Two Year's later:

JEN

The guard pushed me again making me hold my hands out and catch myself before hitting my face on the ground.

I groaned and massaged my weak arms. They couldn't take it anymore. I sighed as I got up but went tumbling down again when a pack mate shoved me to the floor, their laughter echoing in the hallway as they ran whispering things about me.

Just 2 years ago, I had a plan. I was going to take down my mate and I thought it was working but then he told me he knew. He knew what I was planning and I just lost. I lost and now, I don't know what to do.

All that pretending to be a victim, the scared mate, the omega, turned all that pretending into reality.

I had truly hit rock bottom a year and a half ago, 6 months after I found out that my mate knew what I was planning. Those 6 months had turned into hell.

Pack members had slowly started to treat me worse, even more worse than they already did. Me being me, I stood up for myself. I wasn't going to let a bunch of people bully me and then let them get away with it! It wasn't me. But then, It went from worse to horrible.

Before, it was just knocking stuff out of my hands and tripping me on purpose and they got a good laugh out of it. Then, it slowly started with hitting me, biting me, crushing me. Literally, crushing me! I would be sleeping and group of teenagers would barge into my room and just start to jump on the bed not caring if they stepped on my arm or leg or even my face.

I don't know when was the point that I just stopped defending myself. It just sort of happened.

Now, everyday after I made dinner, I was escorted upstairs to my room where I would 'sleep' with no food. The guard that escorted me would pat me down to see if I had stolen any food or anything else. The only reason they started to do that was because I was caught when I had done it. My mate, Shawn, had come into the kitchen while I was supposed to be washing the dishes but instead he found me stuffing a packet of crackers in my pocket.

Flashback

The crackers I was stuffing in my pocket fell when I heard an accusing voice.

"What do you think you're doing?" It was Shawn. I wasn't allowed to look him in the eyes anymore, I don't know why but he had commanded it. Once, when I had tears in my eyes and had looked up to his face, he looked away angrily and commanded it. Ever since then, he doesn't like it when I look at him.

"N-nothing Alpha. I was just putting away the inventory." I was disgusted with myself. How did I let it get this far?

"I saw you about to take those crackers! What did I tell you about eating? You can only do it when I allow it and I didn't allow you to eat!"

I just stood their quietly not wanting to upset him further.

"What else are you hiding? Are you hiding more food?" He questioned me.

"No s-sir, I promise." Oh my God, I don't want to get punished for this.

"GUARDS!" He yelled all of a sudden making me jump.

Two guards popped their head into the kitchen. "Yes, Alpha?"

"I need you to strip search Miss Jennifer here." He said in a bored voice.

"What?" Strip search?

The two guards made their way towards me and I jumped back in fright, whimpering. This cannot be happening. I shook my head to get away from this nightmare but I wasn't waking up.

I yelped as one guard grabbed me by the arms and held me in place while the other was starting to take my clothes off.

I thrashed and thrashed but the guard was too strong for my weak body.

"Please, please don't do this. Please." I begged him with tears streaming down my face.

I started to sob when my pants had come off and he was moving towards my shirt.

"NO! STOP IT! PLEASE!" It was hard to choke out the words with me sobbing uncontrollably.

"Please, Alpha. I promise I have nothing. I Promise." The guard stopped and looked to his Alpha.

Shawn turned his head to the side like he didn't want to watch. "Go on."

The guard ripped my shirt off leaving me in only my underwear and my bra.

I screamed as I tried to cover myself. I felt so violated. No one has seen me in shorts let alone my underwear. This was humiliating.

The guard then reached down to the hem of my underwear.

Everything stopped and I took a deep breath letting go a scream that could make anyone's ear drums bleed.

"THAT'S ENOUGH!" Shawn belted out when the guard had started to bring down my underwear.

The guards let go of me and I fell to the floor in a heap, crying my eyes out.

I covered myself and brought my knees up to my chest trying to hide my body away from the monsters.

I have never been so humiliated before. Never have I felt such fear rock my body. And it was all because of my mate. He did this. It was his fault.

Pure hatred concealed my heart. What once was supposed to be filled with love was now consumed with hatred.

Gritting my teeth and clenching my fists I looked up to see my mate and his guards standing there, watching me as I broke.

His emotionless face hardened when he noticed the hate on my face.

It was like he was fighting himself, his expression faltering ever so slightly but in the end he smirked at me.

He never cared. He never cared about me.

End Flashback

At that moment I had crumbled. My already broken heart had been ripped from it's place and then crushed.

Maybe, in my heart, I had hoped I would be able to change him but when he humiliated and violated me, he broke the thing that gave me hope. The hopelessness I felt that day still reflected in my eyes to the date.

I don't know how I let myself get to where I am. Two years ago, I was a respected to-be Alpha and now I was a loveless, ball of hatred that had no one in her entire life.

I think I went into depression because everything around me felt different. Everything around me seemed too happy and I was starting to suffocate.

Maybe I should just run away. Maybe I needed a new start.  It every time I tried, I would be to scared and come right back. Maybe this time I'll have the courage to it.

For the first time in a long time, I felt hope.

Then, with determination, I closed my eyes to sleep thinking about my plans for tomorrow. My plans to leave this godforsaken pack.

***

I flipped the last pancake in the pan and shut off the gas to the stoves.

The pack members waited in the dining hall to be served their breakfast.

I just couldn't wait until everyone left for work or school because I wanted to get my things together to run away from this hell-hole.

I lowered my head as I saw the Beta making his way towards me. The tray I was holding tightened in my hand when he bumped his massive shoulder into my weak frame.

