I have been putting a smile on my face helping ppl out but inside I feel like im dying. I feel like I just wanna cry all the time. I know that sometimes im being childish wanting to cry but then I sit back and think I don't want the attention or ppl to think im seeking attention. I feel like I am useless. I feel like I am alone. Even though I know im not. I know I have my family and friends around me that care for me. I try si hard but the feeling is something I cannot push away. I feel like im not worth it. I feel like a waste of space. I know I am meant to do something good but I don't know what that is.  I feel like im a burden to some ppl with my non important drama. But I always try to keep a smile on my face to make sure ppl that kinda know what im going thru don't worry. It really sucks. But I know I just gotta keep my head up and push forward.