I don't even know how to start...but I just want to get something off my chest I guess so bear with me, you can skip this if you want.

I am so fucking stressed and alone.

At school my best friend has left me and is sitting with the "popular people" worst part is that she messages me only when she needs something and acts like nothing happened. It was her birthday today so I just acted like nothing happened and gave her one of my famous enough handmade cards.

That might sound selfish that I want her to sit with me....but it's not if you look at it this way.

Her "friends" gave her bricks for her birthday....like wtf?

They don't even care about her, they steal the boy she likes and they talk behind her back....I don't want her to get hurt and I told her this before but a couple of weeks later she did it anyway. She left me for them, and why? Because she's smart and wants to waste it, that's why. It doesn't even make sense. Her parents make her do good in school and she gets in trouble if she gets half or close to half, she has to be the best! And yet she hangs out with people who make her dumb....

Ugh.

And that's not it.

Literally all my other friends are ignoring me and stuff...but I haven't done anything different, I don't even talk about paranormal things, strictly normal. And I'm so nice to them....I never say a bad word to them and we never fight, i just don't get why everyone is leaving me.

And that's not it, there's more.

I'm getting pressured at home and at school. We had this thing where we had to repeat a project from last year and I got an A+ last time....this time I thought I did just as good. I got a C-.

How is that fair? It was the exact same thing!

And I always try my best...and yet no one notices me!

At home everyone is saying that I need to do better but I'm already pushing my limits!! I'm starting to feel like no one in the world gets me....

And then today my mums friend came and while I was at school went through my things and dared speak about me and how my room is messy!! It's not! I only have 8 books on my chair, two shirts folded on a different chair and a few textbooks on the floor....it really isn't messy.

And I don't appreciate people going through my things....it happens all the time at home! People just walk inside my room like it were a room in a museum and like they owned it!!

I need my privacy and I'm not getting any!!

Not to mention my horrible headaches everyday....and the dreams that I don't remember that keep nagging at me. It's like I know something important but it's hidden in my mind....

And I know people have it worse....I get it but I feel empty, emotionless and yet so pissed at the same time! I just want to complain for once and not let it all bottle up....

I'm sorry about the long chapter but I really needed to get this out.

This tell me if any of you have troubles like these, it would make me feel better knowing it's not just me....