Please check A/N at the end kinda important :)

Real long chapter so hopefully you will enjoy!!

"It hurts because you feel too much,
Because you care too much and,
Because you feel connected to it all
No matter how far you go "

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2 Hours before Summerslam Main Event

"Why am I here?" I asked as I took a seat in front of the desk.

"Look Brock, we need something different from the match" Vince spoke as he glanced at Carrano briefly.

"Why? I'll just give the kid a couple suplexes and get done with it" I shrugged as this was Vince and he knew I was past the stage of putting on a show.

The people knew who I was and what I was capable of so they didn't expect anyone to be any competition for me.

Even Randy fucking Orton.

"The thing is Randy is face. Once you leave here we both know your plans. While Randy will be behind and I know you ain't planning on losing to Randy . But we also don't want Randy just being treated like a rag doll."

I shrugged not sure what he was getting at .

"Its simple . I want you to be the Beast."

I chuckled a bit.

"That's what I plan on being?"

"Yes but I want you to unleash the Brock that was there with my son in law when he broke his arm. I want to make Orton seem like a hero in the end. You can end it in five minutes or 20minutes frankly I don't care but I want blood because Orton needs to be seen as having no choice. We don't want him being pinned so.."

"TKO?" I sighed.

"You don't seem as excited to get blood on your hands as I thought you would be."

I didn't say anything remembering Nikki having met Kim for breakfast this morning at the hotel before she went with me to my shoot.

"Would it have anything to do with Nikki Bella?"

My eyes snapped to his and I couldn't stop my jaw clenching.

"Why would you think that?"

"I don't think you have tried to hide anything from the night of her retirement"

"What did you just fucking say?" I glared not caring how I spoke because he knew how I was .

"I meant her giving up the title"

"She's not retiring anytime soon just give her a couple months" I stated despite him correcting himself.

"There's talk Brock, people are saying that the Beast will be beaten by the Viper due to Nikki making him soft. I mean kissing a diva on scr.." I heard Carrano.

"Woman" I corrected and he sighed.

"My point exactly. The Beast is not meant to care about anything"

"I don't give a fuck about talk if that's how you're trying to get me. TKO? Fuck that shit." I stood up but heard him.

"If you do this ,get Randy's name out there, we will give Nikki a title shot as soon as she gets back"

I shook my head as I stood against the wall "I have dealt with this shit with your daughter now you.."

"I'm not threatening Nikki Bella. She will be getting a shot either way I am very fond of her. But we know her , she will want to fight for it as soon as she gets back and that may not be the direction we are going but maybe.."

I sighed, "fine!"

"Brock! One more thing... This is a surprise factor its in the contract that you guys signed in fine print but Randy doesn't know so.."

"Whatever"

****

I sat at the bar drinking a beer as we were in a holiday beach house, while Nicole was with everyone else, meaning my family and some of hers.

So I just cast Nikki's friends as Brock's sister and sister in-law

BROOKE - SISTER

LISA - SISTER IN-LAW

I hadn't left without her, I waited in the locker room like a fucking idiot for over an hour when I realized it was closing and she had left with John Cena or who fucking knew.

All I knew is that she had been gone all week while I was left with Bryan and her parents filling my house. This was their last week there, while it made no difference to me as I had been at training camp. I had planned on taking Nicole out for some dinner in the week and discussing my next plans with her but when she didn't fucking come home...

I knew she would be pissed but staying away from me?

She glanced my way as she laughed but quickly glanced away again. It had been that way all morning and I was not looking forward to us being stuck on a fucking yacht later.

"I may be wrong but then again I do know my sister very well but she doesn't seem to want to be around you?" I saw JJ in the corner of my eye as I focused on her.

I didn't respond, I wasn't being grumpy sitting in a corner. I just wasn't social, which luckily for me was who I was so nobody questioned it but of course her brother who always seemed to be against us, did.

"My sister has a way of overreacting. I'm guessing it could be about Sunday .She'll get over her tantrum of being pissed over shit"

"It ain't shit. She has every right to be pissed" I stated before walking out of the house deciding to head out to the pools.

While I thought exactly like JJ did I wasn't going to let him think I approved of him badmouthing his sister to me. I might have been annoyed by her but she had not been taken seriously enough in their eyes over the years.

It was my sister's wedding weekend, tomorrow she would be married. I didn't mind the guy she would be with which is another reason despite wanting to corner Nicole I didn't. I didn't want to ruin her weekend so I would wait until tonight.

Nicole and I had our own room on the far side of the house so I could speak to her then.

