Jungkook's POV

October 20, 2016

After knowing Eunwoo I knew right away he has feelings for you and I knew there is something going on between you two, it's more than just a friendship and then it turns out you had the same feeling for him too and even after we became official, I know that the special feeling for your bestfriend is still there, I could feel it.

The day he confessed to you, I had so many thoughts in my mind because after hearing your conversation, I started to question everything because I wasn't sure if you had already move on, I wasn't sure if the feelings you have for me was enough for you to choose me over him.

I feel threatened. I keep telling myself that I wasn't because I know how much you love me but even how many times I tried to deny it, my insecurities is showing whenever he's with you. My insecurities is killing me that I feel threatened over everything.

But then...

I didn't know, I didn't know that you are starting to fear me, I always let my emotions control over me completely oblivious that I was starting to act like your father. I don't want to be like him, I don't want you to resent me. I can't imagine one day, you would look at me with full of hatred.

I was really against of the idea but then again you are right. If I keep on behaving like this I might ruin our relationship and I don't want that.

I promise you, I will be a better person for you.

October 21, 2016

I waited for you. I wasn't going to stalk you or anything, I just want to see you even just for a few seconds. You're with him and it looks like you two already talk and settle things with each other.

I glances away and headed towards my class ignoring how my heart aches for not being able to be near you, not being able to do anything.

October 28, 2016

I saw you today and as expected you are with him again. You're laughing together as you enter the School and I was there standing silently watching you two. Believe me when I say I'm happy that you two made-up and now hanging out together just like before.

I don't want you to see me that's why I turned away and hide myself. I don't want to make you feel bad that I might be hurting seeing you together.

You don't have to worry about me, I am trying my hardest to be a better one, for you.

October 29, 2016

I accidentally walk into you, I look down as soon as I met your gaze and walk past you. I needed to leave right away because I'm scared that I'll do something stupid.

Like...

Pulling you into my arms and tells you how your absence affects me real bad.

November 5, 2016

I was working on a project and I've been busy these past few days. But even being busy still I couldn't take you off of my mind. Whenever I do something; I instantly think about you. I'm missing you everyday baby, I want to see you so bad but it would be a bad idea right?

I needed to prove myself to you so I won't do things you won't like.

November 6, 2016

Job well done. I was able to finish my project on time and I am looking forward on seeing you in School but unfortunately you weren't here today. I'm guessing you guys are hanging out again and ofcourse friends does hang out every time and I am not jealous nor threatened, I promise!

But can I be honest with you? I'm silently hurting...

November 7, 2016

I didn't see you today even Eunwoo. It surprises me how you didn't attend School so I asked one of your classmates and told me you weren't in School since yesterday.

I am really worried about you and end up waiting outside your house, hoping to see you, even just a glimpse of you. An hour, two hours... three... four hours, you didn't show up but I already made up my mind to wait until I see you.

Suddenly the rain came pouring down and I  eventually decided to go home.

Where are you? I hope you are doing okay...

November 8, 2016

You weren't in your class and it has been three days already. My heart felt heavy, I can't focus into anything, mind clouded by the thoughts of you.

Should I ask Chanyeol-hyung? I'm worried sick, baby.

November 9, 2016

Hey, I found out you and Eunwoo had a trip, I hope you are enjoying everything about your trip because I know how you love and appreciate new places. I bet you took lots of pictures there, I hope you captured things nicely this time and not blurry.

Do you still think about me? Because I do, I think about you every single day.

November 10, 2016

You are back! I saw you today with your friends but it was just a secret glance, I was afraid you'll notice. I don't want you to think I was stalking you because I wasn't.

You look so happy and contented with them and it's so satisfying to look at, making my heart warms but I have a question. Being like that, doesn't mean that you already forgot about me right? Why did I even bother to asked? Ofcourse, you didn't, you love me!

Holy shit! You caught me staring!

November 11, 2016

You are alone sitting on a bench but keeps on looking around with troubled expression, did something happened? I am dying of curiosity and couldn't help but to worry but then my expression fell down when...

Eunwoo finally shows up with a bright face waving his hand to you. I smiled bitterly, so he's the reason why you're troubled. I tore my gaze from him and glances back at you and sees you smiling at him while waving your hand back.

The sight pains me but I trust you.

November 12, 2016

I catch a cold causing me to stay at home and then I suddenly remember how you always scold me every time I get sick... Saying if I'm careful enough then this wouldn't happen.

Namjoon rang the doorbell earlier but when I opened the door he already left but I found a bag with a medicine and porridge inside a container. I was weirded out, I wasn't used to him caring about me.

How I wish... it was you.

November 14, 2016

Yugyeom texts me. You went out with your friends to drink. You don't drink and I felt uneasy so I decided to go after you because I was really worried for you.

You saw me and my heart drop when I noticed there is a hint of betrayal in your eyes while looking into mine, I felt a pang of guilt inside my chest and I left the place right away.

I'm sorry, I messed up...

November 15, 2016

I didn't attend my classes for today and stayed at home all day. The image of you looking at me that night keep on replaying inside my mind.

I trust you but I was worried. I hope you would understand me, baby.

November 16, 2016

You are the first person I saw as soon as I entered the School. I glances away and ignored your presence because...

I'm scared to see the disappointment in your eyes again.

November 17, 2016

I furrowed my brows and slowly open my eyes but then my eyes found you sitting across from me with Eunwoo's back facing me. A fond smile made their way to my lips and for a second I thought I was dreaming before I came into my senses that I was in the library.

I shook my head and straightened up myself. Eunwoo said something that made you laugh, you turn your head to me as you laugh causing our eyes to meet. You didn't ignore me making my heart flip and gave me a small nod acknowledging my presence, you averted your gaze and then focuses your attention on him again, smiling softly, eyes shining in amusement.

I lowered down my head as I felt my whole chest hurting.

November 18, 2016

One more day left.... Would you still want me back?

November 19, 2016

[You send a voice message.]
Today, 12:01 am.