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ThanQ so much dearies for your wonderful support, love and encouragement. You guys can never guess how much this means to me. I'm so glad that I got you all as my readers. Thank you again for accepting me as a writer.

As I promised, here is my another story. I'm posting the first part. Let me know how it is. Mind it, this is story will have slow updates along with my other ongoing story SH 3. Hope you people will like it.

Spare me with typo and grammatical errors.

Please let me know if you find anything odd.

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Part 1:

Tears rolled from Khushi's closed eyes. A sob escaped. she felt like she is going to lose her life. She felt breathlessness. She wants to express her feelings... she wants to say so many things... she wants to ask so many questions... she wants to talk so much. But the person she wants to express is not listening to her.

"Why did you do this Arnavji? I begged you to not to leave me and go that day. But why did you? Why couldn't you just trust me for once and stay? If you would have trusted me and stayed for me, then we would have been together, today. Why did you leave me Arnavji?" She hugged Arnav's shirt to her heart and cried.

She was disturbed with the knock on the door. She quickly wiped her tears and opened the door.

"Jijaji" she felt relieved

"Did you eat anything, Khushi?" Asked Akash. But looking at her averting eyes he understood. Just then Payel came there with a plate full of food.

"Jiji... no" protested Khushi.

"How many days will you remain starving? This is not a good thing, Khushi. You have responsibilities to fulfil. Being the ASR wife, you need to look after so many things. I don't think you want Bhai's name to get spoil, do you? You need to be strong Khushi. Whatever happened..." Akash gulped hard to control his pain "... shouldn't have happened. And we can't change that also"

A sob left from Payal and Khushi closed her mouth with hands to control her cries.

Akash hugged her sideways to console her, controlling his own pain. He made her sit on the bed

"Shh... please Khushi. Don't cry bacha. I know and I can understand how you are feeling. I too miss Bhai. But that doesn't mean you should stop living your life. Do you think Bhai will appreciate that? He never wanted his family to suffer that too because of him? No... he never wanted that. He always appreciated us when we fulfilled our responsibility. And being hungry, he always hated that. He used to say "I know the pain of being hungry. I never want that to anyone, Akash" please Khushi, if not for yourself, for Bhai please eat something." requested Akash.

Khushi didn't say anything just sat there looking at her hand fiddling with her dupatta. Tears are flowing continuously. Akash signalled Payel to feed her. Payal nodded her head and bring the roti morsel near Khushi's mouth

"Come on Khushi, have this"

"Jiji, please..." requested Khushi

"No Khushi. I will not leave you with an empty stomach. You should take food Khushi. Come have this"

"I can't Jiji. I can't bear this pain. It is hurting here Jiji" she said patting, left side of her chest "This is so difficult for me. It's getting more painful for me to live without him... when I lost my parents I survived because of you guys. But this time I can't, Jiji, I can't" she cried

"Oh! Don't worry. You will definitely live, that too happily. As you found another set of family, you will find another man to fulfil your needs and desires. I don't think that will be tough for you. You don't need to mourn on my grandson. We can do that. You just please leave us for good" said the woman with a venomous tone

"Dadi Ji, please" requested Akash. He felt hurt, pain and sad looking at the hurtful and shocked face of Khushi.

"I don't know what sin we did that my grandson got married to you. First, you killed your parents... now my grandson. How many people you will kill?" shouted the lady

"SUBHADRA. stop whatever you are saying. Think before you utter a word" said Nani in a warning tone. Which made Subhadra, who is Arnav's and Anjali's Dadi, to walk out of the room in anger.

Nani came to Khushi and hugged her tight. "Don't think about what others say. You are our Khushi, our family. No one can separate us. Please bitiya... eat something otherwise Chote will feel bad. Whatever happened was not in our hands bitiya. We should move on. Nothing will stop for anyone. Look at me, am I not living my life despite losing people in my life? My life didn't stop anywhere! I'm fulfilling my duties and responsibilities by taking care of my family. I know it's so difficult to live without our loved ones. But we should forget everything. God has given us forgetfulness as a blessing. You will get used to this life too. In all these, you will come out as a strong girl. You will prove to those people who insulted, tortured and blamed you. You will show them that you are fulfilling yours and Chote's responsibilities successfully and wonderfully. We all are with you. Likewise, please be with us. I can't take if anything happens to anyone. I'm not in the age to take shock after shock. Please bitiya... be safe for us. Please..." Nani's voice shivered with the cries.

Khushi, Payal and Akash hugged the old lady and cried their heart out, mourning their loss. Missing the presence and warmth of the most important person of their lives - ASR

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"Everyone became blind. That girl is doing dramas and acting and everyone is blindly believing her. I can see through her facade. Remember Anjali, if you don't hurry then your brother's hard-earned possession will go to that girl. And once she gets everything in her hands, she will through you all and will live these luxuries. As Chote's wife, everything goes to her. You should think about it. Before she claims, you better take control. Your husband is a lawyer, you better use his capability."