I soon saw them all coming down for a swim and I was annoyed even more as I saw them posing for pictures while my folks were upstairs.

My sister was having a small wedding of about 100 people so I was surprised that she invited Nicole them. I had simply wanted Nicole to come and she would have came as I had a plus one. I would have wanted Rena to come with the kids as they were friends as well but they had gone to Rick's parents up in Canada .

I decided to grab a towel and headed down to the private beach instead as I knew myself and I would be throwing a beer bottle against the wall soon.

That booty 😍😍😍😍

I had been swimming around in the sea for quite some time when I saw her standing on the sand staring at me . I walked out with a frown, she had taken off her brace but I didn't get why she was here.

"Why are you being so annoying?"

I chuckled and raised my eyebrow at her words.

"You haven't spoken to me the entire time" She whispered.

I shrugged despite being slightly pissed off I didn't feel like shouting.

"And you have to me? You disappeared all week , you left to be with your ex's best friend and him most likely and then you don't come home"

"Seriously? I come fucking to you cause you always say you run after me and now you are accusing me? I was at JJ's not John's." She whispered before turning but I pulled her against me.

"I wasn't implying that shit, I'm just saying you're acting like a fucking kid. I didn't do anything to you Nicole and you run fucking off" I shook my head.

"I was mad cause you made me feel stupid for being mad when I had every right to be"

I sighed, " I never meant to Nicole but its the same thing. I didn't hurt you..That's my job, I get backed into a corner just like everybody fucking else so when the boss says something I do it. I expect my girlfriend, despite not liking it, to at least come home with me."

I saw her trying to fight a smile even though I hadn't been looking for one.

"You missed me didn't you?" She moved forward and pulled my arms around her.

"I'm surprised that you are here. I thought I was going to have a screaming match with you tonight " I glanced back at the house before my eyes settled on hers.

" Then we would be in the cycle. I don't want to fight with you so I'm giving you your first pass. Especially after Randy seemed so calm about it all " I frowned as I was confused.

"You're a lot to handle sometimes" I sighed as I shook my head wanting to be pissed for my own reasons but everything vanished with her brown eyes on me.

"You're always a lot to handle" she bit her lip with a smile.

I let my hands grip her barely covered behind and pulled her against me.

She hopped onto me and I chuckled before kissing her and walking into the ocean.

"I can't swim with my neck Brock" she squealed.

"I know baby I'm not going in too deep" I smirked and she rolled her eyes but continued kissing me as I walked until I felt the water meet up until my chest.

I let my hands grip her bare behind and gave it a squeeze as she moaned into my lips.

"Have you ever been fucked in the sea?" I whispered before kissing her again, knowing that was not going to be happening.

I let my lips graze over hers as a gentle wave moved us a bit. I searched her eyes as she glanced past me.

"I don't want you running out on me every time you get upset. When we first started our relationship you said that this was me and you. Our business and it hasn't been that way at all, but I don't blame you for that but when you just stay away for a week without contacting me? Nicole I don't wanna go back to that fucking shit again with you and if once that brace comes off that will be happening again?" I shook my head as her bringing up the cycle got me thinking .

"It won't, I was dealing with all these different emotions and I just made them all turn into anger aiming at you. I wasn't okay and I know you knew I wasn't okay but after you took advantage of me" She smiled while I narrowed my eyes which caused her to kiss me briefly.

"I was on cloud 9 and then I'm standing there and John comes. I ignored him because I wanted to be the first person you saw when you got back but of course with the TKO . I was just stunned I couldn't move and I saw him getting angry and he was questioning me and I didn't even know how to defend myself because I was blindsided by it all . I felt guilty because Randy is my friend, his wife is a good friend and my boyfriend beat him to a pulp"

She whispered .

"I'm sorry baby.." I leaned forward and kissed her.

Sure I could make shit easier on me by telling her my reasons but then she would feel even more fucking guilty and she hadn't told me to agree to anything.

I just fucking cared about this woman so much.

She broke it and gave me a couple quick pecks.

"You're a Beast and I do love the violent side of you. I said things I didn't mean..."

"I'm so disgusted by you right now"

"As long as you didn't mean them baby" I gave a small smile.

"Of course I didn't. I love you too much to mean any of them. And the Beast.."

"And The Beast definitely loves you" She giggled into my lips.

While I simply felt like a sucker for saying it but I was happy she had come to me. I fucked up,  I said things to her as well because I was hurt. I wasn't used to it..

