I've been extremely inactive, so sorry! I've been really busy, and I hope you can forgive me!

I've also entered a new fandom— BTS. I've really been missing out, and I'm so glad I finally gave them a try, because WOW! They're amazing (also, if you haven't listened to their music/watched something about them you definitely should!)

BUT WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF AND WHY ARE THEY SO PERFECT??

Also, Yoongi is my bias and Jimin (or Jin or Hoseok) is my bias wrecker but I love all seven because wOW PERFECTION

They now own my heart.

So, now I've made icons. They suck, though.

Also, please don't steal. I don't think anybody would want to, but yeah.. And if you want one (which you probably don't because they suck.), just ask and I'll give it to you.

And because I share everything, here you go.

- I edited this one a lot, to the point it doesn't even really look like Yoongi, and I really hate it? It's the one I hate most, since I edited way too much.

- I will probably never use this as my icon because I literally messed everything up

Version 1:

- but I thought this was too bright (especially the glow-y lines, wtf was I thinking), so

Version 2:

- so this kinda really sucks because I literally did nothing, and the one thing I did do was a mistake haha

- that mistake is the border, and because I intended to use this as an icon, I probably should have used a circle. But I'm just an idiot.

- but it's alright I guess (I literally did nothing though and it's mostly just Jimin's beauty)

- also credit to Hallyumi on DA for the png

- I also did nothing for this

- all I did was choose the same color as the other, add the same background thing as the other and put another png (credit to jeongukiss on DA) and added a filter/messed around with some of the colorings

- it's cool though, and probably one of my favorites tbh and it's probably because I did nothing to mess it up

- then there's this piece of trash

- like it would be okay if I could actually use it as an icon

- but no I'm an idiot who didn't use a circle png that would be in the center of the square

- also I can make another one that can be used (hopefully)

Version 1:

Version 2:

- I love these, and it's mostly because I didn't do much

- but these are pretty cool

- thank god I didn't mess it up hAHA

- also, these i probably won't give, at least until I get a new icon!

- this is trash, SORRY

- sort of trash, I kinda tolerate it, though

- sort of trash, too

- tolerate this less

- I love this

- it might be simple but it's pretty nice I guess

- feel free to use this as a wallpaper

- this is pretty simple, but it's my first slightly successful line art thing so yeah

- it's decent

- feel free to use this as a wallpaper, too

ALSO, this was all edited with PicsArt! But the below is Photoshop!

- I'm pretty proud of this so far, not going to lie

- this is probably going to take a few days

- I really like it though

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So, I'm sorry for burning your eyes with my bad editing (though, I mean, at least you were blessed by the beauty that Jimin and Yoongi have, though I destroyed most of it), and you should probably bleach you're eyes now (also this is a joke please don't)

And this is where the slightly depressing part comes in —

I'll just say that I'm sorry that I don't respond to messages, I just don't know what to say to you. I feel like everything I'll say will make you hate me, including this. I feel like bothering you will make you hate me. I'm literally so awkward that I have a Kik to myself where I make sure everything I say isn't awkward and it still is. So, I'm sorry, I just think everyone hates me.

I haven't really been in the best state of mind, and a lot of it has to do with Germany and my mum.

As some of you may know, I went to Germany for two and a half months and it was literal hell.

My grandmother (who I'll call Muma as that's my nickname I gave her when I was small and couldn't say uma and mum so just combined them) and my mum fought every single day. It was usually my mum screaming but yeah. I usually didn't understand what was going on, but the arguments that I did know the topic... were just idiotic. Like, every single thing would be criticized by mum. Once I said that a little red light was annoying me and then got up to get water and asked my mum how to turn the sink on (because it wasn't like usual sinks).

That night ended with her pulling out her hair, screaming at me for literally three hours (after yelling at her "boyfriend," naturally) and crying for another hour.

I don't want to paint her as a bad person, it's just that we don't really go along.

But another thing is that she doesn't want me to continue graphic designing, so I was scared to say anything about graphic designing, in fear she would make me feel worse about myself.

It didn't help that for some reason, my depression came back in play, a few weeks before the trip. And I was beginning to get better, and then suddenly just went down.

I really hate myself, though. And I wish i didn't, because I know I shouldn't. I know I'm not that bad. But I just loathe everything about me, I feel like every word I say is wrong, i think everyone hates me. I care way too much on what other people think about me. And all the mistakes I've done makes me feel worse, because I feel like I have no future now, that everyone on this site hates me. And and I also care too much about followers and friends. Like, I lose so many followers. Just an hour or so ago, I lost 3 and I don't know why and it makes me feel horrible about myself and I know this will make me sound ungrateful and greedy, but I'm really not. I know I shouldn't care, and a few unfollowers doesn't matter. I guess it just reminds me of when I made that mistake and all my friends unfollowed me. I literally check some of my friends profile just to see if they've unfollowed me. And I know, a follow doesn't mean a friendship. It's just that when a friend unfollows you, you probably are going to think that they ended the friendship. Because I do, as most friends follow each other, you know?

So, I'm sorry for being so inactive, never responding to messages, and if so, hours and days afterwards. It's just me and my anxiety.

So, what do you think of the graphics? Please tell me your thoughts in the comments!