Y/n

The sound of beeping surrounded me, waking me up from the slumber I was in.

As I opened my eyes I came face to face with a white room and bright lights.

Looking around, I saw everyone staring at me with cornered eyes and worried faces.

"Y/n, you're awake!" Jimin cried, throwing himself at me.

"What happened? Where am I?" I ask, shielding my eyes from the bright lights around me.

"You're in the hospital, y/n. Um, You're..." Yoongi trailed off, averting his eyes from mine.

"Pregnant, Ms. L/n. You're pregnant." I hear and look over to see a doctor walking into the room.

"Pregnant? How is that possible. I haven't done anything recently...I-I drank the other night! Oh god, is the baby..." I trial off, assuming the worst. 

"We did find traces of alcohol in your system but luckily, it hasn't caused any problems to the baby. You weren't aware you were pregnant?" The doctor asked, clicking his pen.

"I wasn't. Like I said, I didn't..." But I trailed off as a thought came to my mind.

"How far along am I?" I ask, pulling my bottom lip in. "Nearly two months. I'm surprised you weren't aware." The doctor says and my stomach turns.

That night...The night with Jungkook that I had been trying to forget this whole time.

"Where is Jungkook? Why isn't he here?"I ask, looking around and realizing that he was no where to be seen.

The guys fell silent as Yoongi's eyes flashed in sadness.

When Namjoon spoke, my heart dropped.

"He left."

...

Jk'

I left.

I had to get out of there and get air. I couldn't believe what the doctors had said.

Y/n was pregnant, nearly two month pregnant.

That meant it happened the night I practically forced y/n to have sex. The night I fucked up completely.

That meant this child would only remind y/n of that horrible time and of the horrible things I did.

I didn't want to believe it. Not only that but I couldn't be a father...Not in this life, not with who I am.

I'm not ready to be a father, i'll never be ready.

I'll end up just like my own father and y/n will hate me. I can't handle that.

Suddenly, my phone rang, pulling me from my thoughts.

As I pulled the phone out I noticed a call from y/n. My heart ached in my chest as I stared at the name on my phone.

As badly as I wanted to answer, I couldn't bring myself to. I couldn't face this. I was a coward...

When the phone stopped ringing I felt a single tear fall down my cheek.

I am a horrible man. I'm a monster, just like my father.

...

Yoongi~

"Why isn't Jungkookie coming?" Jimin whispered from beside me, his voice worried and sad.

I looked over at y/n who was staring out into space, tears stained on her face.

With Jungkook's behavior right now I could only imagine how hurt y/n was feeling.

"Visiting hours are over. You can comeback and visit tomorrow at 8am." A nurse says, poking her head into the room.

Everyone looked over and stood, glaring over at y/n. "We'll be back tomorrow, I promise." Jin says.

Y/n doesn't say anything as she continues to stare off in space. I frown as I motion the guys out.

Once everyone is in the hallway I walk over to y/n and lean down at her side.

"It's going to be okay, y/n. No matter what happens, i'll stay by your side." I say.

Y/n continues to stare off into space as one single tear falls down her cheek.

"Sir, you have to leave." The lady says, appearing back in the doorway.

I nod and go to walk away, only to have y/n reach out and grab my wrist. "Please, don't go." She says, turning her face to me.

Her eyes filled with tears, clouding the hurt in her eyes.

I looked over at the nurse who pressed her lips together and nodded before heading out.

"I'm right here, okay? I'm not going anywhere." I say and y/n sits up, throwing her arms around me and burying her face into my stomach.

All I could do was stand there as she cried, tears of pain and heartache.

...

Jk"

By the time I had put my head on straight, it was going on 10:30 pm.

"Excuse me, sir. Visiting hours are over." The nurse said as I entered the hospital.

"My fiancée is here. She's pregnant." I say. The nurse looks at me before nodding, letting me through.

I made my way to y/n's hospital room, taking a deep breath as I headed inside.

As soon as I entered the room, I was faced with a heart wrenching scene.

On the bed, was y/n. She was asleep but her face was tear stained and distressed.

Beside her, was Yoongi. He was sitting in the chair beside her bed, his head leaned down against their connected hands. 

Pushing away the sadness and jealousy I felt, I made my way over to the opposite bedside and leaned against the window sill.

My eyes gazed over y/n's face and my heart ached in my chest.

Y/n, the love of my life, the woman I'm going to marry, laying here heart broken because i'm a horrible person.

I'm too afraid of ending up like my father so I ran away from my problems.

I'm a horrible person. 

As I watched y/n, I saw her shift, her face scrunching up. Suddenly, her eyes fluttered open.

"Jungkook?" She asked, her voice weak and shaky.

"Yeah, I'm here." I say, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Y/n looked over to see Yoongi asleep at her side. She then looked down at her stomach and frowned.

"You don't want us, do you?" She asked, her voice weak.

My heart broke instantly at her words.

"Don't say that, please. You know I would never be able to leave you, especially our child." I say, sitting down on the bed and taking her free hand in mine.

"Then why did you leave?" Y/n asked, hurt in her eyes as she stared at me.

I sighed as I looked down at her hand. "I'm afraid, y/n..." I say, my voice low and barely audible.

"I'm scared too, Jungkook. Do you think you're the only one who's terrified. I thought I was going to lose you, that you would leave me, leave us." Y/n says and my heart sinks.

"I really thought you hated me because of this." Y/n says, tears beginning to fall from her eyes.

"I could never hate you, y/n. I'm just afraid. I don't want to be my father. I don't want to put my family in danger." I say, my chest heating at the thought.

Y/n wiped at her tears as she grabbed my hand.

"You're not your father, Jungkook. You'll never be him. I know you're scared but I know you'll be a great father." Y/n says.

"What if I'm not? What if I can't protect both of you? Then what? I could never forgive myself if something happened." I say, tears burning my eyes.

Y/n's lip quivered as she frowned. "I know its scary but theres no doubt in my mind that we can't do this. I know it'll be hard but I want this, Jungkook. If you don't, then I understand." Y/n says and continues with.

"I won't hate you if you don't want us. I understand." She says, her eyes filled with tears as she spoke.

I pulled y/n into my arms, holding her to me closely, pulling her hand away from Yoongi's grasp.

"Don't you dare say that to me, y/n. I would never not want you two, you understand? This is my responsibility and I won't run from it. This is our child, y/n. I wouldn't even dream of leaving." I say.

Y/n wraps her arms around me tightly as she cries into my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry I disappeared suddenly. I was just so scared. I promise you, I will do whatever it takes to give you and our child the best life possible. That I swear."

All y/n could do was cling to me and cry, bringing me to tears too.

No matter how afraid I was, I needed to man up and take responsibility. I did this and I will do what I have to do to be the father my child needs and the husband y/n deserves.

I won't be like my father.

I'll never be like my father. 

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