I felt like shit the next morning and my head was spinning but I couldn't just skip the lesson today it was only my second day.

I checked my phone and I got a text from Taehyung from yesterday,

[Text]
Taehyung: how was your first day?
Taehyung: it can be rough, but I know you can do it fighting! ❤️
Y/n:It was fine , and thanks I needed to hear that ❤️

I then closed my phone and got ready for another exhausting day,  I was already not in full power but I just needed to get through the day.

I got in my car and started driving to the entertainment company with one hand on the steering wheel and the other hand holding my coffee.

If I didn't have my coffee I would be crashing on the floor asleep, I didn't have time to eat breakfast as I woke up too late and I felt so sick in the stomach that I were to even eat anything I would probably throw it all up.

I reached my destination and got of my car slumping, but before I get into the building I straighten my posture and got my game face on as I did not need anyone commenting on my behaviour.

I got inside the studio, seeing everyone all prepped with so much energy, Jennie and Jackson walked up to me and frankly I wasn't in the mood to talk.

"Bad first day, thats how it always is, don't give up. Ya?"
"I feel like shit..."
It slipped out of my mouth,
"Yah! Y/n, Have more energy your going to need it but like Jackson said don't give up, your going to have to get used to this"
"Yeah, yeah I really don't feel like talking I'm sorry"
"That's okay just please, don't do anything your going to regret"

And with that they both left leaving me confused, 'don't do something I'm going to regret' what is that suppose to mean, I'm not going to do anything crazy, I don't even have the energy for it.

The instructor came and I felt fear rushing through my body, why was I scared? I don't think my body was fully recovered to start again today. I don't know what I am doing to myself.

"Okay, class today we are going to start working on real choreography, lesson today will end later because we are starting the real stuff today"

"YES SIR"
The whole class had said but I had said it very faintly.

And so with that the real training began

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Struggling most of the time being the only one tripping and falling feeling completely embarrassed I'm the only one struggling, I get frustrated with the new moves we incorporate also some of the beginner moves to elevate the dance moves,

I keep messing up feeling really useless but I try not to think negative, I go and try again learning the choreography, after 2 hours the teacher had let us take a break but that didn't stop me .

During the break I kept practicing over an over, tripping and falling but continued at one point I twisted my ankle, I knew I was pushing myself to hard, Jackson and Jennie ran up to me.

"Your pushing yourself to much!"
Jackson said with a worried expression on his face.
"Take a break, please rest your ankle"

As much as I didn't want to accept defeat I stopped as if I continued my ankle could get worse and not be able to dance at all.

They sat beside me as I drank water,

"Wow I didn't know you wanted it so badly"
"Practice makes perfect"
"But still, practice at full health, you didn't look that good when you first came in either"
"Sorry, just really stressed"
"We can tell,"

"Okay class, breaks over"
"Y/n, take it easy" Jennie said before she got back to her spot
"Listen to her"
Jackson said and went back to his spot.

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Class finally ended and I felt like my heart was going to pound out of my chest, sweat all over my body. I
Lay down on the wall catching my breathe.

Everyone starts leaving until  I was the last person in the room and I asked the teacher for permission to practice just a bit more, which I was aloud too.

I continued practicing, feeling a little bit better I keep practicing until I'm totally drained from energy,

I stopped I was at my limit so frustrated with myself that I wasn't doing my best as I knew I could to better. I stopped and I went on my phone and saw a text from Taehyung,

Taehyung: Hey, how are you. It can be rough, you okay?

I looked at it but my head was still filled with anger, I kind of retaliated

Y/n: hi. how am I? I feel like shit it's frustrating I can't do anything right, I'm trying, my body is to weak I hate it! ROUGH hell yeah ITS ROUGH it's only my second day and I already feel like my head is going to explode. I'm so envious your done with all this shit, I can't deal with this...

Taehyung: Let me help you then!

Y/N: You can't just help me! What's there to help, how could you do anything. Your always busy aren't you!I think I'm putting to much stress into myself , I don't think I can talk to you...I need to sort things out.

And with that I turned off my phone and without realizing tears started rushing down my eyes, I wanted to pull my hair out, I don't need to drag him down, it's for the best? My heart was slightly broken, I did this, I had too?

Jennie came into the room and I quickly wiped the tears away

"YAH Y/N! what's wrong, trouble in paradise"
"Huh?"
She hands me a coffee
"I thought you would still be here. But you wouldn't look like that if you aren't heart broken, trust me I know how that face looks like..."
I wipe whatever is left on my cheeks
"That's half the story"
"I see..."

We sat there in silents, I think I needed that for second. But then I broke the silents

" Where is Jackson?"
"He's at home, we don't live together, I wish"
My eyes widen as I took a sip of the coffee, I look into her eyes as she gives me a sad smile.
"You.."
"Yep, shocking isn't it?"
She gives me another smile and takes a sip of her coffee she taps her fingers on her coffee cup.
"Why don't we hang out "
I raised an eyebrow,
"Oh come on, it'll get our minds off things!"
"Um... sure?"