My name is Felix Frozen. I love that my name, although in reality I have the same average name as everyone else. I've been thinking a lot about why we get a name before we're born. No one asks if you like it. They don't know your name is the same as you. I hated my name ... because it was so average that I always felt chained to my personality. I can't stand out from the crowd if that's my name like every second person. That's why I chose one of my own. I don't have that name on my ID, but it's written on the gate of my soul. Felix... which is a name of Latin origin and in addition to sounding very good, it means happiness and luck. These are the two things that have never been present in my life. At least in my name, they're always with me, and I feel a little like that so I can get closer to them. And why Frozen? Hmm .. it takes more time to explain, that's what my whole life is all about. My soul froze. But it is certainly not the result of a specific event, but rather a chain of many many events. I feel like I can't live my single moment 100%. I can't be completely happy, but I'm not sad either, as if I were experiencing all my emotions at a very low temperature. Something is blocking this .. I'm afraid my heart will completely freeze one day and I won't feel anything ..
Sometimes this condition can become useful. I have a hoarfrost frozen in my heart that protects me from all abuse. No one can upset me, every hurtful word has bounced off me, you can't even blackmail me emotionally. Those who don't know, or just don't understand, think I don't care about anything, as they say, "- You shit, everything! It's good for you." My whole life is a series of attempts to read my soul. I want to live, I want to be happy, I want euphoria and depression, I want to be in love so much that I make completely unreasonable decisions ..
But everything is still so cold, getting colder. I promised myself that I would break out of the ice prison once!
I have to do something crazy if I want a change!