Chapter 5 ♡

    They actually showed up.

    I couldn’t believe my eyes when I finally clocked out and head towards my car in the parking lot. All the things my fellow coworker had said must have been true. Having a positive outlook on things might actually end up helping me.

    My feet seemed to quicken as they pulled me closer to the boys. The friends I hadn’t seen in forever - or at least what felt like it.

    “What are you guys up to?” My heart was racing. I hadn’t been this close to the boy that still seemed to fill every empty space of my brain. Every thought I had, would have something to do with him and even though I was growing tired of it, I couldn’t remember a time I’d been this happy just to see someone.

    “We wanted to show you something really cool we found the other day. Grab your car and let’s go,” Both boys hopped back into the dusty gray Sonoma they drove. My heart dropped slightly. I wanted the boy of my dreams to ride with me, but as he sat already buckled into the passenger seat so I felt the need to just turn and hide my disappointment.

    “Alright just give me a second to get the old girl all warmed up,” I motioned towards my car. A 1972 Chevy Nova. Soon she would have to go back to storage. The winters were too harsh in Utah for her. I shook my head walking towards the car as I quickly placed my stuff on the leather seat next to the drivers. Taking my spot in the car I pumped the gas a few times before turning the ignition.

    The engine roared to life, as the car started with no issues. I smiled to myself for a moment, feeling a little sense of pride at my old school car.

    A few minutes later we were pulling out of the parking and driving down the long dark roads towards somewhere I’d never been before. There was quite a bit of turns, and thankfully for me the traffic wasn’t bad. I was able to keep up and follow the boys as they finally pulled up to a turn around spot and parked on the side of the road. I did the same quickly putting the parking brake on before jumping out of the car.

The boy I found myself so infatuated with closed the distance between us as we lean against the hood of the older truck. I could feel my heart racing, as he wraps his arm around me. He held me close to him which threw me for a loop as first.

Why was he doing this?

All the times I had wanted his attention and got none. When I would text him and it would takes hours for him to answer but then there would be a night like this. A night where he would hold me close, treat me right, and make all those negative things fade away.

He was playing with my mind. Always attempting to see how far he could push me to use me as a pawn. I never realized this would be the night I would realize that. This would be the night I would learn that everything was a game, a need, a desire from the boy. There were no feelings, no ounce of compassion, just selfish neverending need for sexual satisfaction.

I watched the light twinkle around us as his hand moved to my face. He kissed me, allowing the fire to build up just enough inside me. The other guy moved, finding his way to the back of the truck to answer a phone call, leaving the two of us alone for just a moment.

The man wrapped around me pulling me closer to him before he pushed me away. Always timing everything so perfectly to cause the most damage. I wanted to scream at him, ask him why he did these things to me as if they didn't matter.

Because to me they did matter.

I watched his move very carefully. Droning the sounds of our friend talking on the phone. The guy in front of me, the one who was torturing every ounce of my body, slowly reach down to fiddle with his pants.

I was confused at first, not aware of what he was doing. I turned to look away, to search my surroundings. We were out in the middle of nowhere, sitting on top of the city. I found comfort in the view.

He grabbed me though, holding my shoulder as he forced me down to my knees. It startled me, I wasn't sure how to respond, all I knew was it hurt.

That's when I realized what was happening. He hadn't brought me up here for myself, he brought me over here with the intent of taking things much further than we ever had. It startled me, shivers rushing over my body. Id never seen a dick before.

Never one ready to ruin my life either. It was eye level to my face now, my body so in shock as he tried to push it towards me while still holding me down. I managed to pull away, falling backwards onto the gravel as I attempted to get away.

“What are you doing?” I question. Pointing to where he was exposed.

“I brought you up, don't you think it's romantic? I figured you would want to…” he trailed off, reaching down to grab himself slowly pleasing his own skin. I shook my head, pulling myself up off the ground. He started to speak once more, “You owe me this,” he whispered. The words still sounding like gun fire in the silence of the night.

“What, no, I’m not going to do that?” I mutter looking through the darkness to fully understand how strange this had been. His best friend - our mutual friend was still leaning against the back of the truck. Watching the night sky in the opposite direction, holding his gaze towards the mountains that were behind us. Never turning to look at us, never making a sound. As if he was trying to take himself mentally anywhere but there.

I glanced down once more out of utter shock, the boy I thought the world of, stood in front of me. Leaning against the truck, holding his dick in his hands as he tried to peer pressure me into falling to my knees. I shook my head looking anywhere but right in front of me. Watching the night sky.

My heart was racing in my chest again but this time for a much different reason. Just knowing he had exposed himself to me without even asking or caring about what I thought was horrifying for myself. As a seventeen year old girl who had never done anything but makeout with a boy was not emotionally ready for something this serious, and here he was forcing himself on to me.

His hand firmly on my shoulder as he puts pressure on my body. Doing his best to gracefully push me towards the ground. I stuttered, pulling myself away from him.

“Really? With your best friend right there?” I question, pointing behind us. He sat still motionlessly looking at the clouds and anything but us. I felt the words falling from my lips and for some reason I felt like I was in the wrong. He was making me feel guilty for not pleasuring him. Yet he couldn’t find the time of day to text me back.

I scoffed shaking my head once again.

“This really hurts, cause all I want is your love and attention and this is how you treat me,” I felt the tears boiling up in my eyes.

“Well this is how you get it,” He motioned towards his exposed dick once more before those brown eyes stared back into mine.