Chapter 6; 

"Are you nervous?" Amelia asked as I wringed my hands. 

"What do you think?" I snapped at her but quickly regret it. "I'm so sorry." 

"I'll take that little attitude as a yes." Amelia said laughing at me, I love her and her good humor. "Stop starring at yourself, John will be all the more jealous!"

"Ah yes, that's what I'm the most worried about, Paul you know. It's like he's fishing for trouble with me and John."

"Paul just seems like a flirt." She said trying to reassure me.

"Yeah, but would you lie to flirt with someone? I don't know, he sounded serious to me." I told her, I felt bad for believing Paul, but it's a gut feeling.

"Calm down Ellie! you'll find out tonight, no worries." she said putting an arm around me. "And if you need someone to talk too or punch someone in the face, I'm here."

"I mean, I expect him to date other people. Yeah. But excessive amounts of them... He said he still loved me." I told her. I knew John would move on, even if I had seen him, I never would've thought he'd remember me. But maybe John did keep his promise? And the concept of love was never applied there.

"Stop worrying. They'll be here any moment, I may have to get a drink in you." Amelia said winking at me and laughing.

"Okay." I told her, surprising both her and even myself.

"You do?"

"Why not. I always drank with them, it was always a good time."

"Alright. I'll have one with ya!" And she did, we sat on the couch with music playing in the background and talked. I told her about the time Paul and John were piss-drunk and got into a fight, but right in the middle of it started apologizing and almost crying. We laughed until our stomachs hurt and later there was knocking on the door.

I opened up the door, straightening out my shirt to see Brian standing there. " 'Ello Ellie, the boys requested Amelia and your presences." He said, Amelia ran up as she heard her name.

"I'll see you there!" She said skipping off across the hall.

"Thank you." I told him trying to walk out the door, but he quickly stopped me.

"I'd like to talk to you, Eloise."

"Oh, um, sure." I said letting him in, this was quite different from when I had first met him.

"Look. I know you've known John and the boys for a while, and I know you all are glad to finally see each other. I want to thank you, John has had terrible writers block and he's sat down and wrote at least two songs today! I know it's soon, but we're only spending two days here. Would you like to come back with us to the UK?"

"What?" I asked quickly. "Did John get you to ask?"

"Oh. No, he didn't say a thing about it." He told me, I felt myself started to drown in my thoughts. "Are you okay Eloise? You don't have  to make any decisions now."

"I-I've got to talk to John. Please. Excuse me." I said running out the door and shutting it behind him. I knocked on John and Paul's bedroom as Brian went to his own.

"Eloise?" John said sounding more worried then surprised. I quickly fell into John's arms and his warm embrace quickly cleared my blurry head. "Come 'ed, we can go 'nd talk in me room." John told me, slipping his arm around my waist after I'd come in the threshold.

"John," I said, sitting down on the lone chair. "We need to talk."

"What's on your mind?"

"I was so ecstatic to see you. I wouldn't 'ave even known it was you... You've seem to change that much. It's just... Maybe what I fell in love with so long ago. Has changed too." I told him, my eyes quickly went blurry at the sides and I brushed the tears away. I don't cry. I'm strong.

"I'm still that boy from Liverpool. What do you need me to do to prove it?" John asked me, coming closer.

"Did you sleep with other girls?" I asked quietly.

"Yes. But, it was never the same. You and I made love," John said, whisking a tear falling from my eye. "And that's a completely different thing."

"You promise?" I murmured

"I do and I'll keep this one like every other one." John said kissing my head and smiling. I smiled back, wow he sure knows how to assure someone. "Is there anything else love?"

"Um. Brian asked me if I'd like to move with you guys to the UK." I said suspiciously eyeing him, to which he soon noticed.

"Ay'! It wasn't me. I hadn't said a thing." John said throwing his hands in the air and making us both laugh.

"Alright, it just surprised me. Brian didn't have a very good first impression of me."

"He doesn't like very many people."

"Well... He did seem to like me enough to mention you were working on some songs." I said innocently. "May I here one?"

"Maybe," John said getting up and crossing to the door. "If ye get enough drinks in me."

"Ellie!" George said, calling me over. "We're going out tonight. Do you and John wanna come?" I quickly looked at Amelia who was shaking her head yes. 

"I do, how about you John?" I asked, looking up at him. 

"Why not?" He said and it was agreed upon, so they called up Mel, who took us to the closest night club around. And stayed on the side, waiting for us to return. 

John, I and everyone else quickly fell in-step with the music, dancing and laughing and having drinks. "John!" I yelled over the music as we moved in sync, we were all in a big group, Paul, John, George, Ringo, Charlie and I. "I'm gonna go to the powder room! I'll be right back." 

"Alright love!" John yelled back kissing my cheek. "I'll be right 'ere!" 

I quickly walked through the crowd of people to the bathroom. I felt so sure about leaving America to go with John, that I'm sure nothing could get in my way. As I left the bathroom, I saw a frantic looking George. 

"Georgie!" I called out to him, grabbing his arm. "Are you okay?" 

"I-I was looking for you!" He said quickly over the music. 

"Well, I'm right 'ere!" I said laughing. "I need to find John!" 

"That's not wh-" George said but I turned my back to him. 

"You can come along." I said, but I didn't hear him come along. So I guess it wasn't anything urgent. I went back to wear we had been dancing. And I saw it. John's back his long hair, now tangled in another girls fingers. I felt my stomach drop, so quickly that I fell into a bolt of rage. I walked as fast as I could through the crowd of people. 

"Excuse me," I said sweetly, in a voice that I'd never call my own. They quickly pulled away and in that second I pushed her to the ground, catching her off balance and getting on top of her. I punched everywhere, anywhere I could. She got a fare slap on my face and a cheap punch to my nose, making it bleed. My fist were bleeding, covered in her and my own blood. "That should teach you to mess with other girls boyfriends!" I yelled, kicking my legs as Paul pulled me off of her. 

"And you," I growled in so much hatred that I was shaking. "don't you dare come back one more time to me. This is what love is? Ha. You don't know the meaning!" I yelled punching him in the stomach and taking off one of my shoes and throwing it at him as he fell to the ground. "Don't you dare say a word to me again." I said spitting on him and running out of the club. 

I could hear the club door open and close again as I was a few blocks away. "Ellie!" one of the boys called, I just saluted them with my finger and kept walking trying to get somewhere, trying to be alone. The only place I could go was back to the hotel, I didn't bring my flat keys and John's already poisoned the place with his touch. 

I walked back to the hotel, with no shoes on. Not caring about the dirty sidewalk, nor the dirty looks I was getting. I was too mad to even think about the situation, I just wanted to wring someone. As I got into the lift and went back into the hotel room, I could only think. I hated John for showing back up in my life and doing this. I hated ever meeting John. I hated everything about him. And I hated myself for ever loving him, it started to show as I tore at my skin with my nails and cried, mumbling words into my pillow. 

A/N

so i hope you guys like this chapter

sorry it took so long

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plus exams

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