Author's Side-Note: I know the picture above is not wrestling related, and I am well aware that it's a Star Wars picture, but it's more-or-less here as a representation of how the mood will be for Jack, and a part of what goes on in his mind with his condition...minus the lightsaber...Also this chapter will mostly be from Jack's perspective, with maybe one or two pov's from others.

Jack's Personal Observation:

After getting back to the coach and tucking Angel into bed after she practically jumped into my arms as soon as I got in (which Barbara took her chance at taking a picture of might I add): I began to drive us off onto the road. The journey was going to be a long one, no doubt, but I was confident that we could make it in time for the Hall of Fame Ceremony.

The girls were all asleep, or at least that's what I assumed they were doing anyway, I can never tell sometimes if they sleeping or scheming something to celebrate my birthday...which was last month in March...

And just to clarify: they did remember my birthday, as did my friends in the wrestling world like Finn, AJ and Rollins to name a few, and even Angel remember as well...the only one who choose not to remember was myself. For reasons I may speak of another time...

The only ones who were with me was Winter and Max, but both were asleep next to my chair, which to fair to them I didn't blame them for. 

I was enjoying the peace and quiet of the drive, since most times I drive without either the radio on or without putting on any music...not because I don't enjoy listening to music, because I do, but because because Caitlin and Barbara get worried whenever I put on music I like on, and also because my confidence in driving is pretty much non-existent. Never liked being the driver.

I was enjoying the journey and enjoying the silence, but there was something that I couldn't get out of my mind, despite every rational part of me telling me to close off my heart...or I should say, someone I couldn't get out of my mind...Alexa Bliss...

Ever since I met WWE's "Goddess", she's been like a breath of fresh air to my life in all the right ways. She's been kind, always enjoys being around me and my family, and is just a bundle of joy to be around when able to be around us...but there in itself was also the problem...and I knew what it was...I was falling for "The Goddess" herself...

Admittedly, it would be very hard not to fall for her in terms of looks alone, but I didn't fall for her for her looks. I do love how she looks, don't get me wrong, both naturally and with makeup on (and yes, I've seen her without make-up on, and she still looked beautiful without it), but I fell for the person she is outside of the ring, and for who she is as a whole. To like her just for her looks would be a disservice, or at least that's how I feel.

But...as much as I may like her, more than just a friend despite how short of a time it's been since I met her...I can't be the one to go for her...in the long run, I would only cause her more pain and harm than good...

She deserves someone who can treat her right, someone who can treat her how she's meant to be treated, and someone who can make her smile and feel loved. And even if my sisters or anyone else tries to deny that that description doesn't reflect me, I disagree completely. 

How I am alone is enough of a counter-argument in terms of my...outbursts...I could end up hurting her really badly one day, and it would completely destroy me, just as it would if I did the same to any of my sisters, my pets, or god forbid if I did that to Angel!

"She's better off without me..." I said with a weary sigh...and I could feel some tears fall down my check as I heard myself say without my brain registering it first "...so was Amy...if she hadn't met me...maybe should would still be alive now...."

Amy, or Angelique as she was really called, was the only other woman that I was ever in love with, and she was Angel's mum as well. She found me when I was pretty much at the lowest point in my life, even if I was wrestling at the time, and she helped me fight of the darkness inside of me and helped heal me...I even planned on asking her to marry me as well, but the timing was never right...but now, the time can never be....

Unfortunately, about a month after I decided I would propose to her after Angel was born...something went wrong...it was never determined what went wrong, although I suspect the doctors and my sisters told me that to make it hurt less, but about a week before Angel was meant to be born: the car that me and Amy were in on the way back from a nearby hospital was hit by a truck at high-speed...driven by a drunk driver as well...

I got out of it with only a broken arm, by some miracle I suppose, but Amy was badly hurt...and by the time we got to the hospital when the ambulances arrived, they had to do some sort of medical procedure to save Angel, inducing birth early I think, I can't remember...thankfully Angel survived both the birth, and had survived the car crash without any injuries...but...but Amy wasn't so lucky as us...

I know now that the damage she had sustained from the car crash was what eventually killed her, as I never once believed that Angel's birth was the cause of it for a second...but minutes later after Angel was born: Amy died of her injuries and blood loss....her last words were to look after Angel, and...and that she loved me....

Her death completely broke me far worse than when my Mum died, and I still haven't recovered from her death to this day...in fact the only thing that kept me from going over the edge completely was Angel, Caitlin and Barbara at the time, as neither Winter or Max were a part of our lives at the time.

Still...I guess that being around Lexi is a blessing in of itself, and at least I can be her friend...even if I can't be anything else.

Eventually I put on some music to help clear my mind and help try and clear up my mood: listening to songs like "Over and Over" and "I Am Machine" by Three Days Grace, "Shepard of Fire" by Avenged Sevenfold, "Judas" and "Running with the Bulls" by Fozzy, and "Hero" by Skillet...just to name a few...and yes, I am aware a lot of those songs can bring down a mood quite easily, but for me they strangely help me, and nobody has ever figured out why, not even me.

We eventually arrived at where the Hall of Fame Ceremony was being held the next day, how and by what miracle I neither know nor argue with, I'm just glad we got here at all and a lot earlier than I thought we would arrive at. 

