I swear whenever someone is crying, I'll be like I wanna hugs this person so bad, but even though I may don't know who person is, I still cared for people, If someone cry then I'll cry too, I'm too sensitive and I can easily cry whenever something make me feel like emotional, whenever someone smiled, I always smiled straight up, because I really love seeing people smiled, I just wanna hugs my dog but my dog died from couple years ago, some of my family may saying "get over it, and move on" I can't move on easily, that dog always be my side, he always such a sweetheart, whenever someone send me or send the group of photos which that dogs remind me of him and I always have plushie of dog so I can remember him, I never forgot about him, since when I grew older, losing someone that is not easy to move on, it hard for me to move on.. But I would never forget my dog, because he was part of our family, since he gone.. I always wanna be good person, not bad person, I have made a mistakes but it's not easy to be brave enough, my dad told me that I have another siblings that he never told me before, he explains about one of my sister, who helped a homeless man (I think..?) I really do wanna help people but I usually don't save up money, my dad were telling me to do the right things to help people and care myself too, I started to believing in God, he telling me that he did cared, I have guardian angel who protected me from evil spirits, I always try to way to contact God/Lord but it's hard for me because I am deaf and I do speak but it's only sometimes come up stuttering, because I wanted him to forgive me for my sins, because my soul doesn't like the sins moving out the away.. My ears is like 50% can hear, my parents took me to speech lessons, I have Christians family, but it's just so hard to pray for God, I started to stop using signs language, because I have deaf school and I don't use them in home but only school, I have someone who also deaf and hearing, she helped me to do Bible book, which they have sign language so I can understand, but I haven't able to contact her because of corona virus going on, since I was shook but I don't know how I'm able to be forgiveness by God/Lord.

I'm just going to end it here.. Since it's hard for me to read it.