Home, home wasn't just a house with family, home was everything everyone was delighted to have, a living family, cozy, warm and welcoming was the house that was a home.

Home had happiness, trust and most importantly love, families could be two or more but as long as they had a home, they were family... And home wasn't a house, it was more like feeling.

A feeling I didn't feel in a long long time, a feeling that had been always deprived from me, a feeling I was forbidden to feel.

Yet, this feels home...

The family reunion was yet to end, everyone had been laughing and expressing how they missed this, home I mean. They were a large family, all held love for each other, helped and trusted each other.

Dinner was done long time ago and gossips were made, much of it was from the girls, talking about the new CEO of a company, they say he was handsome and learnt in Richards school, weird I thought, I remember Aki knew each and every of the Greek Gods there.

This one, this one she didn't...

"Ky, could you please call that dick up there.."

I couldn't still believe that they all forgived me just like that, what I did was unforgivable, even if it was me I wouldn't just forgive myself for the incurable pain I caused each of them. I am not complaining but my heart itches with regret every now and then.

"..in his room for sure, he didn't eat dinner much too" Nessa offered me, I didn't want to go there, I didn't want to meet him, specially not in that room..

But I couldn't say no, I've never did, and after the pain I caused them I sure deserve what I was going through, meeting him had always erupted emotions from me and I didn't want to control them this time, I couldn't.

I just knew I couldn't, for it was in that room where we used to be ourselves, the walls know my secrets and the bed knew my scent, everything there knew me thoroughly.... And I didn't want to admit that I let them know myself.

Nodding to her and flashing her my most loveliest smile I could muster at the time being I went out side and took a deep breath.

My legs knew where they were going, it was as if they missed the floor and white rug of the room, as if they knew what I wanted. I wanted to force them to stop, I knew this was going to lead me into a massacre I can't pull myself out from, but a little part of my head and a huge part of my heart wanted to go in there and make some new memories.

Impossible I thought.

The door was opened revealing Ashton, he stood by the picture of him and I, his back to me as he saw the picture giving it it's full attention. I saw the picture from long time ago too, the picture I still had in my wallet and in the memorial box.

"Happy birthday, Ash" I smile standing in front of him returning the heated gaze he gave me.

"Don't give me that look, it won't end good for you" he grins pulling me to him by my waist, I felt the heat creeping on my cheeks "but I assure you, I am going to love each second of it"

"False hopes hurts like a bullet, don't pass your limits"

He chuckle grinning at me before peeking the corner of my mouth and tightening his hold on my waist.

"I love you" he whisper,

my heart pounded faster and louder, fire ignited and happiness imbued me and every spine of my body, cloud nine was my standing and I stare at his sparky eyes trying my best to express my feelings towards him too, but was interrupted by Aki.

"I don't wanna miss this, say cheez"

To the camera we smile, or I smile as the photo shows that he was smiling at me, and I was still in his arms....like I wished I would always be.

"What are you doing here" his voice rang, anger was visible and I was terrified of his look, he indeed looks furious or worse he is furious.

"Nessa told me to call you, and now that I did, I'll be moving" I held my head high, shoulder straight and voice calm unlike my heart.

I was moving back to the hallway when his footsteps were heared and within second I was being dragged back to that room, his room. The room I wanted to hate but couldn't just like it's owner.

After closing the door firmly behind us he caged me between the wall and him. I didn't like the feeling I was getting, it wasn't pleasant yet it wasn't unpleasant too.

"What the hell is wrong with you, you can't just drag people because you want to" I spat, I wasn't angry, but I wanted to be, I didn't want to feel all the emotions I am feeling, but I am.

"Old friend you say, old friend?" The last words was spat with anger, disgust and pain "didn't you tell that boyfriend of yours that you had ex-boyfriend, which you betrayed cause you were nothing but selfless, that you played and threw when the time was over. Didn't you!!"

One thing I hated was feeling regret, they can't turn back time but they eat you for something you were and are sorry, they eat you alive even if you paid for the thing you did.

Karma was real bitch, but I was always Karma. Not this time though, I couldn't win over the real karma this time. And no regret was going to pull me out of reality.

But I shouldn't show that I was weak, I was strong and I am strong, I needed to calm and show no mercy, for hurting him will come next if I ever did.

I push him with all the strength I had creating just a small space between us, I masked the pain and regret I was feeling with anger, I fuel it with everything I had.

"You still have no right to talk to me like that,..as for your answer it is my personal life and I do whatever I want to, I tell my boyfriend whatever I want to." But I had no boyfriend now "besides what's there to talk about immature fondness with someone who is being too clingy for a CEO with a girlfriend-"

I didn't get to finish the lies that flowed my mouth and was shutted with another familiar lips.

Soft his lips were, rough he always play, pain he shows and love he expresses.

I didn't know what I was doing as I kissed him back with the same passion but different meanings. Kisses were merely a word, feeling that you can't enforce from your mouth. Kisses had always meanings, they always meant something unless it was a pure lust and nothing else.

And mine this time shows everything....just everything.

                    $$$$

Thank u so much again,I love you all.
Habo-j