"Dadi?!"

"Look Anjali, all I want is your happiness. You are the only one whom I have as a family. I can't see you on the roads, begging for daily food. I don't have hopes about Devyani and her son's family. Let them do what they want. I already lost my son because of that family's girl. I can't lose you" said Dadi, side hugging Anjali.

"Yes, Anjali. I think Dadiji is saying right. I don't want sala sahib hard work to go in vain. Please think about that. Now, I will go. I have some work. I will come after some time" said Shyam

"But it's already night? Where are you going at this time? Please don't go!" said Anjali fearing about his safety. After whatever happened in their home, Anjali became more possessive, worried, scared and more emotionally dependent on her husband.

"Rani Sahiba, I can't sit throughout the day at home, can I? I have work to complete. Being the lawyer, I have the responsibility to get justice to the people who deserve it. I can't neglect their need because of my sorrows, can I? I need to make calls to instruct my assistant, about what to do. I will be back. You please don't take tension. Take care" saying that Shyam left from there, planning to get what he lusts over - ASR's properties, house, Company and everything. And also, if possible, his wife... Khushi. With a lustful look on his face and cunning smile, Shyam left the home.

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After making sure that Khushi had her dinner, both Akash and Payal left from there feeling helpless and sad, with the situation. They closed the door behind and went to their room, praying God, to give them the strength, to face life. They knew they would face life, without the most caring and supporting person behind them. But the fear and worry of not having that person, is making their heartbeats to go on to high speed. They sighed deeply, calling the day off, they drifted into a disturbed sleep.

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Hearing the sound of the closing door, Khushi opened her eyes. She sat on the bed, looking at the poolside, where they had so many wonderful and worst moments. How much she tries to forget the happenings, she couldn't. Tears started to flow down on her cheeks again.

"Stop crying..." she said to herself helplessly and cried her heart out. "Arnavji," she called his name, longingly. She unlocked her mobile to see the smiling face of her 'Arnavji' from the Holi festival day. She sat there, looking at his face, she increased the volume of her phone to hear the song which is playing in the background.

She was never music lover like her Arnav Ji. She never knew that a song could tell our feelings so accurately. She never guessed, or maybe she never concentrated on that part. But hearing to this song, she felt as if her heart is shouting out loud her feelings and pain. She closed her eyes feeling the pain song which is resembling hers. She remembered the face of her husband, when he was enjoying the music.

"I miss you, Arnavji," she slowly, with a painful heart, drifted into disturbed sleep listening to the song. All the crying from morning helped her in getting some sleep.

Tum bin... kya hai... jeena,
Kya hai Jeena...
Tum bin... kya hai jeena...
Tum bin jiya jaye kaise
Kaise jiya jaaye tum bin
Sadiyon se lambi hain raatein
Sadiyon se lambe hue din
Aa jao laut kar tum
Ye Dil Keh Raha hai...

without you, how does it matter whether I live or not,
what is life without you...
how to live without you,
how do I live without you...
the nights are long like centuries,
and days are long like centuries too.
come back, this heart says...

Phir shaam-e-tanhai jagi
Phir yaad tum aa rahe ho
Phir jaan nikalne lagi hai
Phir mujhko tadpaa rahe ho
Phir mujhko tadpaa rahe ho
Is dil mein yaadon ke mele hain
Tum bin bahut hum akele hain
Aa jao laut kar tum
Ye Dil Keh Raha hai...

the night of loneliness is here again,
today once again I remember you,
once again I'm dying,
once again, you're tormenting me...
in this heart, there are your memories,
without you, I am very lonely,
come back, this heart says...

Kya kya na socha tha maine
Kya kya na sapne sajaye
Kya kya na chaha tha dil ne
Kya kya na armaan jagaaye
Kya kya na armaan jagaaye
Is dil se toofaan guzarte hai
Tum bin to jeete na marte hai
Aa jao lauT kar tum
Ye Dil Keh Raha hai...

what all had I not thought of,
and what dreams I had not dreamt,
what was there this heart had not wished for,
what all desires weren't there?
storms pass this heart,
without you, I neither live nor die,
come back, this heart says...

Tum bin jiya jaye kaise
Kaise jiya jaaye tum bin
Sadiyon se lambi hain raatein
Sadiyon se lambe hue din
Aa jao laut kar tum
Ye Dil Keh Raha hai...

( Song from the movie Tum Bin. I recently heard this song and when I heard for the first time... I loved it instantly. Being Mrs Chitra fan... I just couldn't stop thinking about this. And the result is my another story Tum Bin

)

...to be continued

So how is it? Should I continue? Or stop? Let me know.

Thanks a ton.

..Sri.. ❤️