After everyone knew that Ryan died on the battlefields of Vietnam, it was hard mainly for Roger and Jade to move on without him, but, life could not stop. While Roger recorded the album with the boys at Trident Studios, Jade continued her college studies, after all she was already in the final stretch of the course. Also continued with his use of photographic model, besides taking pictures when it was called. She was called in to take pictures of the boys while they recorded the album. In addition, she also photographed them for an advertisement and was photographed by Mick Rock. Despite being distracted by his affairs, Jade could not sleep properly most nights because he had nightmares, in which Ryan died or in other dreams that he said he was alive and that he would return to her. In fact, Ryan was very much alive in Jade's heart, but the girl was melancholy because she knew she would never see the face of her beloved fiance. Jade, even knowing Ryan's death, had not yet taken the engagement ring from her finger. With the ring, she said she sensed his presence and that it gave her the strength to move on. Jade was not eating well and that was troubling everyone.

During the month of September, Jade had a lot of work, because the band had finished recording the album and then Mick Rock went to do the cover and back cover photos and she was again helping Mick Rock.

October 1974.

Before Queen came out on tour for the new album on October 16, they recorded on BBC Studios the versions of songs Now I'm Here, Stone Cold Crazy, Flick on the Wrist and Tenement Funster, song written by Roger and sung by him.

On the twenty-ninth of October, Tuesday night, Roger went to say goodbye to Jade because he would be touring with the band from November to December in the United Kingdom and Europe.

"Promise you'll be all right?" What are you going to feed? - Roger said hugging Jade stroking her hair - I'm finding you a little thinner. You need to feed yourself angel, so you do not get weak.

- I promise I'll be fine. - Jade said watching him kissing him on the cheek. - We'll see you soon, okay?

- Yes. The band will be performing in London on November 19th and 20th. And you're going to do the show pictures, okay? He smiled at her. "Please, my kitten, you feed yourself, you do not go without eating, you dedicate yourself to your book, you already have a time that you do not write.

"When I feel ready, I'll do it, Rog," Jade said, looking at him.

Roger hugged his friend tightly and he would go on this tour, because there would be no way, but, he was worried about Jade, afraid she would do anything to harm her, so he asked Clare, Alicia and Jessica keep an eye on Jade, until he comes back.

On the 30th of October, Queen performed in Manchester already doing the release of the band's third album called Sheer Heart Attack. The name of the album refers to a song that Roger started writing for the album but, he stopped writing in the middle and did not finish writing the song, but, he said he will later do it.

On October 31, they performed at Hanley.

From November 1 to November 18, Queen performed in the UK and performed in Liverpool, Leeds, Coventry, Sheffield, Bradford, Newcastle, Glasgow, Lancester, Preston, Bristol, Bournemouth, Southampton, Swansea, Birmingham and Oxford .

Tuesday, November 19, 1974.

Jade went to college in the mornings and the afternoon went to the XXX musical magazine stage, working from two to six in the afternoon. Then he got into his car, heading home, for at night he would take pictures of the Queen's presentation.

Queen showed up at 9:30 p.m. and Jade took pictures of the band. As the presentation ended, the young woman went to the dressing room to take more pictures of the boys and felt a little dizzy and Roger caught her and she sat down in a chair.

"Jade, you look a little pale, my angel, you're not really feeding," Roger said looking at her. "Please take care of your health."

"I'm fine, Roger," Jade said a little irritably, looking at him.

Roger looked at her sad and worried.

"No, you're not well and I'm worried about you," Roger said.

"Listen to Rog, I'm fine, do not worry about me," Jade said coolly.

Roger sighed, but said nothing more.

From Tuesday to Wednesday, Jade had a beautiful dream with Ryan, where they were in a beautiful garden and kissed.

'promise me you'll never forget me,' Ryan said in the dream, kissing her passionately.

'I promise you, my love that I will never forget my life,' Jade said, kissing him on the lips.

'I love you, Jade and I promise I'll come back to you, you just wait for me and not betray me,' Ryan said.

'But, you're dead, Ryan,' Jade said, looking at him.

'I'm alive, my love, and I promise I'll come back to you.' Ryan smiled at her kissing her. "I promised and I'll come back to you, it's only a matter of time."

At that moment, Jade wakes up from her dream and she sensed Ryan's presence in an inexplicable way. It was three o'clock in the morning, and the young woman sighed longingly at the groom and touched the wedding ring she had won from her deceased fiance. Tears fell on her face.