I was able to inflict pain on people and be as rude as I wanted because I didn't fucking care and she does the same to me and it leaves me feeling fucking weak and guilty for not caring about anyone but her at that place ..

"Is he okay though?" I whispered as she focused on me as I hovered over her while we laid on the sand.

"He got about ten stitches but his okay. Look I know that sometimes things happen that only the wrestlers in that match know about, but him being my friend. I just would have liked to know cause I'm standing there and I just see blood and you ruthlessly attacking him" She whispered as she traced her fingers over my arm.

"But you know I am capable of that" I searched her eyes and she nodded slowly.

"Yes but that's in UFC where it is expected, not here. But luckily for you I love you so we can just forget about it. I was shocked and you were coming off a high from the match and I know dealing with John wasn't exactly calming.  " She shrugged.

"I'll apologize to him " I whispered into her lips, I hated the way she looked at me that night.

I never really cared about my actions. Never had to explain myself but..

What she said, she was disgusted by me.

I knew Nicole had her moments to take things overboard but I still didn't like it. Regardless of her saying she hadn't meant any of it.

"No you are not! Brock Lesnar doesn't apologize. He is fine, no hard feelings. You are a Beast let's leave it at that" She repeated and I wasn't sure why I was pressing it.

"But I can apologize to you?"

"There's always the exception" she smiled.

"So you are no long repulsed at the mere sight of me?" I gave a small smile.

She pushed on my chest so that she laid on top of me, "Maybe a little bit but I'm sure you can make me never want to leave your side again"

I searched her eyes hoping she meant something else but it was just a way to tease me.

"I'm sure I can.."

I sighed and sucked up my pride.

"I just want to know that the woman I am in love with will not look at me differently based on what I do to other people. Or if I get too angry and smash a couple things. While I walk away from you to hide my temper sometimes.."

She cut me off.

"You are not going to lose me Brock. I'm the same, well not smashing things but I get angry easily and overreact and even if I say I never want to see you again. I don't mean any of it. You Brock Lesnar are stuck with me" I smiled like a fucking idiot before kissing her slowly.

****

WEDDING

"Are you seriously asking me that shit Brooke?" I narrowed my eyes at my sister. It was about a half hour left to her wedding.

"Come on, just ask her! And don't glare at me! " She nagged.

"I'm not ! And you don't know my girlfriend" I shook my head.

"Brock its my special day, don't be horrible to me please!" I sighed and nodded before exiting the room.

Annoyed by the fact that my parents had let her go to high school out of our town. She was this classy broad now, I mean yeah she was still my sister with the country in her but the way she spoke and shit annoyed the crap out of me.

"Baby..." I whispered but smiled as she was in her underwear.

"What's in the bag?" She frowned.

"Depends on your answer..." She raised her eyebrow.

"One of my sister's bridesmaids can't make it and while I frankly don't care cause I can just sit out of the wedding cause I don't feel like walking down the aisle. I told her I didn't even want to be in the..."

"You're part of the wedding?" She whispered cutting me off.

I nodded.

"And you were going to be walking down the aisle with who?" She focused on me while my eyes trailed over her body.

"One of her friends." She slowly nodded and I frowned as she glanced away.

"What's wrong?"

She was jealous, it was the same look she had given many times when Charlotte came up and she was trying to be subtle about it but I knew her.

"Its just you didn't tell me you were in the wedding and walking down the aisle with some hot bridesmaid" she shook her head as she took off her brace.

"Nicole, I ain't walking down the aisle with anyone cause she can't make it" I smirked at the fact that she was jealous.

"But you were, what if I was the bridesmaid at some wedding and some other guy had his arm hooked in mine walking down a aisle I just.."

Her and her hypothetical questions always through me off.

"But I'm not anymore, am I missing something here baby?" My smirk dropped as there seemed to be more.

She sighed .

"No Brock."

I ignored the fact that she was lying because this was my sister's day and me getting into an argument with Nicole because she didn't want to tell me shit wouldn't have been good.

"Do you want to walk down the aisle with me? My sister asked so the dress is in that bag. I told her I wasn't sure if you would want to though so you don't have to." I sighed as her mood which amused me before was now ticking me off.

"Its better than nothing.." She mumbled .

"Nicole..." I stood up to move to her.

"I'm going to change" she cut me off as she took the bag.

She had been acting weird at the rehearsal dinner last night already. I had thought I messed up again but the fact that she cuddled up to me let me know I hadn't...

I fucking never knew with Nicole.

