A/N: hey guys! Just letting you there might be some big time-jumps in the story/chapter to get to Ty :) so not every day, week, month, thing in Brendon and Josh's relationship get mentioned, but only certain things I want to tell 😅 they're doing good, they're relationship growing, evolving. So yeah jut to let you know. You may continue :)

May 28th

I can't believe my baby is graduated", Brendon smiled softly as he nudged Josh's shoulder. It had been about 10 minutes since Josh had gotten his diploma, and he immediatly looked for Brendon as soon as he got off the stage in the gym. It wasn't like there was anyone else to look for, either. Obviously his parents didnt attend, and with all the people from church around, Josh had forbidden Jordan to show up. It would only get him into trouble if they saw the brothers were still connected somehow.

"I know right..? Me neither." Josh huffed, wrapping his arms around Brendon's waist, to the older's surprise. "What's got into you?" He grinned, not used to Josh showing any affection in a public place since that day. Josh pressed his cheek against his boyfriend's chest. "I always promised myself to escape once I was graduated. I wanted my diploma before everything would change." He pulled back a bit, looking up to Brendon's damn pretty brown eyes. "Even though that didnt really work out the way I had planned, I am officially graduated now. This is my escape." He smiled softly, Brendon soon reciprocating with a bright smile. "So I decided not to care anymore, who wants to know can know. I'm done with being scared."

Brendon grinned. "Does that mean I can kiss you right now, right here?" Josh didnt really have to say anything, his hands on Brendon's hips pulling him closer was enough of an answer. The second their lips met, someone behind them cleared it's throat. "Josh?"
A little annoyed their moment was disturbed Josh turned, his face soon changing into a smile. "Mr. Williams!"
The man smiled back at him and Brendon. Josh quickly nudged Brendon's side, making the older let out a silent "oh" before shaking the man's hand and introducing himself.  "Congratulations once again, Josh. I'm glad things worked out eventually. Any trouble lately with your parents?" Josh shook his head. They hadn't bothered him ever again, to his surprise really. He still just wasn't sure what to think of it. Was this really it? Or was there still more to come?
"Thank you so much for your help", Brendon replied as he pulled Josh close to his side. "I'm not sure if we would've managed otherwise, y'know, moneywise..." Mr. Williams nodded happily. "So what's the plan now?"
"Looking for a job, getting settled and then we'll see what happens. I haven't got it all planned out. But we will figure things out." He smiled softly, his cheeks coloring at him mentioning Brendon as 'us' and his one and only plan for his future. Mr. Morgan smiled at him. "I hope it will work out for you guys. If you ever need help, don't hesitate to reach out okay?" He watched Josh carefully. He nodded. "Okay. Thank you so much for everything. Really. Thank you."

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June 18th

"It does sound better. Makes me feel a little bit less of a perv", Brendon laughed. His ice-cold hands slid up underneath Josh's shirt. "Dude", Josh laughed, pushing Brendon's hands away from him. "How are your hands always so fucking cold? If I didn't know any better i'd think you were already dead." Brendon pouted, trying to get his hands on Josh over and over, but Josh kept swatting them away. "Get away from me!" He laughed, getting up from the couch. "No harrassing me on my 20th birthday, old man. You have to take a shower and get ready anyway, I wanna go out."

Music was loud, people were intoxicated, his friends long lost in the crowd. Or maybe they had even left. Josh didnt know, and he didnt care. He was here, Brendon was here too. He didnt exactly know where though, so when some guy put his hands on Josh's hips and started dancing with him he just let it happen. He just wanted to dance, and thats what he did. His hands in the air, everything moving on the beat drumming through his veins. The guy was goodlooking, tall, blonde. Not Brendon-handsome, but still good. They danced for a while, the guy slowly backing Josh up into the wall. Oh.

The second he realized what the intentions of this guy were, Brendon popped up next to him, a smug grin on his face. He only just opened his mouth to say something, when Josh pushed the guy off of him and started apologizing. "Sorry! That was nothing! I was just dancing, and then I realized he-." Brendon laughed.
The guy was still standing in front of Josh, close, too close, and Josh pushed him back, escaping through the gap between Brendon and him, scurrying towards the toilets.

