Sometimes, you gotta take the time and reminisce on things.

It's currently almost 1:30 in the morning as I am typing this, and I've been giving some things thought. I was laying in bed, unable to sleep, cause I was thinking about a lot of things. So, I decided to pull my laptop back out and to go on here; Wattpad. I clicked on a few things, and ended up going onto my best friend's account. Then I remembered her old account, the one she ended up getting locked out of or something like that. I searched it up, and ended up finding it in a matter of seconds.

I remember one of the stories she wrote on there around two years ago; it had been a year at most since we first met. My account name was still Rosepool back then. I always loved that story, the one she wrote, and decided to reread it. Everything was so simple then. Well, things are never simple. But simpler than the things going on now.

Sometimes, you wish you could go back. But, you have to wonder, would things be the same as they are today if you could go back? What if you went back with the knowledge you know now? Probably in most cases, things would change. But, would they change for the better? Or the worse?

You know, my little angels, things happen for a reason. I guess I've always been a strong believer in that. No matter how much shiz you go through, you have to pull through. You can't go back, and frankly, you shouldn't have to. Like I said, things happen for a reason. It may not seem like it, but that tragic event just happened to you, was supposed to happen. Why? You'll figure that out in the future, trust me. Even if you don't figure it out.

We can't go back to simpler times. Simpler times don't exist. You look back, and think, "Oh, I wish I could go back two years ago, when my best friend was still writing that story, and I wasn't facing the shiz I'm facing now." The shiz you're facing now may be harder than the shiz you faced back then. But you were still facing shiz back then.

Me, I get stressed out easily. Back then, I was likely stressing over a paper due, or some kind of drama that went on with me and my friends at lunch. Back then that was the shiz. And back then, if I ever did look back to "simpler times," I might have been looking back at my childhood. Like when I was in elementary school, perhaps.

But even as a child things happen. Nothing is simple, even as a child, despite what some may think. You're still learning about the world, discovering new things. You have to start learning how to fit in, and the way things work. That may seem easy to some of you now, but back then, it wasn't. Even if you yourself didn't realize it or simply don't remember.

There are no simpler times. One can reminisce all they want, and that's perfectly fine. You're allowed to relive the happy memories every once and a while, especially if you're stressed out like I am now. We all need a break; a breather. We all need time to relax and unwind, at least for a little while.

But, we still have to move forward. Reminiscing does not mean going back to the past, but simply to remember it on a happy note. We were born with the ability to remember, not the ability to travel back in time. There's a reason for that, and if you don't understand that reason, you might want to reread everything I just typed. You might be missing the point. Even though you may be going through shiz now, you need to remember that in the future, you might just end up going through even bigger shiz. And what you're going through now may be the "simpler time."

~ Fallen