Song Above: Take it All - Kiana

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The small droplets of water hit my face, making it even more difficult to see in the dark lighting of the street. The mud from the lawn made my shoes slippery and I had to catch myself on a lamp post before I fell flat on my face.

When I had reached Brody halfway down the road I was completely soaked and covered in mud. I wrapped my arms around my self in order to keep warm and yelled his name.

At first, I thought maybe he hadn't heard me, so I yelled louder to only discover he was ignoring me. I let out a sigh.

I ran as fast I could so I could catch up with him. I reached out and grabbed his shoulder to turn him around and my heart sank at the expression on his face.

I couldn't work out whether he was crying or if it was the rain, but he looked deflated and not the Brody I knew.

I desperately wanted to reach out and hold him. To let him know that it would be okay, but I knew my words meant nothing.

I was still in shock. I couldn't believe Rose had been sleeping with Craig behind our backs. I can't believe she had been doing it behind my back. I thought we were friends.

But then I remembered, I had done the same thing except it was with her boyfriend and I was no better than her.

"Brody, I'm so sorry," I guess sorry was all I could say right now.

"Why are you sorry?" He laughed but with no humour, "You knew all this time." He spat accusations scorched in his words.

I stumbled backwards, "I knew? No, I had no idea,"

He shook his head, "Don't lie to me."

"Brody, I promise I had no idea that this was happening,"

His eyes flickered around my face, searching for a trace of a lie. When he was satisfied there wasn't he let out the breath he had been holding and rubbed at his temple.

"He's my friend, she's my girlfriend, not surprised they're fucking, to be honest, everyone seems to get around in this town,"

"Not everyone," I corrected him.

"You have," He said it was if it's a fact and I had to hold my tongue. He was hurting right now, he didn't mean it, "You've been with me and Ryan, who else is under your bed Ivy?"

"No one else."

"Really?" He didn't believe me, "For all, I know you could have been with Craig too."

"I know you are upset, but you don't need to take it out on me Brody, of course, I haven't been with Craig," I tried to reason with him but it was as if I was speaking a language he didn't understand.

"Everyone, I give a shit about leaves Ivy, can't you see that?"

"That's not true,"

He scoffed, "Oh really? Then who hasn't left me then? Because I'd love to meet them,

"I'm here, I haven't left,"

"But you did, you went with Ryan! Didn't you? You went with my brother, my fucking brother, and you never thought twice about how I'd feel,"' he exploded.

Words left me. I stared into those whisky coloured eyes burning with anger and my heart fell silent.

"You went with Rose?" I barely whispered.

"I know I did," He ran his hands though his hair pulling at the strands, "And I shouldn't have. I was an idiot,"

"But you did Brody," I pressed my lips together and wrapped my arms around my torso suddenly feeling exposed, "You went with Rose. Ryan liked me and I liked him so we got together,"

"Can't you see how royally fucked this all is?" He shook his head as if to shake off the memory and let out a deep breath, "This shouldn't have happened. None of this should of happened,"

I gasped when Brody moved forward so he was inches away from my face. I could smell the sweet scent of muffins from earlier on his breath and I tried to avoid his intense stare by looking at my shoes.

"Please look at me," His voice was soft, gentle. I was so surprised by the change in tone that I looked up.

His eyes slowly moved from my eyes to my cheeks to my nose and then lingered on my mouth, "I'm sorry that it has become this,"

I didn't get time to ask him what he meant before he spoke, his words rushed and full of a desperate frustration.

"I have tried for so long to pretend that you weren't constantly on my mind, that I didn't want you so badly, but I've wanted you for so fucking long Ivy," He sucked in a shaky breath and inched his hand out as if he were going to stroke my cheek but thought better of it and placed his hands at his sides, "To me we weren't just sleeping together, to me it was more. I'd always wanted more with you, ever since I could remember, I just never knew how to tell you since you told me you'd told me countless times that you never cared about me,"

Oh shit I did say that.

My breath hitched in my throat and my heart pumped so rapidly in my chest I thought it was going to pierce through. I had yearned to hear him say those words for so long, dreamt that he would say it to me, but in this setting and after what had just happened it didn't feel like the right moment. It wasn't rational.

"You never thought about how hard it is to see you with him. I went with Rose because I thought it was the right thing to do because she actually cared about me and I thought I could care about her but you went with Ryan for the wrong reasons,"

I couldn't tell him that it was hard for me to see him with Rose, how it broke my heart. I wished I could tell him. I could feel it sitting on the tip of my tongue waiting for the signal to speak. I may have begun a relationship with Ryan at first to get over Brody, but I do genuinely care for him. He had no right to say that and he had no idea how hard it was for me.

"No, nothing to say?" He roared and I couldn't communicate with my brain to form a sentence. He pointed a shaky finger in my direction, "You have no idea, no idea about anything, I wished you understood but you don't, and I don't think you ever will," His eyes softened desperately searching mine, waiting for me to say something, anything.

I watched as the realisation dawned on him, that I wasn't going to tell him the truth and then came the disappointment and the sorrow.

"You took so much of my mind Ivy, but you always took more than you gave,"

At that moment our relationship shattered into glassy pieces. Nothing would be the same.

He stood there, for a few seconds, staring off into the street behind me, his body rooted to the spot. The cold breeze moved his hair away from his face and I could see the slight quiver on his lip. What felt like an eternity he broke his gaze, his eyes settling on me with cold eyes. He refused to look away, even when his lips trembled and his shoulders heaved with a whirlwind of emotion.

"Goodbye Ivy,"

And then he was gone. His body only a silhouette in the dark night.

The tears burst like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I felt my myself tremble as I wrapped my arms tighter around my body. I could hear my own sounds which were this distressed childlike rawness that came from my chest.

The walls that had held me up for so long collapsed. I wanted to run after him, to tell him I'd felt the same and it had always been him but I can't-can't do it. I'd kept myself guarded for so long, protecting myself and not trusting anyone with my vulnerability but when he stood there, his heart in his hands ready to give it to me, even when it was broken and shattered I threw it to the ground with my silence.

I'd seen movies, where the guy confessed his love for the girl in the rain and I never thought it would be like this or hurt this bad.

I flinched at the fabric that was draped over my body. I looked over my shoulder to see Ryan stood there holding onto the jacket he'd given me. His expression was blank and unreadable. I didn't know how much he had heard or whether he had heard at all, I couldn't tell.

I couldn't break two hearts in one night.