I was never as weak as I am now. Yeah, I didn't know how to fight much before but it wasn't like I was hopeless but now was a completely different story. I couldn't even hold myself up without trying to.

I don't like to admit it, but I know I've lost a tremendous amount of weight. The bones in my body were sticking out of the pale, flimsy skin I had. I hated myself for doing this. I hated the fact that I was once so proud of my complexion and now I didn't even look in the mirror because of how hideous I let myself turn into.

"Watch it, Bitch." The Beta's large body hovered over me as I cowered behind my hair. Angus Brown, A.K.A, Beta of the Nocte pack, was a complete and utter asshole. Shawn and Angus weren't brothers but sometimes it felt like they were split from the same egg because of how similar they were. They were both assholes hell-bent on hurting me.

"Sorry sir." The words automatically left my mouth before I could stop them.

Who knew? Who knew I would change so much just because my mate was the biggest werewolf bastard in the world.

The Beta raised his hand in the air making me flinch back. He was going to slap me. I braced for the slap but instead heard gasps from my pack members. I looked up to see my mate.

Shock was evident on my face as I saw Shawn holding his Beta's wrist. He stopped him. He stopped Beta Brown from hitting me? Why did he do that.

Brown was huffing as he tore his wrist from Shawn. He took one look at me, glaring with hatred. I could see it in his eyes, he wanted me dead.

I cringed under his intense glare and stepped back as he left to his room, pushing people out of the way.

I looked at Shawn again to see emotion on his face. I almost gasped because he was actually showing emotion. His once pitch black iris turned into a lighter shade, like almost into a brown. His face softened as he stared at me longer making my heart flutter.

I didn't know what to do. He actually looked like he cared. He took a step closer holding out his hand as if he wanted to touch me but just as he took the step his eyes darkened and his eyes hardened. Gritting his teeth, he glared at me like I had killed his child. I didn't understand what was going on? One minute he looked like the mate I never wanted but wish I had and now, I was his worst enemy.

"Clean this up." He said in a low and deadly voice while pointing at the floor which was covered in food.

I nodded my head.

"UNDERSTAND!" He barked suddenly making me jump.

"Y-yes Alpha."

He turned on his heel and left, his body shaking from the rage.

My hands shook under the heated gaze of the pack members. I wonder what they were thinking. Did they finally realize that their Alpha was a Bi-Polar prick? If so, were they going to do something about it.

Probably not. They were scared of him and honestly I don't blame them. I just wish I had the strength to defeat him but sadly, I don't.

***

After cleaning the kitchen and the dining hall, I trudged upstairs tired and hungry. Mr. Bitch, A.K.A, my guard, followed after me, snickering at the growling noises coming from my stomach. After patting me down, I slammed the door in his face not caring about the consequences that it had.

I turned to jump on my bed when I shrieked in surprise. My mother and my brother with his pregnant wife were sitting on my bed.

I glared at them both, hating them to this day for betraying me. "What do you want." I wanted to sound threatening but it came out as a soft whisper. The tiredness I felt was reflecting my voice. All I wanted was sleep and they were ruining it for me.

"W-we need to talk." Said my mother.

My eyes burned into Annabelle's pregnant belly, suddenly feeling jealous. Her pink cheeks and her beautiful smile was like a slap in my face.

I was only 22 years old but it still felt to young to have children but it would have been nice to know that I had a choice in the future. I envied her and by the frown that now adorned her face, she knew it too.

My brother and his mate got married as soon as he turned 20 and after a month or so, he got her pregnant.

Over the 2 years, I barley spoke to them. I'll admit they tried to speak to me but I never let them. I always turned my head or walked by faster to avoid them. I never forgave them for betraying me. And don't even get me started on Michael.

"Then talk." I said finally, breaking the silence.

My mother's eyes widened. By the look on their faces, they expected me to throw them out but I was too tired and annoyed of their constant begging to talk to them.

"Uh, we, um...I miss you." She finally said, her head lowering.

My heart squeezed when I saw a few tears leaking out of her eyes.

I swallowed the lump in my throat as I held my tongue. I wanted to forgive her but I couldn't do it.

"JenBen." Carter's small voice hit my ears making me look at him.

The unshed tears in his eyes said everything...but not enough.

I looked away from him.

"Just go away." I whispered to them. My head throbbed the harder I thought.

"Jenny please, I-" but I cut my mother off.

"Just go! I don't want you here. You understand!" I yelled at them clenching my teeth.

Maybe I wasn't being fair for not letting them talk but I didn't want to hear anymore excuses.

"Plea-" Carter started to say.

"GET OUT!" I snapped, making him jump. I haven't felt anger like this in over a year and it was too late to stop it.

"GET THE FUCK OUT! I HATE YOU! I FUCKEN HATE YOU ALL!" I pointed to them.

Annabelle burst into tears making Carter rub her back.

He suddenly looked at me in anger. His glare caught me off guard and I took a step back.

"Enough!" He snapped at me.

I flinched from his tone and stood there with shock.

"All we have been trying to do for the past 2 years is talk to you! And here you are not letting us, again! Surprise, surprise! You're still angry! Grow the fuck up already! I get what happened to you is horrible but now I'm starting to think that you deserved it!" His face immediately fell and a look of guilt entered his eyes.

He opened his mouth but I didn't stick around long enough to hear whatever he was going to say. I ran out the door, past the sleeping guard and threw the front door open running towards the woods, trying to get far away from this place as possible.

My vision blurred from my tears so I didn't see the person in front of me until I bumped into them.

They caught hold of my arms and steadied me, trying to regain my balance.

I looked up to see my mate's mother.

"We need to talk." She said after letting go of my arms.

Here we go again.