The next morning, Jade decided she would move away from Roger, because the closer she was to the drummer, the harder it was for her to move on, after all, Roger was very reminiscent of Ryan, due to his coexistence and Rog being Ryan's best friend . Jade wanted to get over this pain, but, it was getting more and more difficult and she thinks that getting away from Roger would help, as much as he had promised her that would be with her and that she had promised him, that would be with him.

Wednesday, November 20, 1974.

Queen performed at night in the Rainbow Theater for three thousand people and Jade took a picture of the boys onstage and looked at Roger who was shirtless and the girls screamed like crazy to the blonde, calling him gorgeous and hot. Jade noticed that Roger was a little different. The presentation of the band, went well and normally, well, they were very applauded. As soon as they played the last song Jailhouse Rock, then Roger, in a fit of fury, destroyed his entire drum kit on stage, almost hitting Freddie John who were nearby. Brian was on the other side of the stage. 

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At that moment Freddie said goodbye to everyone and they left the stage. Jade taking pictures was shocked by everything that happened. What happened to Roger having a fit of fury on stage?

Marcos, his brother and the girls had attended the presentation. Everyone then went to the dressing room to talk to the boys. Roger had explained his fury on the stage to everyone.

- The band is being robbed. Stolen by Trident Studios, that's what's happening. We have already recorded three albums and we are not rich yet, we need, we earn little, while they are making money at our expense - Said Roger disgusted.

"Something we have to do, but it can not go on like this," said Freddie, very worried.

"We'll end our tour and then we'll figure out what to do, but they should not make money on our backs," Brian said.

"We'll have to think hard about what we're going to do," John said.

Roger looked at Jade and called to her and the girl approached him, not wanting much contact.

"Why have you been acting cool to me since you came here tonight?" What have I done to you? I need your support right now, you know that? I'm terrible, after all, the band is being deceived, so I had that fit of fury on the stage - Roger said looking at her.

"I'm sorry," she said looking at him.

"Will you tell me just that, Jade?" Asked the blonde without understanding.

"Can we talk outside the dressing room here?" She asked him.

"Of course," he said coldly and asked the others to leave.

Jade and he went into the hallway and looked around to see if anyone was around.

"Okay, we're here now," Roger said. "Can you tell me what's going on with you?" Why are you treating me coldly, Jade?

"I'm sorry, Roger, but no more," Jade said looking at him. "You can not be your friend anymore.

- What? Roger asked incredulously. "Can I know why?" Did I do you any harm, by any chance?

"You're not to blame for anything, Roger, it's me," Jade said with tears in her eyes. "I dream every night with Ryan, I feel like he's alive, but he's dead. DEAD!

"He's alive in our hearts, Jade, he's alive in his dreams, he'll always be alive to you in your life, even if you do not see him anymore. He is alive in my heart and I always ask him to accompany me with the Queen's tours, to accompany me always in my life and I will ask him for advice, in dreams, only the body died, Ryan's Spirit lives and is accompanying us Jade - Roger said looking at her.

- He is not alive, Roger, he is not, because I do not see him anymore, he is no longer here - Said Jade crying - And I decided to move away from you, we can not be friends anymore, because whenever I see you or we are together, I feel Ryan close, you remind me of Ryan and he is not here with us anymore and it makes me very bad, I wanted him with me, NOW! But that is not possible and it upsets me more, because I see you and I feel closer to him, without him being here.

"You're asking me then to get out of your life, is that it?" "Is that what you want, Jade?" You mean I hurt you? That my presence hurts you, why do you remember Ryan? Is that what you want, Jade?

"I'm sorry, but that's right, Roger. - Jade said sadly.

The blonde was incredulous at what he heard and ran his hand over his face.

- Ungrateful! Do you think only you suffer from Ryan's absence? I SUFFER DAY AND NIGHT, WITH THE DEATH OF MY FRIEND / BROTHER, OK? I'm trying to move on, after all, I still have a life and I have goals to achieve, people who love me and I'm sure Ryan would never want me to give up on my dreams, but if you want to get away from me, it's a right yours, is not it? Go ahead, just do not regret it later. I would really need your support now, since the band is going through some difficult times because we are being deceived. But, okay, if you want it that way it's your right.

Roger walks away from Jade, devastated, and the girl stands alone in the hallway and leans against the wall, for she feels a slight dizziness and takes a deep, sad breath.

Photos Live at the Rainbow