self versus self (@BaldurMoon)
self versus self
In the sense that I
Am not myself
But another
In my own body
I see myself
Through my enemy's eyes
Images reflected
Between infinite mirrors
And I am not
I am not
You
Killing me
Killing you
Fighting foreign flesh
Making me bleed
With my own unknown
This mindbender
That is my subconscious
Is stuck in its violent scene
What more do I want
From this
I wanted to be someone else
And you are
Not I
And I am not you
We are not ourselves
Or each other
What more
Do we want
We just take ourselves
Wherever we go
You don't ever
Leave yourself behind
What do these bodies want
Do they want
To teach a lesson
To the stubborn skin
I once wore
Leaving scars
So upon my return
I will see all the hours
I spent outside
Me
And you
Will you go back
To your own
Skin
Or will I have to clear a space
For you to put your things in
(A poem I wrote long ago, during the days when I first started battling my schizophrenia. Poetry helps, but the fear is still there.)
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