I don't know wth is wrong with me lately.

I feel physically ill from emotions I can't decipher or justify. I can't sleep, food is unappetizing, I'm restless and twitchy constantly..

The restlessness is the worst, I think. I've been trying to sleep for the past three hours and that plan has gone out the window by now.

I'm even slightly nauseous? I kinda wonder if I go make myself throw up my mind and body will settle enough for this whole thing to pass (been considering that one for days whoops), but I could also just end up feeling more sick.

I have no clue what's causing this. I mean, I'm just as unhappy with myself as I have been for months, but I'm not necessarily more unhappy. I haven't lost anything or anyone (though my partner is no doubt upset with me and my sporadic behavior lately—I'd be too), my grades are passable, and my art is no worse than 'meh,' at the moment, so..

I don't know. I have no idea.

Anyway, I just needed to put that all out in writing, I think. I'm good, I'm fine, it'll go away eventually, I'm sure.
Sorry for the lack of art. My hands feel..weird. I already mentioned that they're all twitchy, but I feel like when I'm writing or drawing I don't have the fine motor control to keep them steady. It's like they belong to someone else, almost??
...It's hard to explain, haha