Brendon tapped the guys shoulder, laughing. "Don't leave. Yet." He spoke before following Josh. "What are you freaking out about?" He started once he was next to Josh, looking at him through the dirty mirror. "I would never, ever, ever cheat on you Bren. I love you."
"I know you wouldn't." He stepped closer, behind Josh, his arms snug around his ribs. Brendon's breath was hot on Josh's ear when he whispered, eyes still locked with Josh's through the mirror.
"Would you want to kiss him?"
"What? No!"
"Are you sure?"
Josh was confused. Did he want to?
"What if you weren't with me at all. Would you have let him kiss you then?"
"Probably."
"Then do it."
"What?"
"Kiss him, and let me watch."
Brendon pushed him out the bathrooms. Josh was confused, even more by the fact that he actually considered it. He had learned a lot about Brendon this last year, knew this was a thing he did before. And mentioned before. But he never expected it to go like this, and Josh had always been sure he wouldnt want to. He only wanted Brendon. Right?
Right. It wasn't like Josh wanted the other guy like that. But the fact that he felt himself growing hot with the sheer idea of Brendon watching him kiss someone else was... interesting.

Soon they spotted the guy, dancing on his own at the corner of the dancefloor. "Stay in sight, never do anything we haven't agreed on, and never deny me. That's the only rules." Josh awkwardly shut his mouth, his jaw dropped during Brendon's statement. But the mischievous grin on his boyfriends face made him even more excited. Not to kiss someone else, but to see how Brendon would react to it.

So slowly Josh made his way over the the dancefloor, the guy quickly spotting him again and smiling. "What's your name?"
"Josh. Your's?"
"Colin. Who's he?" He asked while his hands were back on Josh's hips already, the latter slightly uneasy. "My boyfriend."
Colin stopped moving right away. "Your boyfriend?" Josh smiled. "Yeah." A bit unsure he started to dance again. "I was going to kiss you, you took off and then he told me not to leave?"
Josh chuckled. "Yeah. Weird huh?" Colin nodded, now focussing on Josh, and no longer on Brendon, who was only a couple of meters away but in full view. "So I can still kiss you?" He asked, lips ghosting over Josh's jaw. "Yes", Josh breathed, anticipation creeping up his spine. "But i'm not going to take you home?"
Josh smiled, letting a small puff of breath "no."

He couldn't say much more before Colin pressed his lips to Josh's, calloused fingers digging into his neck. It was weird, and Josh didnt know if he liked it, but he kissed back. Colin was rough, dominant, demanding. Josh didnt quite enjoy it, till he turned them around slightly, opened his eyes a bit and saw Brendon staring at them. His heart nearly gave out, tingles were evident in all limbs as he closed his eyes again. He kissed back harder, he didnt know why or how, but something in him wanted to make Brendon jealous, so jealous, but give him exactly what he wanted at the same time. He needed to know he was Brendon's and Brendon's only and somehow this made absolutely no sense but it felt like the perfect way to do so.

Out of breath, Josh pulled back, and Colin settled for continuing his actions on Josh's jaw. Josh stared at Brendon, who was focussed, a slight frown on his face, one hand gently covering, or palming, himself. Josh pushed Colin off when he zoned back in, this wasn't part of the deal and he shook his head. Colin's cheeks were flushed, red blotches in his neck, he looked desperate. "Are you sure I can't convince you to come with me. He can even come and watch?" He asked, chuckling, fingertips sliding down over Josh's throat. "I'm very sure", Josh answered, eyes locked in somesort of a stare-down with Brendon.

"Alright then", Colin nodded, clearly feeling out of place in whatever was going on now between the two. "It was nice meeting you, Josh", he spoke as he winked to Josh before walking off.

And then Josh and Brendon just stared at each other for a while, Josh's brain trying to comprehend what just happend and trying to come up with any type of emotion to feel right now. Did he feel good? Was he glad this happend? Proud he did it? He was insecure. What if Brendon hated it? What if he did something wrong. Did he cross a line? Did he feel guilty? Gross? Did he cheat on Brendon? Was Brendon going to be mad? What if he didnt want Josh anymore now. After this.
His brain wouldnt stop, he had no clue on how to feel, but the longer it took for Brendon to move, to come to him, to talk to him, to do anything, the more everything seemed to crumble and the more sure he got that he just had made a huge mistake.

