat at the back.

I was actually feeling worse than last night. I didn't even drink but it felt like I was hungover as my eyes were puffy from crying and my head was pounding, my stomach growled since I didn't even after breakfast last night and the light coming from the sun seemed to be my worst enemy at the moment.

Thankfully we made a stop to have breakfast and once we were done we went back on the road. Every few times I would see Eli glancing at me but turning away once I turned to him, it was like this for the entire ride. I knew he was simply worried but I simply hated the fact that this was happening in the first place.

2 hours later we finally made it back home and I went straight to bed before Holly would bombard me with questions I was definitely not ready to answer. I'll tell her about it, just not yet.

"I see you're really tired, what fun activities did you get up to?" Holly giggled as she jumped into my bed  and I knew exactly what she was implying and it definitely wasn't outdoor friendly activities.

"Yes, lots of fun stuff. So I'll take a nap and we can talk and have dinner once I wake up, deal?" I tried to keep my voice as positive as possible, thankfully Holly accepted and left me in my room for my much needed nap.

Just as I was starting to drift off, I felt my phone vibrating so I grabbed it to read the text message I had just received.

Eli: How are you feeling?

Eli: Let me know if there's anything you need.

Eli: Please.

April: I'm fine, promise

April: thank you for everything.

At least I know I'm not on my own this time.

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Oop- I guess no more Andrew and April :(

Or is it really over....? Hehe

Eli always comes to the rescue honestly how does he do that? Lol

Let me know what you think about Andrew's plans of him leaving with April to France!

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