Chattering with friends, laughing your heart out on things and eating together that seems so much fun. And that's what I was having,
The fun.

Varun came saying "Tea is so bad, I want some actual tea men."
Kritika replied "Even I have tried its so yuck."
"I am not having it today then." I cooed looking at snehal and she nodded giving same expressions as mine.

Varun seem to be so excited suddenly, he looked at soham "lets go to the tea stall outside the premises." Nikki sighed "as if we are going to get the permission to go outside."

"we can at least try", I said. and varun instantly agreed, nodding vigorously. I tried not to laugh at his tactics and stood up asking everyone from our batch, 20 of us ready to go outside and our coordinator akash refused saying "I am not going to ask for permission."

I looked at varun while he was already looking at me, he came, held my wrist saying "lets go we'll ask for permission by ourselves." and I was just looking at his hand holding my wrist, not sure what to think or what to feel. I just knew that it feels so foreign yet so good.
When he left my hand, I looked at his face, his lips were moving, small smile on his lips, he looks so good. He moved his hand upward moving through his hairs and messing them in a good way, the smile on his lips, teeth on display, I didn't realised when I begin to smile as well, he looked at me his eyes moving, as if asking something.

I blinked
and blinked
and blinked to get my mind all clear, what the hell I was thinking, geeeezzz Tiya get a grip on yourself. I took a deep breath in and out, and opened my eyes Kritika was already giving me these sheepish looks.
God I am a horrible person, who does day dreaming for a stupid guy.
"Tia, we will be back by 20 minutes right or should we ask for 30 minutes?"
"Tia" someone was calling my name, I didn't realise it. Varun, he has this look as if he was waiting for me to say something.
'OK. So he might be the one saying something'
"Huh?" "20 minutes or 30 minutes?"
He wiggled his eyebrows, i don't understand what does he mean by 20/30 minutes, I looked ahead and finally realized then said "30 minutes, and we are total 20 going out there wouldn't be any delay" the Head said ok giving us both the responsibility to bring everyone back by time. Obviously after giving us some lectures about how we should not go outside. I nodded and went away from there almost running to be away from varun as much as i could.
'he is just a guy Tia, you have seen many get a grip alreay' I mentally scoffed and Kritika was near me giving me these looks, I ignored her and went to snehal.
'Oh God now I have to ignore my friends for this guy.'

Snehal dragged my hand saying let's go. And we started towards our way, it's not too far and the whether was so decent it was amazing to walk, we were chatting over random things, soham and Varun were doing some random poses in between, it was hard to not stare but I was trying my best to not look at all.
We saw two tea stalls near, and Varun went to the second one, we had our tea and biscuits, when prisha was asking me for some Tally application software that I had registered for, we were having this discussion and my eyes moved for searching one particular person, and that particular person looked at me asking for biscuits, 'he is so cute.' when Kritika bumped me and I came back to my senses, I really need to visit some doctor or better yet mental asylum. What the hell is wrong with me.

This time dhruv started walking for going back towards Institute, I followed him a little faster to reach his level and started having random conversations with him to stop having these thoughts about that one particular person.

When we reached back, I made a quick visit to head to let him know that we are back. And then we went to our class, I took my bag and sat in the middle of the class, Varun always prefers corners so he would be sitting away from me and that's what right for now to be away from him.
Caleb sat next to me and he gave me a warm smile with saying hii, we were talking about random things like exams past classes and everything when he said he had seen in my classes and he was in my class.
"you sure we were in same class, I mean I had seen you in campus but never in class."
He laughed a little "why would I lie for that." well there's a point. "you had your own friends you never really interacted with people outside your group."
"yes true but I notice my surroundings, I would have definitely noticed you." I said.
"you just like to live in your own bubble and everyone knows it." Caleb said.
"Ohh yeah?... If I don't know things then how do I know that, Bhavya over there was also in campus and she likes you, she even proposed you but you rejected."
His eyes widens here (hahaha)
I wiggled my eyebrows, giving this sly smile to him. "how do you know?" shock was written all over his face. I laughed at that and said "see i actually do pay attention, I may be unobservant, but I know things." I smiled triumphully
"ohh please you are very unobservant and this all I am sure Nikki has told you, she was right there on that time."
I scoffed. "I am making a point here, or we can ask Nikki." I made a sour face and said whatever, at this he was laughing so hard.
And at this point Varun sat next to Caleb, he glanced at caleb and asked "what are we talking about?"
Caleb looked at me first and then to Varun "hey Varun, don't you think Tia can be so observant."
I scoffed again and Varun replied "yeah she can be, she is most of the time." I was shooting daggers at him with my eyes.
"You know we were in same batch before exam, and she never noticed." Caleb started.
"Really". Varun said looking at me.
Caleb laughed at my expressions and Varun said "Why would she look at us men, she always lives in her own world, who are we."
I looked at Varun blankly and he was smiling at me no wink no smirk a smile and here again I was starting to lose my mind. The laughter of Caleb bought me back to my senses and I replied with same "yeah whatever."

I was silent from there, just lost don't know where and was just wondering what should I think or feel.
When teacher entered she gave us a brief intro. Talked some things and then she said this is going to be lecture where we learn about our senses our ethics and how to strengthen them. I actively listened to her. Trying not to steal glances at Varun, he was sitting with Kritika on one side and caleb on next. Our eyes met at a point and i gave him a smile and concentrated at front.
That's how the day ended. I was happy that it actually ended I needed to clear my mind.
Everyone was hurrying to make their way outside and so was me. Snehal motioned that she is going to restroom and I also went after that when we went downstairs in parking area. Varun soham Caleb Kritika and Nikki were there. When we joined there they all were bickering over something. Soham put his arm over my shoulder in a friendly way and we were just chatting. I had a feeling that from here this'll be the one group of friends. And I was happy as I saw some new friendships forming their way. When I glanced at everyone, every face had that broad smile, laughing chattering, and when my gaze went to Varun he was glaring at my shoulder. And when I looked down I realised that he is not glaring at my shoulder but at soham's hand.
'why varun.'
I just ignored that also and concentrated on this chit chat.
And after some time we made our way back to home, when varun came in front of my scooty. "Drive safe" I looked at him with blank face and nodded not exactly understanding what to say.
I said Bye to everyone and left.
Now in the whole way there was only one thing or should I say one person on my mind.
I thought alot but I don't understand, maybe it's just infatuation, or I am attracted. But how can I be attracted towards him. I have seen so many boys till now more good looking but I am being attracted towards him. Something is definitely wrong with me.
I reached home, first time I felt that the distance  was too much and I didnt enjoyed my ride.
I went upstairs entering my home. I gave a faint "I am home."
Mom gave me lunch I rested a little, my other pending tasks, I completed some of them.
I was scrolling through my Instagram at the evening time. I had received many requests from my extraordinary batch. I accepted sent for follow back and then in no time I was searching for varun's profile. We had mutual friends by now, of course from the batch. He had a private account. So unfortunately I couldn't have any look at his profile.
'I will send him friend request'
But isn't it out of our rule book. I thought. And just dropped this thought.
You know some people, who will wait for someones request, but never send requests first. Well that's me, I am from that people.
I kept my phone away and then I spent sometime with my siblings and then in no time it was time for sleep. I skipped my dinner as I wasn't hungry. I slept with one thought on my mind, Varun Is just a good friend and that is what we will always be. And with one person's thoughts on my mind,
I slept.