"Are you okay?" Jessica pulls away and looks at Danny.

"Yeah.. Yeah, I'm fine. You're not pregnant, it's great." He forces a smile and slides his hands down her sides.

"Daniel.."

"No Jess, I'm fine."

"You really wanted a baby, didn't you?"

He looks into her eyes and nods.

"Yeah. I did."

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine.. Jess?"

"Yeah?"

"Nevermind."

"No, what is it?"

"Would you even want a baby? Not now, I know.. But the twins are in college and the boys will be out of the house in two years.. Then it's just you me and Grayson.. I think he'd love a little brother or sister."

"Danny, no.  I'm exhausted with the ones I have now.  Grayson alone keeps me busy."

"But I'm here to help you."

"Danny.."

"It's just crazy.. I was so sure that you were pregnant."

"I know.
You seemed so happy.."

"I was!  We have kids of our own, I just think it would be so amazing to have one together."

"I'm sorry.."

Danny was upset and her response, but he wasn't going to keep going on about it.

Danny looked down when he felt someone holding onto his leg.

"Hey buddy!" He smiles.

"Danny!" Grayson gets excited and lifts his arms up to him.

Danny lifts him up and Grayson lays on him.

"Lub you.. I lub you.."

"Awe!  I love you too, Gray."

Jessica watches them with a smile on her face.

They hear a knock on the door, so they walk back into the bedroom.

"Come in!" Jessica says.

"Hey.." Michael walks in awkwardly.

"We're coming, I'm sorry, baby!"

"It's okay."

"Is everything okay, Mike?" Danny asks.

"Yeah uh.. I was just wondering..."

"What?" Jessica asks concerned.

"Um.."

"Mikey, what is it?" Danny chuckles.

"Is mom pregnant?"

"No, why would you ask that?!" Jessica asks.

"I heard you and Danny talking."

"Oh!  No honey, I'm not."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes.  I took a test and it was negative."

"Oh!  Well okay, I was just wondering."

Jessica giggles and Grayson yells out, "MIKEY!"

Michael chuckles and takes him from Danny.

"Come here, you little goofball!"

***

The next morning.

Jessica came downstairs and heard Danny with Grayson.

She wanted to listen to what they were doing so she hid behind the corner.

"Are you hungry, Gray?"

"Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!"

"Here's some eggs, you like eggs don't you, buddy?"

"Yeah!  Eggs!" Grayson lifts his hands in the air.

"Yeah!" Danny laughs.

"Catch!  Catch!"

"What?  No Grayson, we're not running around right now, it's time to eat."

"We play!" He says running away as fast as he can.

"Man you are fast! No wonder your mama calls you happy feet! How about we play after breakfast?"

"Okay!  We dance!" He stops running and smiles at him.

"Well I can never refuse a dance party!"

Grayson laughs and starts mimicking Grayson's dance moves.

Jessica giggles quietly as they dance.

"Okay now it's really time to eat." Danny picks him up and takes him to the kitchen.

"I lub my Danny!" He kisses Danny's cheek.

"I love my Grayson!"

"Yay!"

"Haha, yeah!  I'm glad you're in my life Gray.. I always wanted another child, and.. Here you are!" He smiles.

"Me!" Grayson points to himself.

"Yeah you!" Danny pokes his nose.

Jessica walks out with tears in her eyes.

"I love you guys!"

"Hey!  Where did you come from?" Danny smiles.

"I was hiding so I could hear what you two were up to."

"Oh you sneaking little girl!"

She giggles and wraps her arms around him.

"I love you."

"I love you too, baby."

"I heard you telling Grayson that you've always wanted another child, and now you have him.. That's really sweet. You're such a great man, Daniel."

He smiles softly and looks at Grayson who was eating his eggs with his hands.

"I really do love him like my own."

Jessica rubs his back and kisses the top of his head.

Danny turns to her and says, "Jess, I know you're not, but imagine if you were pregnant.. I wonder what that baby would have looked like."

"Danny-"

"Would it have been a boy or a girl?  Would it be blonde or brunette?  Would they have been sassy?  Would they have played sports?  Or maybe a dancer, or singer, or artist... Jessica, I think we would make an awesome baby."

