Bangtan Sonyeondan (BTS)

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TRIGGER WARNING: this one shot covers issues on SELF HARM AND DEATH

Please know that I don't want to offend anyone with this story and if I did, I'm terribly sorry. I can take it down if any of you want.

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(o/s/n) - older siblings name

(y/n) - your name

It was a calm night, the road stretching further and further into the mountains covered with trees. You smiled, leaning forward to catch a glimpse of the bright twinkling stars that loomed over your heads as you sat comfortably in the seat of the car. You felt a squeeze on your hand and turned to face Him, your heart beating faster seeing the big smile He showed you. He quickly faces the road, lifting your arm up and softly kissing the back of it. You leaned back, the window rolled down as the cool breeze swept through your hair. Faint smells of pine needles calms your anxious body that seems to be on high alert. Despite enjoying the scenery that presented itself to you, your body couldn't calm down. Your heart was in a constant race, your body on edge and the hairs on the back of your neck always seemed to be up. You tried to ignore these signs. You leaned your head out the window, breaking the grasp of his Hand holding yours and deeply breathe in the night air.

"Whoooo!" You scream out, your hair flying behind you as the wind nipped at your face, cooling your body. You watched the sky twinkle with the stars, the moon out and full. The moon illuminated the road ahead of you, the trees continuous and ever growing on your right, the forest dark and ominous. The sea expelled a salty breeze as the waves crashed against the cliff side on your left, a lighthouse seen in the far distance with its rotating light.

"You're going to get cold like that." He chuckled as you brought your head back in the car, taking hold of His free hand once more.

"I can't help it. It's a beautiful night." You turn to Him smiling and see the grin on His face as He continued to drive down the single road that would take you back home. "Thank you for tonight."

"Anything for you sweetheart. I knew you liked stargazing."

"It was amazing seeing the sunset at the top of the cliff and seeing the stars. Everything was perfect." You leaned in quickly, your lips pressing against His cheek. He turned around to face you, love evident in His eyes as He smiles softly before pressing a quick kiss on your lips. He faced the road once more and you sat in the comfortable quiet. It had started to get cold and you rolled the window up as He drove around a bend. Lights suddenly blinded you, losing your vision for a second before you heard the loud honk. Everything was quick as your head hit the window harshly from the swerve, the screech of tires breaking the silence and the spinning that never seemed to stop. Everything faded together, the night was suddenly illuminated by a bright orange light before you saw darkness.

"(y-y/n)." You heard a familiar voice echo in your head. It was soft and tired. You struggled to open your eyes to come face to face with another pair of eyes staring down at you. They were tired and weak, the colour slowly draining but the spark was bright as ever.

"(y/n)." Your mind became clear and you saw Him leaning over you, His arms holding His body up on either side of your car seat. His legs rested on the seat on either side of your legs but His body was hunched over.

"(y/n)." You blinked numerous times before looking down. You heard a scream but couldn't figure out if it was coming from you. Tears started streaming down your cheeks as you heard Him groan in pain.

"NO!" Your body shakes seeing the pole that had gone through His body, stopping just before it could harm you. "No! Please no!" you screamed out, your shaky hands grasping His cheeks as He weakly smiles down at you. Tears continued to stream like waterfalls as He slowly moves a hand to hold your cheek. He leans His forehead down on yours, groaning in pain as His hand caresses your cheek. You cried out, holding on to His shoulder. "You're going to be ok!"

"(Y/n)." He closed His eyes but you screamed again.

"No! Stay awake! Don't close your eyes!" You desperately searched for a phone but realised that both yours and His were in the bag in the back seat.

"(y/n), I love you."

"Don't say that! You're going to live! Please!" You wail out as He opened His eyes.

"Don't cry." He weakly says, trying to wipe away your endless tears.

"You're going to be ok! Stay with me!"

"I love you so much (y/n)."

"You're going to be ok! You're going to be ok!"

"You are strong. You know that I will always be with you." Your eyes blur and your head pounds. Your chest heaves from how much you were crying.

Your whole body was shaking as you saw the face of (o/s/n). Memories zoomed past you as you experienced the crash all over again.

You sat in the front seat, the car taking you home after a long day at school. A car came barreling towards you as soon as (o/s/n) turned a corner. The car spun and you screamed in fright. The car that had crashed into yours came in contact with another, the collision of the cars causing an explosion. The car you sat in stop spinning but the explosion were sending objects flying everywhere. Before you could open your eyes, (o/s/n) jumped out of their seat to shield your small frail body. You opened your eyes to see the impaled body of (o/s/n).

