I know I have my sisters but this chapter is talking about things besides my sisters ( yes, that's somehow possible )

It's too much to hope for to be so normal.

It's too much to ask for someone to actually like me in that way for once. No one.....ever has liked me or loved me not in a family or friend way.

And it feels like shit.

It feels like I'm not good enough and that I'll never be good enough for anyone.

Everyone around me is dating and kissing and crushing on each other and slowing going into relationships and I'm still waiting for a boy to talk to me first!

It feels horrible.

It's obviously too much to ask....for once for someone to like me!

Ugh, I'm too tired to even cry about this but I hate it. I feel really bad about everything.

I'm not good at anything and no matter how hard I try at school, I just never fit in!