I stood up and grabbed my jacket as once Nicole was out we would be driving to the venue which was five minutes away.

I took a small backpack with some extra clothes just in case and put her brace in for later.

"Its a bit lose in the back but I don't think you'll notice" she gave a small smile as she walked out. I knew she didn't want to get into anything. Something told me her just wanting to forget about what happened at Summerslam had something to do with it as well.

"You look beautiful baby" I made my way to her as the material clung to her body.

"Guess white suits me" She shrugged as my eyes trailed over her.

"It does, I was meaning to ask you about..."

"Hey, ready to go?" I turned and saw my brother and gave a nod as she slipped on her heels before we followed.

Nicole and I were the last to walk down and she seemed nervous or something was still bothering her.

I glanced around the venue and I didn't get why my sister didn't just have a fucking wedding by my lake as it practically looked the same...

I saw the signal and felt Nicole's fingers tighten around my arm as we walked down.

I hadn't wanted to do this simply because I fucking hated the way everybody was looking at us but with Nicole by my side, despite her mood, it was made easier.

She was right..

She let go as I stood next to my brother and her next to his wife.

She did look good in white and she WOULD look good in white...

***

Ed Sheeran - Thinking out Loud

When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

My sister and new brother-in- law were currently having their first dance while my arm was draped over the back of Nicole's chair.

I sipped some champagne which I hated but it was the only thing here and felt her lips in my neck as she gave my thigh a squeeze.

"Can we go dance?"

"Nah not really in the mood" she nodded and sat back.

I glanced back and saw all the other couples were now dancing including her family.

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

I sighed and stood up, "Come on.."

She smiled as I led her into the crowd . She wrapped her arms around my neck and moved as close to me as possible.

So, honey, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are

"This song is so typical" I heard her as she leaned back a bit.

"What song would you want at our wedding?" She smiled a bright smile that had been missing all weekend.

"Not this song. You probably wouldn't like it though" She stared into my eyes .

"It doesn't matter though. Its your first wedding so you can go crazy" I shrugged.

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way (mmm...)
I know you will still love me the same
'Cause, honey, your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen

"I feel sorry for you" she shook her head while I simply smiled as I hoped her smile was the thought of us getting married.

"Why?"

"Because I'm one of those girls who have been planning their special day since they could remember"

I smirked, " less work for me "

And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

She sighed after a bit, "you're mean"

"What?" I frowned.

"I've had enough people messing with me about a wedding and you're just smirking and smiling with amusement. I have accepted that I won't have that but doesn't mean I appreciate you teasing me with it like that. There's always a line Brock.."

"I love you baby" I whispered into her lips as I wasn't sure what the fuck was going on.

That, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are (oh, oh)
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, lo-ud

"I know, it hurts more" she glanced down as she continued swaying.

"Nicole I'm not trying to fucking.."

"Can we just not talk about it? Its your sister's wedding. I'll smile and whatever"

I felt my jaw clenching, just because John fucking Cena didn't want it she thought I was messing with her.

I clutched her arm and led her into the house.

"What the fuck is going on Nicole?"

"I just want to go home" She whispered while I wasn't sure what the fuck I had done wrong.

"I just... It doesn't matter. I don't care about what just happened out there just don't do it again. You can mess with me about lambs or something. Just don't do that"

"So what? Every fucking wedding you're going to get sad cause you wish you were married to John?" I frowned as I had just brought it up and she was fucking thinking about him not wanting it.

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud

"Why are you glaring at me? You know how many times I envisioned my wedding being next. How much I just want that feeling ... My brother made sure to put that out there on our first few months of dating. This is my fourth time being a bridesmaid and I'm sorry if I get a little sad. " She explained

"Well I am fucking sorry that your fucking Ken didn't want to marry you" I sneered ignoring the hurt flashing in her eyes.

"This isn't about him, not everything that hurts me is about him." She shook her head and walked back out and I sighed.

I tried to not bring him up every time but she did it by thinking of him while I was fucking getting hope that she wanted it with me.

Of course she fucking didn't...

But maybe we found love right where we are
Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are

A/N:

So after the next couple chapters I will be doing a Nikki Bella unfiltered thing as she has appeared on the show before .

So this is your chance to send in any questions, by commenting,  you have for Nikki about anything including the Beast until then ;)

I will give full credit to everyone asking as I plan on making them tweets.

Be as creative as possible but of course with regards to events happening in the book :)

Keep in mind that they haven't confirmed their relationship yet.

ALSO SORRY IF THIS CHAPTER WAS ALL OVER: /

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