"You are strong. You know that I will always be with you."

"Please don't cry anymore (y/n)." He says softly but you couldn't help but cry.

"I love you (y/n). Always know that." He leaned down to kiss you. Both your hands were placed on his shoulders, His laying softly on your cheek. You grasped His hand that rested on your cheek, kissing him back. He leaned back, smiling down at you as His eyes slowly closed.

"NO! WAKE UP!" You shook his shoulders, trying to wake Him up but His eyes never opened. You saw the sad face of (o/s/n) whispering their apologies.

"Please don't take him!" You cried out, hugging Him.

"Please don't leave me!" You tried to wake Him up but He never opened His eyes.

"I love you! Please don't go!" You kissed him, hoping for His lips to kiss you back.

"DON'T GO! I BEG OF YOU!"

"There has been an accident today on the mountain roads that lead up to the old planetarium. It has been a year now since the last incident that has coincidentally occurred on this very same day. The car crash revolved around a couple dying in the car and-"

You sat there on the couch, your arm up with the remote and staring at the black screen of the tv. Your arm slowly moves back to your side, the silence wrapping around your body and suffocating you. Your head slowly moved to the picture of you and Him, tears instantly springing at the corner of your eyes. They fall down, one by one, dripping down on your clothes. Your face remained passive as you stood up and headed towards the picture.

Jimin:

You stare at the picture of you being held against Jimin's bare chest. His arms were wrapped around your bare waist, big smiles adorned both your faces. Jimin had his chin laying on your shoulder as your hand rested on his cheek. You were facing the camera while Jimin was facing you, the love glowing from his eyes and his smile. You both were at a water park, celebrating another anniversary and the place of your first date. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Jimins face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

Your body turned around, heading to your bedroom. You closed the bedroom door behind you before locking it and head to the bathroom door. You didn't bother closing the door as you head straight to the bathtub. You turned the tap, not caring if it was on the cold setting. The tap released endless streams of water, which overflowed and pooled onto the bathroom floor and into your bedroom. You lifted your leg and placed it in the tub, not registering the extremely cold temperature of the water. You lifted the other leg into the tub and you sat down. The water gushed out from both sides of the tub, spilling to the floor. Your body shook as you stared at the picture once more before plunging your body under water. You never came back up.

"I love you Jimin."

Yoongi:

You stare at the picture of you being held against Yoongi's side, big smiles adorned both your faces. Yoongi had an arm wrapped around your waist, the other holding up a basketball. You had both your arms wrapped around his chest, your cheek resting against his sweaty shirt. Yoongi was staring down at you lovingly as you stared at the camera smiling. You both were at a basketball court where Yoongi was teaching you to play, which was also the hall of the high school you both went to, the one where he had confessed to you. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Yoongi's face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

The temperature in the house soon escalated, your body starts to warm up as beads of sweat rolled down your neck. You turned around to face the rocking chair that was placed next to the couch. The temperature started to heat up more as you turned the rocking chair around to face the direction of the kitchen. You sat down as an explosion was heard, flames shooting out from the direction of the kitchen. The area around you started to light up, flames taking refuge around your body as it burned everything it touched. The house started to burn down, your body shaking as you stared at the picture once more before the flames lit up your body.

"I love you Yoongi."

Hoseok:

You stare at the picture of you being held against Hoseoks sweaty chest, big smiles adorned both your faces as you held up a peace sign. Hoseok had both his arms wrapped around your waist as you took the picture. Hoseok was resting his head on top of yours, giving it a small kiss while staring down at you. You both were in Hoseoks dance room in front of the mirror. He was teaching you a choreography since he asked you to be his partner in one of the videos. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Hoseok's face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

You carried the photo within your arms, hugging it to your chest as you went to your bedroom. The house was cold, unbearably silent as you only heard your bare footsteps against the floor. You locked your bedroom door behind you and climbed into your side of the bed, the other side empty and untouched of your beloved. It was cold. As it always was. You placed the photo down next to you on the pillow next to you and you turned to stare at the glass of water on your bedside table next to a bottle. You picked up the bottle and opened the cap, your hand filling up with the small objects that fell from the bottle. You opened your mouth and emptied your hand, guzzling down the water straight after. You threw the glass and the bottle away, ignoring the shatter of glass against the wall. You laid down and faced the photograph once more before going to sleep. Forever.

"I love you Hoseok."

