No poems

just going to pour my feelings out in words.... I am crying rn... and this is the least read book by all

And i dont want to talk about it at all please. Nothing happened... just fake scenarios with headset on.

Here goes nothing

I told you this book will have some emotions precious to me. Here that goes

I don't know where to begin, or how I'll pour my emotions out... I have no clue

**puts her headset on, turns out the lights and locks the door**

Well... if not now then when?

That's it, today is it

i thought about writing a letter but...

apparently my little brother cant tolerate the gate closed ;-;

so here are mindless scribblings. Enjoy or not idk n idc anymore

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It's been so long

So long I buried them inside me, those words I never said, the chances I never took. That hope that I cling on, the hope that I forever lost

I am all alone really. There are people, my friends in background, but I won't let them in. Because I can't trust anymore.... I can't love anymore without fearing that

Their love would never match mine

I always have this constant fear inside which chokes me

I can't let myself truly care, but I slip all the time. All the time....

They mean more to me than maybe how I mean to them....

But that's not what it's about.

I'll start with you. The guy I was or still am in love with.

I view love as something hopeless now. For me it is, we couldn't ever possibly meet.

It's been 10years.... 10 years since I last saw you, hear your voice, saw you smile, saw your ever so happy grin. Your mere presence was bliss for me. I still remember you... and i forever will....

But the Question is?

Do you remember me? I miss you.... and which is exactly why I hate missing people....I love you...

I wish i could have told that to you when you were about to leave. but it's too late now

we could never meet again... I tried to cling to the hope. I remember how we first met. A stupid general grocery open store. I saw you, our eyes met

It's real, I could feel something spark in me, and maybe you felt that too...A spark of familiarity.

I was promoted to 2nd grade dude.  THE SCHOOL DIDNT EVEN BEGIN

and i fell in love with u there and then. I advanced you, with a stupid smile on my face, hands waving in the air as i ran across to come to you. You were taken back, nervous, agreed to anything I said. I thought we knew each other, that we were old classmates maybe. I remember u told me otherwise but i didn't listen

I was so obnoxious....But that's how it began...

we got close, i would introduce to the limited number of my friends, saying we used to be old classmates, grabbing your hand and dragging you along with excited giggles. So childish.

Hey i was 5 back then mind you

pfft

I wonder how much you've changed? I mean now I am 16 and will be 17....

I still remember the time when i told my friend about what I dreamt about u, it was just the fact I dreamt about u, and u went running, yelling playfully that I like you while I denied that running after u to hit or tickle u.

I remember once, i came to your class back in second grade. to offer u something from my tiffin ig?

there was a girl who went like "Oh! so she is your gir-"

I wasn't stupid to not know what she meant. You jumped on her back, forbidding her from speaking any further. I just stood there with dumbfounded look and then scurried off to my class. I couldn't sleep that night, smiling.

I guess... we both knew we liked each other didn't we?

Like in some spiderman game we played, pretending I was kidnapped and your spiderman toy came for my rescue and told me it loved me and I was the most beautiful girl it met. Man was I flattered and tempted to kiss you on the cheek. But held my boundaries anyway.

I knew i would never be in a relationship because dad refuses, and I respect and will forever respect that. You are my first and last love.

But now, if anyone would ask me if i believe in love at first sight? My answer would be no. So that I could be over you. I don't know how u look, what's your personality like... but i know one thing, i can swear i can identify you with your smile and eyes.... I think....

But ik,... u came back in summer vacations to meet me, it was once. but hey, i still remember the times we spent. The times we talked on swing and those typical swing that is 'native' to only and only vizag or andhra pradesh. We used to talk hours.

Man u used to tell me you had a crush on one of your friends who was wayyy older than you, you even asked about my crush before lol.

I remember you and time I spend with you

Do you? its been more than 10 years? i can't blame you.... but the thought itself puts me in silent position. Sometimes when the wind goes by strong, i feel like singing. I would join sentences that probably came from bottom of my heart, hoping to meet you again. Imagining you hearing them

I was crazy obnoxious girl back then. used to be such an attention seeker, yet i think you liked me.

For those memories thank you. Really

Your presence was bliss in my life. I can never forget those times, like c'mon even after 10 whole years I remember them!

Oh and, whenever I hear someone who has your name... I couldn't help asking if they have ever been to Vizag, naval park

But sadly... it was never you....

it was just a hope. And apparently your name is such a common one dude!

Just like mine

Thank You for those memories

But i wish i could meet you
See your smile
Hear you call my name
feel what it use to be like holding your hand
feel how it used to feel to be around you
For one last time
I still haven't given up hope.... I would never.... a part of me would always belong to you. And honestly, I wish.... that you could remember me.

But ofc i have to accept the reality

We probably are never gonna meet..... Never gonna hear each other voices... and you? most likely have forgotten me

But thanks for letting me know
What falling in love feels like
Thanks
A-

was it single A or double?

lol, remember that moment when i asked u that, writing your name and you were like "It's pretty  obvious, everyone knows" but i told u my name has double even though its obvious, some people have single A. I was sitting on the merry go round

How big a weirdo I am
I remember where your class used to be, which building you lived in, which spot we met for the first time

but how can I not?

It was love at first sight.

P.s Butterflies in the stomach are a real thing people.

P.s.... Please don't forget me.... Please....