"No, no, no, no this can't be happening."

I whispered, into my hands that covered my face.

I cried quietly as I looked up, to make sure Ringo hadn't seen anything.

He's asleep.

I wrapped my blanket tighter around my shoulders, as I tried to calm myself.

Why? Why me? Why now?

Everything was so perfect.

Why did he always have to come and ruin things?

I bent down and picked up the letter with shaking hands.

A silent sob escaped from my mouth as I opened the letter, slowly.

As I opened up the letter my insides churned in my stomach, seeing his handwriting.

It was so pretty.

His cursive looked as if the sea hand printed the words to the paper.

The ink was jet black and thick.

It looked amazing, and was so welcoming.

But that's the way he is.

So warm and welcoming, beautiful and mysterious.

But on the inside, dark and evil.

My chest rose and fell with my heavy breaths.

The flood anxiety flowed through my veins.

With all my strength my eyes fell on the paper.

Dear Elise,

Darling, it has been to long since we have last seen each other. I know we've had our ups and downs, but I want so much to be with you again. I've realized my wrong doings, and I'm terribly sorry. If there is anyway for you to forgive me please do. I want you Elise, I need you. Please come and meet me buy the tea shop in town tomorrow after noon, let's say 2:30? Shall we? We can start over. Now you may deny me, I've seen you with the one you call your true love. But I can see it in your eyes that you still want me. If you do refuse I will be forced to come after you myself. And if I have to do that, things may get ugly. Don't make it harder on yourself than it already is.

Jay, your true love.

Sobs shook my body, salty tears wetting my cheeks and running down my neck.

I began to rip the paper to shreds my trembling fingers having difficulty.

I don't love you!

I love Ringo, he's my true love!

You never loved me!

And I was so stupid and naive to even have the thought that I loved you!

You don't need me!

You don't want me!

You are evil Jay Hackett!

And I hate you!

I threw the ripped pieces of paper into the trash can forcefully.

My chin quivered as I tried to hide back high pitch sobs.

I walked backwards my back hitting the front door.
Slowly, I helplessly slid down the door landing on the floor.

"I hate you."

I whispered to myself.

But I had to go see him tomorrow.

Who knew what he would do to me if I didn't.

More importantly Ringo, and even the lads.

I couldn't let them get hurt.
I didn't want them getting involved after how well they've treated me.

I couldn't

I wouldn't let it happen.

I hugged my knees to my chest and sobbed into my hands.

As soon as I was calm enough I stood and crawled onto the couch.

The fire was still crackling contently.

That night I cried myself to sleep.

Hoping that when I woke up, it had all been a terrible terrible dream.
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"Ellie. Hey baby wake up."

I sat up and wiped the sleep from my eyes.

My blurry eyes cleared up, seeing Ringo standing above me.

He furrowed his eyebrows, then sat down beside me, petting the top of my head.
"Hey are you okay, you didn't come to bed last night."

I sat up, recolecting the events of last night.

I have to meet him today.

Wait.... Maybe it was just a dream.

"Ellie, hey did you hear me love. Why didn't you come to bed?"

I looked up at Ringo creasing my forehead.

"Umm what? Oh, I..... Just fell asleep. I meant to come to bed but, as you can see I didn't make it."

I giggled lightly.

He nodded and smiled lightly looking uncovienced.

"Oh goodness baby girl do you feel okay? Your eyes are so red. Have- have you been crying?"

I jumped up from the couch turning away from him.

I felt his body shift up behind me.

"Ellie?"

He put a hand on my shoulder.

I began to gain tears in my eyes, and began to fight as hard as I could to hold them back.

"I'm fine."

My voice squeaked out.

"Ell, what's wrong? Please tell me."

I shook my head and wiped my tears away as I sniffed.

"Its just allergies, I promise you I'm fine."

Ringo put both of his hands on my shoulders.

"Then look at me."

He cooed calmly.

Before I could say anything Ringo forced me to turn around.

His blue eyes sad and confused.

"Oh Ellie, please tell me what's wrong."

I sniffed and smiled.

He shook his head and played with my hair.

"I'm fine Ritchie I promise.
Just allergies see?"

I reassured him.

He sighed still not convinced.

"Are you sure? Nothings wrong?"

I shook my head giving him a bright smile.

He smiled back and pecked my lips lightly.

"Now, let's stop sulking about and get some breakfast shall we?

Come on you can help."

I grabbed his hand and drug him into the kitchen.

"But I can't cook."

He complained.

I laughed and turned grabbing his other hands pulling him, against his own will.

"Well you're gonna learn."

After we ate and had cleaned up all the plates, and after fixing up the living room from last night it was exactly 1:45.

I looked at the clock my heart pounding.

I had to make up some kind of excuse to get out of the house without him getting suspicious.

So while Ringo was busy in the studio preparing for rehearsal, I snuck upstairs and got dressed.

I didn't put anything fancy on.

The last thing I wanted to do was show Jay any sign of me being interested.

When I came back down, the boys and Ringo were all sitting in the living room going over what they needed to work on.

As I grabbed my coat from the hanger a loud mouthed John Lennon of course had to make s remark.

"Oh sneeking out on us aye?"

I turned around with a sigh.

"No John, I'm going to the library, I'll be back in an hour or two."

Ringo looked back and tilted his head intrigued.

"Wait, you didn't tell me you were going out today."