Unfortunately, I was completely tired. Not just from driving all night and most of the day, but from the events of yesterday as well before and during NXT Takeover: New York, and my sisters saw it. Eventually they told me to go and try and sleep for a while, and they promised that they would wake me up before I needed to get ready for the Hall of Fame Ceremony (because they knew I was going with Lexi).

Reluctantly I agreed to, so I went to my room and laid on the bed before closing my eyes, falling into the clutches of what I hoped would be a dreamless sleep...if only fate was that kind to me....

Alexa's Personal Observation:

I was currently getting everything ready for the Hall of Fame Ceremony tonight before I get on with the rest of my day, but inwardly I felt like someone with a high school crush going out with the one I'm swooning over, if that makes any sense at all. 

As soon as I was done, I heard my phone go off and saw that Caitlin was trying to face-time me. Smiling at that, I ended up replying and was greeted by a ""Hey girl!"" from both Caity and Barb. 

"Hey girls! Where are you?" I responded, though I got confused when they laughed a bit. ""New Jersey!"" they both said to me, surprising me instantly. "Wait, you're here!?!" They nodded at that with smirks...but that changed when Caity adopted a serious expression. 

"We need a word with you though, Lexi. It's...it's about Jack. We're...we're kind of worried about him." That got me worried at hearing that, so I nodded slowly and replied with "I'll send you the address to the hotel, I'll met you out there in a bit." They nodded at that and the call eventually ended. 

As I got ready to go and meet them, after sending them the address for the hotel of course: I started to get a bit worried. What could be going on with Jack...?

Caitlin's Personal Observation:

I really hope that my bro will be okay. I know he can take care of himself most of the time, but...well, I worry about what happens to him when he is left alone most of the time. If me, Barbara and Angel are there, or hell even if Winter and Max are there, he's perfectly fine outside of his confidence and sleep problems. 

Okay, maybe not "perfect", because nobodies perfect, but you get what I mean, hopefully.

Hell, even when Jack's in a ring he's like he's in his own element, and he's a completely different person. Almost like he was born to be in that ring and entertain wrestling fans! The problem is, quite often when he's alone and not near a ring...I fear what will happen to him, and if his...his other side will take over. 

To be fair, he's gotten better and hasn't had an attack since we've arrived at NXT, which has been both a blessing and a worry at the same time, but me and Barbara both know that it's only a matter of time before something happens...

I felt myself mentally scheming on something though. Maybe a certain buddy of mine, a certain Goddess of WWE and Five Feet of Fury, could help him out...they just need the right push. Jack will never make the first move, that much I know for certain because he's under the impression that he's not good enough for anyone. 

He is good enough, and we've tried to tell him his fears are unfounded, but you know what some guys can be like. Stubborn. So it would have to either be Alexa who makes the first move...or me and Barbara will have to 'help them' make the first move.

This is going to be fun!

Jack's Personal Observation:

As I laid in my bed, uncomfortably shifting constantly as I failed to sleep well: multiple thoughts and...what felt like visions, or really bad dreams, surged through my head all at once, each one worse or as bad as each other...but that wasn't the worst to come yet...

I awoke from my unpleasant sleep with a fright, as I heard what sounded like a woman screaming loudly in fright inside of my mind...after seeing what looked like an unconscious version of me laying comatose on a locker room floor in a vision of sorts...and I was sweating like mad, panicking and hyper-ventilating as I tried to pull myself together...and then it happened!

My 'darker side', as Finn, Seth and AJ have dubbed it in the past, began to take over: and then I began to lose it: grabbing whatever was around me and attacking things around the room, destroying things...and busting myself open at the same time...I was having one of my attacks!

Fortunately, none of my stuff is in my room, as we moved it to a spare room just to be on the safe side...but even so...well, let's just say that the room I was now cowering in the corner in out of fear...had seen better days...

I'm not sure how long I just sat in the corner of that room, my head buried into my hands whilst I was speaking inaudible whispers to myself, unaware of the fact that my...sudden outburst attack had resulted in me busting my head open again; but it was long enough for one of my sisters to return...

Barbara came into the room, possibly calling my name even though I hadn't heard her say a thing once whilst trapped in my own world...but I was pulled back into reality with a start when she placed both her hands onto my arms after running over to me, causing me to panic a bit until I saw it was Barb once I'd readjusted to the world around me. 

She had a look of fear and worry on her face. Not for her own safety, no that was never something Cait or Barb ever worried about with me strangely, despite how I am...she had that look because she was worried about me...

She sat next to me and wrapped an arm around me, laying her head on my shoulder as she whispered words to me to help me calm down. I couldn't hear what the words were, as I was still trying to get a grip of my own fears after what happened again, but they did help, slowly, to return me to being myself...at least for now...but he'll be back, that much we've all known for far too long now....I just hope I don't lose control when I go with Lexi tonight...

End of pov.

'You can never escape me...!'

Author's Side-Note: I think I'll leave the chapter there. I don't think it was the best one I've done, despite how much time I've taken with it, but I do hope that you like it. Next chapter will either be focussing more on what the girls do before Barbara finds Jack in his state, or the night of the Hall of Fame Ceremony. Or both. 

Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, and I apologise for the wait on it, but I was focusing on some of my other non-wrestling stories at the time. Can't promise when the next chapter will come out, but I hope to get the chapter out soon, hopefully. So, see you in the next chapter, and I hope you all have an amazing day!