The saddest thing is when
you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you.

I could hear the rain drops thrumming on the roof, my eyes landed on the blue walls, the memories flooded back. My hands found my temple, the feel of dried liquid smeared my fingers. Blood. The clothes that were once in beautiful condition were torn, my bare chest on display. I've never experienced such pain before even the single movement of lifting my legs brought tears to my eyes, but still they wouldn't leave their cage. Biting my lip I stood up, the aching sensation was unbearable.

Finally my feet met the cold floor, I wobbled towards the large grey cupboard, noticing a black jumper I took it. Fortunately, it covered my body saving me from the cold morning air. My head was spinning as his smell filled my senses, it was hard not to rip off the clothing that was meant to keep me safe.

I walked down the stairs slowly not wanting to wake anyone up, especially the monster that hides behind a heartwarming smile. Reaching the last staircase I noticed beer can bottles littered everywhere, pieces of food were scattered on the table, at the heart of all this mess were two people cuddling and sleeping soundlessly. My heartbeat quickened as I saw him move positions, luckily his eyes were shut. Oh how I felt bad for Amelia, only if she knew, even if I told her would she believe me?
I left my thoughts alone grasping my clutch in one hand I left.

Even the heavy rain couldn't wash away the filth that devoured my body, my phone was dead and I had no money left the only option was to walk. The streets were deserted, I passed a handful of blocks before reaching the apartment. I opted for the lift knowing it would be quicker, the doors opened my teeth started chattering uncontrollably, all I wanted was home.

'Mum' I closed the door after me.'Mummy' My voice was barely a whisper now, I peeked through her bedroom door to see her sleeping. Putting my phone on charge I stumbled into the bathroom, running hot water I jumped in. The water progressively grew covering my body, I sank in thinking, what if I drowned will anyone care? My heart rate slowed as the water consumed me, only if I could let everything go...welcome the darkness, only if I could.

I lifted my head out of the water taking a long deep gasp of air, I forced myself out of the warm bath making my to my room. The ping of my phone stole my attention.

Last night was great thx

Caleb <3

Suddenly I felt cold again the water dripped down my body leaving clear puddles on the white tiled floor.
Another message this time from Scarlet, what does she want?

I know what happened last night cause I'm so nice I'll warn u better watch out bitch !

Has it been months since I cried? The sensation of my tears falling felt foreign, my fingers reached up for my cheeks feeling the pain finally come out.
I plummeted to the ground and cried and I realized how lonely I really was.

That morning I cried for different things.