I came up beside him and held his hand in mine.

"Well I know, I just thought since you guys were rehearsing I would stay out of the way for once."

George looked up and shook his head.

"Ellie, you're not in the way."

Ringo nodded in agreement.

"Yeah, Ell, we don't mind you staying."

I shook my head and bit the inside of my cheek.

Oh believe me honey I would love to stay.

I said to myself.

"No its okay, plus I could use a couple hours by myself reading a good book, you have fun."

I waved them goodbye and began to walk towards the door, my heart already pounding out of my chest with anxiety.

"I'll walk you out love."

Ringo said, wrapping his arms around my waist.

We got to the door and he opened it.

I turned to him and he smiled down, staring at my lips.

"I love you so much Ritchie."

I said kissing him lightly.

He smiled and slid his finger down my nose.

"I love you too, now go ahead have a good afternoon."

My stomach churned gaining a sickening feeling.
"I will."

I replied, forcing a smile.

He grabbed my arms right as I turned to leave and planted another soft kiss on my lips.

I giggled and hit his arm.

"Alright! Alright! Now get going, the boys are waiting patiently for you."

He nodded and I smiled as I turned and began to walk down the street

"Come back to me!"

Ringo yelled behind me.

I turned around and grinned brightly at Ritchie.
Tears brimming.

"I always will!"

He grinned happily and leaned against the doorframe, waving goodbye.

I watched as he closed the door slowly.

I stood there for a moment studying the house.

"I always will."
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My heart pounded out of my chest, and my heart dropped to my stomach.

I was at the very sidewalk where he had said we would meet up.

I checked my wrist watch.

2:27

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

I looked up into the beautiful Liverpool sky.

"I'll be back, I promise."

Once again I took one last deep breath.

I hugged myself tight and just began to replay that very moment I met Ringo not but a couple hundered feet away from that tea shop.

I walked up the sidewalk, my hands began to sweat, and my eyes gained tears.

Suddenly two arms wrapped around my waist pulling my into a dark alley.

I screamed, but the person covered my mouth with their hand, before my scream could be heard.

"Hey shh, shh, sweetheart that isn't a way to treat your long lost love? Now is it?"

My breath hitched and I brushed my bangs out of my face.

I looked up at Jay.

I couldn't make out his face, the alley was too dark.

And all I could make out was his tall slim figure.

But he was just as evil as he was from the day I met him.

You could feel the tension coming off of him.

"Oh not gonna talk huh?"

He pushed my hair up behind my ear.

I flinched at his touch and moved my head away from him, silent tears rolling down my face.

"Well, Ellie I don't know about you, but I have missed you more than anything in this entire world."

He leaned down his lips grazing my neck.

"Jay stop it."

I breathed out my voice already hoarse from crying.

"What? Lover boy gonna come beat me up?"

He laughed evilly, then reached into his pocket and lit a cigerate.

"So what have you been up to these past months Ell, busy?"

I swallowed hard and bit the inside of my cheek.

"That isn't any of your business Jay."

He raised an eyebrow and took a long drag from his cigerate.

"That maybe true, but I want to know."

I lifted my head up suddenly feeling awfully brave.

"I said that isn't any of your business, and if you think for a moment that I came here to forgive you, and come crawling back to your arse, then you've got another-"

I was cut off by my own gasp, Jay grabbed me by my neck and shoved me up against the wall.

"Well look what we have here, you sure have gotten brave Ellie."

I grabbed at his hands trying my hardest to get a breath of oxygen.

Jay laughed lightly, a deep tone in his voice.

"Its kind of turning me on."

He whispered very seducing.

He planted his lips on my neck and began to kiss passionately.

My throat let out sobs and I tried to push him away.

"Jay stop it, stop it. Please."

He led up and looked into my eyes.

"You're engaged aren't you?"

I shook my head and rubbed my neck where his dirty lips had been.

"Your not? Then why are you pushing me away?"

He began to kiss me again this time nibbling and moving up my neck aggressivly.

"Jay please! Please I beg you please!"

He stopped and laughed.

"Huh, lover boy really has a hold on you, doesn't he?"

I stood there silent and sucked in all the sobs wanting to spew out.

"Well listen sweet cakes I would love to talk more but uh, I've got business to take care of.

But I suggest if you ever want to see your baby boy shall we say again.

You come see me tomorrow night.... Late.

Make it midnight."

Tears rolled down my face and my body began to shake vioently.

"I'll have a present for you."

He whispered, then he pressed me against the wall, I fought against him with all my might.

But my frail body could barley push him.

He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine.

I cried, as he pushed his tounge into my mouth.

Finally he pulled away, me breathing so heavy I felt dizzy.

"I'll see you tomorrow night darling, don't be late."

As he walked away I slid down the brick wall.

Loud sobs shaking my entire body.

I spit on the ground, the cigerate taste still lingering in my mouth.

I rubbed the spots on my neck where he had been, and wondered how or what I was going to do to hide it from Ringo.

I couldn't tell him no matter what, Jay would kill him and I was sure of it.

I decided I would stay out late and go shopping for some new clothes and find a scarf to wear till the horrible disgusting things went away.

I loved Ringo so much, I couldn't let him know.

I closed my eyes and said a quiet prayer.

Praying that no matter what happned from now till the day Jay was gone, that me and Ringo would always be together, no matter what.

I would always come back.

I promised.
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