Jungkook:

You stare at the picture of you being carried on Jungkooks back, a big smile adorned Jungkooks face as you held onto him in fright as Jungkook turned to face you. You had your hands loosely but securely wrapped around Jungkooks neck, so to not choke him by accident and he had his arms carrying you up with your legs around his waist. You both were at the amusement park in front of two of the park's mascots, the photo being taken by a stranger. It was your anniversary and also the same place where Jungkook took you on a date and had asked you to be his girlfriend. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Jungkooks face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

You carried the photo within your arms, hugging it to your chest as you exit your house, not bothering to lock it behind you. You were wearing one of Jungkooks shirts and one of his sweats, which barely kept you warm against freezing cold night. You walked barefoot down the empty streets as a clock struck 3 in the morning. The houses were dark and quiet as you walked past them. You don't know how far you walked but you ended up on the pathway next to empty roads on an extremely tall bridge. It was dead. Quiet. There were no cars. You walked further, the biting cold wind lashing against your shivering body. You climbed the railing of the bridge and stared at the moon before you in the night sky above the still waters. You turned around so your back was against the water, the road before you. You stared down at the photograph in your arms, not noticing the yells of a person far from you. It was too late. You fell back. Falling from the bridge and into the water.

"I love you Jungkook."

Namjoon:

You stare at the picture of you being held by Namjoon, his arms wrapped around your waist as he held you to his chest. You had your hands on his cheeks, both your faces tilted towards each other in a surprise kiss Namjoon had given you. Both your eyes were closed with soft smiles, standing in front of a famous portrait of Romeo and Julliette. The photo was taken by a stranger at a Museum you both visited on your vacation for your anniversary. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Namjoons face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

You carried the photo within your arms, hugging it to your chest as you entered your bedroom, locking the door behind you. You went into your bedroom, not bothering to close the door. You open the cabinet that stored most of your sharp objects, picking up a familiar one. It was small in your hand as you slid your back down against the wall and onto the floor. You rolled the sleeves up of one of Namjoons large shirts that covered your bare thighs. You stared down at your scarred arms, raising your hand with the sharp object and moving it deeply against your skin. Deep red lines formed, red liquid pooling out and dripping down your arms and onto the white tiles. More lines were made on both arms, more red liquid spilling onto the floor from the scars like fresh paint, forming a painting of itself underneath your body that soon become a doll. Its eyes were devoid of life.

"I love you Namjoon."

Jin:

You stare at the picture of you being held by Jin, one of his hands wrapped around your waist, the older holding your cheek. Both your hands were on Jin's cheeks as Jin held you tightly to his chest, Jin's forehead leaning on yours. Both your eyes were closed, soft smiles on both your faces. You both were standing in front of blossom trees that were raining soft pink flowers, the very same flowers that fell on your wedding and the day Jin confessed his love for you. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Jins face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

You carried the photo within your arms, hugging it to your chest as you entered your bedroom, locking the door behind you. You look up to see your dusty and unused ceiling fan that had a rope tied around it. You saw your desk and the wooden chair that sat idly by against the wall until you dragged it to the middle of the room, the photograph still in hand. You climbed onto the chair, steadying yourself on its rocky legs. Pieces of string tickled your bare neck as you wore Jin's large shirt that covered your bare thighs. You look down at the photo in your hand, gripping it tightly as the other held the rope securely. You look at the photo, kicking the chair. The photo that was held in your hand, fell from its tight grip, the glass shattering as it landed next to the fallen wooden chair.

"I love you Jin."

Taehyung:

You stare at the picture of you being held by Taehyung against his side. Taehyung had an arm wrapped around your shoulder as you had one around his waist. You both were doing a peace sign, a large smile adorning your face as you faced the camera. Taehyung was staring down at you lovingly, a soft on his face. You both were standing in front of a clear blue ocean, sand underneath your bare feet. The sun was setting softly when the photo was taken, the sky painted with soft hues of pinks and oranges. You took hold of the picture, caressing the smooth glass as tears fell down on to it. You stared at Taehyungs face, as you held a tight grip onto the picture.

You carried the photo within your arms, hugging it to your chest as well as the cold, silver metal object in your hand as you exit your house, not bothering to lock it behind you. You were wearing one of Taehyungs shirts and one of his sweats, which barely kept you warm against freezing cold night. You walked barefoot down the empty streets as a clock struck 3 in the morning. You don't know how far you walked but you ended up at the beach, the waves softly crashing against the shore. It was dead. Quiet. There was no one around. You walked into the ocean, the biting cold waters lashing against your shivering body. Your waist was submerged as you stared at the moon before you in the night sky above the violent waters. You look down at the photograph in your hands, raising the metal object against your head. There was yelling in the distance but you ignored it. They were too late. A loud bang broke the silence.

"I love you Taehyung."