He nervously played with his fingers, being reminded of how much he was intimidated with Brendon's appearance. Even more now the latter had started walking towards him. He gasped when Brendon grabbed his wrist, and gently but determinedly dragged him towards the exit. Josh's heart nearly dropped, this had been a mistake, he was too easy, too willing, too greedy, he-. His trail of thoughts was interrupted by Brendon's hand fiercely around his throat. They were outside by now, Josh's back pressed against the wall and he whimpered softly, whispering sorry's.

"You have no idea, do you?"
"What?" Josh nearly stuttered.
"You think i'm angry."
"Are you?"
"No." Brendon's lips brushed over Josh's, thats how close he was and Josh thought of Colin for one split second and it confirmed how he never wanted anyone but Brendon, Brendon, Brendon.
"What are you feeling now?" The older asked, smirking at the the small whine coming from Josh as he pulled back a bit and the distance between them was a few inches now.
"I want you", Josh whimpered. "Only you."
"Exactly."
He didnt say more before releasing Josh out of his grip, dragging him along towards the cabs. They got in one, not talking and Josh's mind slowly started to piece the puzzle together, at least partly. Was this why Brendon was okay with this, even wanted and initiated it?

His mind rambled until they got home, Josh fumbling with the keys to unlock the door, brendon's hands shamelessly squeezing his ass. "It's pure torture watching you with someone else. Especially fucking, we might get to that once, but also this. Its agonizing, every fiber in my body wants to protest, but its so hot at the same time." Brendon had pushed him into the bedroom by now, pulling Josh's shirt over his head. "It's hard to see someone else being able to give you any type of pleasure like that", Brendon continued, gently pushing Josh up their bed. "It makes you realize you can't take it for granted. You have to work for it. Or else there will be tons of people who would take your spot. Makes me realize, I have to show you, how you are mine, and all and only mine."

Josh was sure if Brendon kept talking like this he could just come within the next few minutes and he palmed himself, pushing down and groaning softly. "There's just one thing different", Brendon said as he straddled Josh's legs and sat down, pulling his own shirt over his head now. "I never felt it this bad." He seemed to be thinking about it. "Hm. Maybe because it was the first time. I don't know. Interesting", he chuckled.

"Did you think of him when you kissed him?" Brendon breathed into Josh's ear, his clothed crotch grinding down steadily onto Josh's.
"N-no."
"What did you think of then?"
"You", Josh whimpered when Brendon slid his hand between their bodies and gripped Josh's length over his tight jeans. "I - ohh - saw you." Josh's breathing was irregular, heavy, hitching whenever Brendon changed his movements. "I know. You wanted to make me jealous, didn't you?" Josh nodded, swallowing thickly as Brendon took of his pants, Josh's following.

"Well, it worked", Brendon chuckled before he kissed Josh's stomach, then getting rid of both of their underwear. "It worked better then I would like to admit", he grinned while his hands grabbed onto Josh's sides. Instead of pride, Josh felt guilty and he wanted to make it up to Brendon, but as soon as he said the word "sorry", Brendon stopped him. "Don't be sorry", the older hummed, before pressing his lips to Josh's shortly.

But is wasn't enough for Josh, he was confused, overwhelmed, needed confirmation, wrapping his arms around Brendon's neck, pulling him down again. He buried his face in the crook of Brendon's neck, mumbling a soft "I love you." Brendon made Josh unwrap his arms, then cupping Josh's face in both of his hands. "I know. Okay? I know. And I love you."

With that Brendon sat back, tapping Josh's hips as a hint to lift them up. He pushed a pillow underneath, smirking as he pushed Josh's legs up. Josh just closed his eyes, breaths hitching when he felt Brendon's lips against his thighs. Brendon knew how to work him up perfectly, building up to a point where he would just fall apart. And he did exactly that when he felt Brendon's tongue prod against his hole. His toes curled and he gripped for the sheets as Brendon ate him out, biting his lip to keep reasonably quiet.

Brendon's words had got him so far, that Josh came completely untouched. He panted when Brendon pulled back and let his legs drop down, making grabby hands towards the older. Brendon smiled, laying down on top of his sticky body, but none of them cared. "Should I-." Josh started but Brendon shook his head as he kissed Josh's sweaty chest. "I'm all good." He smiled. Josh let out a couple of deep breaths to get back to normal breathing. "Are you sure, because I-."
"I'm sure. I'm good. Happy birthday baby."