I'm starting to wonder about a lot of things. Mainly my life and the stuff that goes on in it.

I'm taking a step back. I'm...dealing with things. Some big issues, some small issues.

I'm breaking down my barrier of hate. That thick black cloud of hatred that's blocked me up so much I can't recognize good in me, or anything else around myself anymore.

It's almost as If I've been reborn. not really but close, you know?

It's like... I go to myself and actually hear myself. I'm not blocking out the thoughts that help me by replacing them with the utter exhilaration of exhaustion from berating myself.

I've been killing my mind, feeding it too many bad thoughts like they wear bits of mental. I'm un-clogging my head.

It's now or never.

I love myself

Or

I neglect myself.

it's up to me to choose, I know I'm going to make everything all better. I got to start, so let me begin.

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