"Oh Danny." Jessica sighs.

"I know, I'm sorry...

Actually I'm not!"

"What?"

"Jessica, I want to have a baby with you.  I love you and I want us to create a little life together."

"Daniel, I said no and that's it!  My body has gone through pregnancy three times, and one of those was twins.  I'm done.  Why can't we drop this?"

"Because I just don't get it."

"You're always like this Danny!  You never understand my feelings, then you hear where I'm coming from you apologize later, but in the meantime you're piss me off!"

"Jess, I'm just taking!"

"Well Danny, you need to just except the fact that we are not having a baby."

Danny looks down and doesn't say anything.

Jessica sighs and walks off.

Two days later.

Danny, Jessica and Grayson were at the grocery store.

"Jessie, are you okay?" Danny asks because Jessica was hovered over the basket.

"No.. I don't feel good."

"What's wrong?" He places his hand on her back.

"My stomach.. I think I'm gonna be sick."

"Really?  There's a bathroom over here, let's go."

Danny walks her to the restroom and Jessica runs in.

"Mama?" Grayson points with a puzzled look on his face.

"Mommy's okay, bud."

"Mama!" His eyes water.

"Her tummy just feels a little funny, it's okay!" Danny smiles, trying to get him to be happy.

Grayson rubs his eyes and pouts.

"No, don't be upset!  It's okay."

"My mama.."

"She'll be right back."

When Jessica walks out, Grayson calls her name.

"He was worried about you."

"Awe baby, mommy's okay." She smiles softly and cups his face, then gives him a kiss.

"I was worried too, where did that come from?"

"I have no idea.." She pouts.

"You wanna just head home?"

"Can we?"

"Yeah, you need to rest!  I can come back later."

"Thank you."

"No problem!"

***

They walk in and Sam says, "Woah, mom looks like death!"

"Thanks son."

"Sorry... Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine.."

Jessica goes upstairs and a sharp pain hits her.

"Ah!" She grabs her side.

"Jess, I feel so bad that you're sick."

"I just need to sleep it off." She says slowly getting into bed.

"Just rest, rest, rest!  I've got everything, so don't you worry your pretty little head!" He kisses her temple.

"Thank you, baby."

Danny walks out and closes the door.

"What's wrong with mom?" James asks.

"She got sick at the store.  I think it's a stomach bug.  Poor thing, hopefully it doesn't last too long."

That night.

Jessica woke up with horrible cramps.

She rolls over in pain and clenches her stomach.

Danny wakes up touches her arm.

"Jess! Hey, what's wrong?"

"My stomach hurts!" She whines.

"Awe I'm sorry.."

Jessica pulls the covers off and gasps.

"Fuck! I started. Babe, I'm so sorry." Jessica says referring to the blood stained sheets.

"No, don't worry about that. Go to the restroom and I'll change the sheets."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop apologizing, it's okay."

***

Jessica comes out and Danny changes the sheets.

"Here, I have a heating pad and some water for you."

"Thank you so much, baby."

Jessica gets comfortable and says, "I'm sorry about the other day.."

"What are you talking about?"

"About you wanting a baby.. I'm sorry I was angry with you, and that I've been kinda quiet with you the past couple of days. You're so sweet to me and wanting to take care of me.. I don't deserve you, Daniel."

"No." He nods.

"You don't say that, we both deserve each other. I love you and if you don't want a baby, then that's okay.. I'm fine with the boys we have."

Jessica wipes her eyes and Danny holds her.

"Don't you ever say that again, okay?" He looks down to her and she nods.

"Heh, I love you kid!" He kisses her head and rubs her arm.

"I love you too."

***

The next day Jessica was supposed to work but she was still not feeling well, so she stayed home. The boys were packing to go back to school, and Danny was busy with Grayson. Jessica felt bad that she wasn't able to help anyone, but Danny and the boys wanted her to rest.

"Boys, don't forget to pack your-"

"Jessica, what are you doing down here?"

"Danny, I don't want to just be up in my room all day. My babies are leaving soon and I want to spend some time with them. Just stay away so you all don't get this bug I have."

