The curtains were drawn and only his bed side lamp illuminated the room.

He was sat up looking at me, "hey, how are you feeling" he sighed and leaned his head back, "I'm fine it's not the first time I've been shot" I still found it hard to believe someone could survive a bullet wound. "I've bought you dinner"
I sat beside him and I could see his face better now, he has dark circles around his eyes, his hair is a mess and falls across his forehead, he wasn't wearing a shirt and i could see his defined muscles perfectly. Clearly the best time to check a man out is when he's in pain.

His shoulder was bandaged up and he has a IV tube connected to his hand, I remember all the blood he lost and was still amazed at how he was awake right now, as if sensing my worry he reached his other hand out and placed it on my cheek "look at me Anisah" his voice was like a magnet and always caught my attention, why is his voice attractive. "I'm going to be alright, now feed me"

with that said i slowly fed him chicken soup in silence which was oddly comforting. "how many time shave you been shot before" he turned to me before looking down "only 4 times" 4 bloody  times.

how is this man still alive. "oh wow, god really doesn't want you to die" he let out a small chuckle before nodding in agreement. my legs were dangling off the bed slightly and his gaze fell to my ankle which has my gold anklet on it was making a small bell sound i was swinging my legs. "your anklet is pretty" I thank him keeping my gaze down. he laid back down and was still staring at my feel before quickly falling asleep.

i quietly got up before covering him up with his duvet I felt his hand grab my arm, he pulled me close to him until I could feel his breath against my ear "I will never regret bringing you with me."

my heart was racing as I went down the stairs, did he really mean that or was he hallucinating. i made my way to the living room still thinking about what Noah said to me. he was not wrong everyone here are really close to each other they've all grown up with one another why would they care about me.

I'm a nobody. they know it and so do i.

If that's the case they why is there a man upstairs smiling in his sleep as he dreams of pretty brown eyes.

Zion and Roman were watching something on tv , they moved to the side so i could sit in the middle. "your actually watching tangled" you wouldn't think roman would be into Disney since he was always reading a book or a newspaper.  "shh this is the best part" i paid attention to the screen, ah right the part where they go to see the lanterns. i hear small sniffles bedside me me and roman both turn our heads slowly to see Zion cleaning his tears with a tissue. "you can judge me all you want but this is so cute, I'm going to surprise my girl like this one day"

I didn't know you have a girlfriend" he finally stopped crying. "I don't unless you want to be with me" his sad self was gone and replaced with puppy eyes and a smirk.

this man knew he was fine "you cant flirt with boss mans girl like that" bear walked in saying with Noah who had his head down. I no longer wanted to be here after our fight he stayed in his room and didn't come out.

"who put this movie on again, you guys know Zion gets upset by it" everyone shook their heads. "Aww bear why don't you cuddle me and make me feel better" it was clear Zion has issues.

"the only one i will cuddle here is Anisah they rest of you can die" i let out a giggle before getting up hugging bear. he felt like a cloud i couldn't help myself from squeezing tighter. "fuck, for a small girl you have a manly grip" His big arms wrapped around me and spun me around I let out a little giggle and hug my face into his chest when everyone turned to look at me.
I sat back down before Zion pulled me close to him and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"Noah has something to say to you" bear said while
Noah stood beside him.

"Bear wants me to apologise, but then I'd be lying so let me tell you straight, your going to die" he turned to look at the others before carrying on, "people associated with atlas are crazy mother fuckers, they will kill her"
"She has us, and from the looks of that punch she gave you I think she can handle herself fine" Roman said, at least someone didn't think I was weak. Before i could say anything he got up and left the room a frown on his face.
I felt Zion bring me closer to him placing my head against his chest "ignore him sweet girl, with us around nobody will put a hand on you" . I stayed like this for a while until I felt myself drift asleep only to wake up in a crippling fear.

The shadow is here again
Nobody is beside me
Nobody to save me
Black shadows once again consumed my being, tears fell down my face. I saw a figure in the vanity mirror, black eyes staring at me. Whispering in my ear...

Fear me, you cannot escape my darkness.

I will follow you to the end

Then just like that everything vanished. I quickly sat up straight before getting out of bed. My legs were wobbly and I quietly panicked it was 3:00am and I don't want to disturb anybody.  Zion probably bought me back to my room after i fell asleep. I sat on the floor with my head tucked in my hands.
I'm afraid of the dark, back at my apartments I had nightlights everywhere it was never dark there was always light.
I didn't sleep the rest of the night and just stared at the ceiling or read a book.

I wondered what my parents were doing right now, they might be finally happy to have me gone, deep down I knew there was no place for me back home. The guys treat me more like family then my own do.
I laughed at the irony.

Don't you get it yet, the black sheep will always travel alone.
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