fav photo of him rn i don't know why, he's just so cute and so ughhhhhh please don't mess with my emotions please???^^^^
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this was partially inspired by an amazing author that i follow and a song i've been listening too...yeah haha
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Please correct any errors i need to be sure this doesn't sound like a child writing imagines pfft...

you and ethan have been good friends and neighbors for such a long time. and you kinda had this small crush on him, and you never knew he liked you back.

Your POV
i was laying on my bed when i hear a knock on my window, and i knew who it was. ethan. him and i are the closest of friends anyone has ever seen. no doubt about that, well after his brother of course.

i open my window and giggle quietly since my parents are asleep. i see ethan, in sweatpants and a sweatshirt (cuddly and warm sndksj idk) climbing the tree that leads up to my window so he can come up in my room to talk. he's been into this girl he can't stop talking about. it makes me sad since it's not me but i have to support him.

"hey," he whispers as he crawled into my room. his biceps had to flex in front of me,totally beautiful. he turns his head and combs through his long locks of hair. he walks towards me and engulfs me in an eager hug. i wrap my arms around him as he pulls me closer to his chest.

"did something happen?" i quietly spoke rubbing his back up and down.

"no i just want a hug," he whispers kissing the top of my head, nestling his lips into my hair.

"you know you're right next to me," i say referring to the fact that we are neighbors.

"i know, i just want to hug you," he repeats holding me tighter.

"okay," i whisper feeling the heat in my cheeks. "my parents are asleep so we have to be quiet."

"oh shit sorry," he apologizes but sits on my bed after pulling apart our hug. i sit next to him and see him thinking while looking at my direction. "are you think about the girl?" i say smirking.

"actually you read my mind," he says and i can tell, even though it's dark, he raised his eyebrow, which is totally cute. "i am thinking about her."

"oh," i mutter feeling my heart ache. the thought of him liking someone while i'm hopelessly in love with him is impossible to handle. the pain in your chest, your throat closing and the feeling of yourself crying is not that great.

yes i am in love with him. i've known him for too long and he's a friend that people would be too lucky to have. he would listen so carefully to everything you say, never argue against your opinions and would always comfort or cuddle you to make you feel better. he wouldn't mind helping you in the middle of the night to take you for fast food or come to your house to watch netflix. he's selfless, and has always told me how he cares about me too much. he's like a boyfriend, except the label "boyfriend" is replaced with "best friend" which is fine, but i want him to know i love him. my eyes begging his to read my mind, but i don't think he thinks the same. so i hold my feelings and emotions for him and just let the aching happen when he talks about another girl.

"she's so clueless though," he says with a small smile that lights up the dark room. i frown, "why?"

"i make it so obvious to her that i really like her. in fact i love her," he says confidently, making my heart melt. the tears are welling my eyes. good thing the lights are off.

"o-oh, really?"

"yeah," he looks down. "she's just...so oblivious that i'm in love with her. i've known her for too long, and we talk and hang out a lot, and she's to not understand that i want my heart to belong to her."

"oh, sounds like you really really want her," i say looking down at my hands, feeling a liquid his my palm, which were my tears.

"she's just...so beautiful...so so beautiful, and she doesn't even know it. she cares for people so much and she deserves the world for that. i-um she just...is too good for me. she's an angel...i sound so weird," he admits at the end, entwining our hands together, which is a simple touch that made my heart ache even more.

"i just give her so many hints that i love her but she seems to not realize...so clueless, but i still love her," ethan says rubbing my hand with his thumb. he's playing with my emotions, HE NEVER EVEN TOLD ME WHO HE'S TALKING ABOUT!!

"just tell me who it is eth?" i blurt sniffling. i think he heard that. shit.

"are you crying?" he asks holding my hand even tighter.

"no it's just a-allergies. continue about this story about this g-girl," i stutter shutting my eyes to stop the tears from falling.

he just smiles, then i feel his soft warm hand cup my cheek, wiping away the tears ethan knew was falling. he knew i was crying. "she has no idea that i want to kiss her plump soft rosy lips," he says and i feel my cheeks heat up.

"she blushes a lot from a simple touch like this," he says, chuckling quietly referring to his hand on my cheek. for some reason his soft words word comfort me, making me add the weight of my head on his hand, feel so deeply in love with his words...basically him. this amazing ethan.

"and i f-feel like she wants to kiss me too," he stutters. i pull away and put his hand down. "do it then," i blurt standing up off the bed, letting heart explode this jealously over this girl. "go to her and tell her your feelings, and kiss her and all that."

he stands up and walks towards me. "she lives right next to me-"

and before i could comprehend what he said he reached his hand behind my neck and he crashes his lips onto mine, but then turns gentle and i hesitate before moving my lips with his pink ones. i feel it all, i feel his emotions in the kiss. love, kindness, care, and eagerness.

i seem to tear up from this. he kept me waiting and waiting too long, and it's been me this whole time. all those words he would say about "this girl" and who he loves...was all me.

we pull apart, creating a cute 'pop' sound which made me smile, then our foreheads touch.

"so...i'm-" i start but he interrupts.

"i'm in love you y/n, i can't help it," he breathes out, smiling with me. "i've known you for so long...long enough for me to say those committing three words to you. let me fall in love with you y/n," he says.

"i-i love you too," i answer back, feeling my heart not ache but warm up and flutter from his voice and touch of his hand behind my neck. his hand moves from there to my cheeks, feeling the rising temperature my cheeks had. i still had a cheesy smile on my face, feeling so excited from all of this. he looks at how excited i look and chuckles.

"you're so cute," he says before we connect our lips again, holding my cheek still. i couldn't help but smile in the kiss, too happy to talk. he doesn't deepen the kiss, he just wanted the feeling of our lips for the first time.

we detach our lips and we look at eachother. his other hand reaches for mine, lifting it up and entwined them together. "i want this with you," he says looking at our hands, our finger tangled together. the feelings are so real, so good.

"so all of those things you said about me..." i start.

"they are all true. every single thing about 'this girl' was you and is all true."

i shut my eyes thinking about all of his sweet words about me. all those good kind compliments about why he loves me. the feeling are mutual.

we stay silent looking at how well our hands seem to mend together, like puzzle pieces. "i don't want to ruin our beautiful moment, but i have to go to back in my other home," he says. it did not ruin the moment at all. did he say my house is his home too?

"okay ethan," i say pulling away from him, which made all of him warmth leave me. he walks to the window and crawls into the outside. i watch him turn around and stood on the tree, looking at me.

"come here y/n," he says quietly, and i walk towards to window to get closer to him. i can see him better since the moon seems to shine on him at a perfect angle.

he holds on the branches with both hands and leans in to connect is lips one more to time for the night. my hand grazes along his jawline.

we pull apart. "see you tomorrow y/n," he says before going down the tree. i feel my lips again since it's still warms from the contact with his. i smile a little from this.

he reaches the bottom and i told him goodbye too. he smiles from the ground and blows a kiss, acting like he's in a play. i giggle and watch him climb back into his house.

ya know i feel like i can do so much better than this but whatevs...it's too long anyways and really cringe...i always say that tho.
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oh and i'm trying to kick ass this weekend by writing as much as i can. i could update tomorrow but don't get your hopes up lmao. i'll try since i have a whole lot of stuff on my drafts...yay.
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i'm asking for a whole lot but if you liked this i guess you can vote for it:) yep that's desperate i'm so annoying.
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