I don't even see the point in keeping this hidden anymore to be completely honest, so imma just say it, and also Trigger Warning for anyone who might be triggered whilst reading this

So, yesterday in my live, I said something about what's going on with me mentally. For the past few weeks, my mental state has been declining. The day before yesterday, it hit a low that I really wish it would never reach. I've had a lot of suicidal thoughts over the past several years, but the day before yesterday is when I came to the realisation that I had a very easy (but painful) way to....end myself that was within my reach and I was extremely close to attempting, and to be honest, I'm scared; terrified even. I wanna say something, anything, to my dad and his gf to maybe explain what's going on inside my head, and how I think and feel, but I also know that there's a high chance of them not really giving a crap.

No I'm not just saying this for attention, I'm saying this because I'd rather not hide it from the people I consider to be my family; my followers. I also know that you guys care and worry about me, and I know y'all are always there if I need someone to talk to, but it's hard for me to talk to anyone about this sort of stuff because I've internalised it for years and it's become a habit to keep it all to myself.

But, imma just say this: if any of you need someone to go to, I'm right here, and I will do my utmost best to help 😊