I hold my breath and look at my messages.

No, you're not there.

As I realise you should have been back....

I start breathing hard.

A dreadful feeling overcomes me.

Panic.

Panic because you're not here.

Panic because now I don't know when you'll be back.

Panic because you can't keep on going like this for long.

Panic because something is on the way....

And you're not here.

And without you I'm not as strong.

As the days go by I feel it deep within.

The panic that escapes from my thoughts.