"You still feel nauseated?" James asks.

Jessica nods and pouts with her hand on her stomach.

***

Jessica was laid out on the couch and the pains in her stomach continued to get worse and worse.

It would come and go in waves and the pain became so bad that she would have to stop talking and take deep breaths.

"Jessica, you're in too much pain for this to just be period cramps, I'm taking you to the emergency room."

"No Danny, I'm fine!"

"No, I'm taking you. I'm not gonna have something happen to you when this could have been taken care of. Boys, could you watch your brother?"

"Sure." James says with a scared look in his eyes.

"Is mom okay?" Michael asks.

"Yeah bud, she'll be okay."

"What if it's.. What if it's back?" He asks with worry in his eyes.

"Honey, it's not back.  I'll be fine." Jessica forces a smile.

Danny helps her out and into the car.

"Danny, I didn't even think of that."

"What?"

"That the cancer could be back."

"Jessica, don't think like that, you have to be positive.  Everything is going to be alright."

"This isn't a normal period, Daniel.. Something's wrong."

Danny pulls over and grabs her hand then says, "Look at me! You're going to be fine! I promise you everything will be okay."

"You promise?"

"I do. I promise." He says holding her hand to his chest.

When they get there they immediately take just back.

The doctor asks what's wrong and Jessica says, "I just started my period last night and I haven't gotten one since June, but it's not anything like my average one. I'm having the worst cramps, they're almost like labor pains."

"Could you be pregnant?"

"No." Jessica nods.

"I'm terrified because when I was five months pregnant with my son, I had gotten really sick like this and it ended up being a cancerous ovarian cyst. I'm so scared." She looks at the doctor with tears in her eyes.

Danny holds her and kisses her head.

Danny has never been so worried about someone in his life.

"Okay, I'm going to need an urine sample as quickly as possible."

Jessica nods and after that things started happening so fast.

Danny was trying his best to stay calm for her, but on the inside he was screaming.

The look in the doctors face scared him. He was serious and wanting to get things done so quickly. Danny was thankful that they were helping her, but he worried because things quickly became more serious.

Jessica took the urine test, then came out and held onto Danny.

"Danny, I've never been in this much pain before.. I feel like I'm in labor. They're as bad as labor pains, that's not good."

"They're gonna help you, baby.  You'll be okay." Danny says fighting his tears.

The doctor comes in and Danny helps Jessica back onto the bed.

"The results of your test came back, Ms. Shepard."

"What is it?" Jessica swallows.

The doctor sighs and says, "You're pregnant."

"What? No, but the test I took said negative."

"That must have just been a bad test. I'm going to do an ultrasound and see what's going on."

"Oh my gosh." Jessica looks at Danny with tears in her eyes as reaches for him.

"It's gonna be okay baby. Our baby will be fine." Danny looks into her eyes.

"I'm so sorry." She cries.

"Stop saying that, you did nothing wrong! Everything will be fine."

First the doctor listens for the baby's heartbeat.

Jessica held Danny's hand and prayed to hear the sound of her baby's heart.

She closed her eyes and waited for what seemed like forever.

She felt him take the doppler off her stomach without ever hearing the heartbeat.

"What's going on?" Danny asks.

"I can't find the heartbeat." The doctor says putting gel on her belly to start the ultrasound.

"Please, please be okay... I am so sorry for everything I said.." Jessica mumbles as she stares at the screen wanting to see a healthy little baby moving around.

The doctor looks at the screen, then looks at Danny and Jessica and says, "I'm so sorry."

Hearing those words make Jessica's heart ache.  She started to sob so Danny sat beside her and held her in his arms.

"It's okay baby.. It's okay." His voice became shaky.

"No it's not! Danny, this is my fault!"

"No it isn't!"

"I'm so sorry for your loss. Can I please just say, this is not your fault Ms. Shepard. These things happen and most of the time cannot be explained. You're young, and you're healthy, you can start trying again."

Jessica nods her head and continues to cry.

"I'll give you two some time."

"Danny I'm so sorry!"

"Stop saying that, this isn't your fault!"

"I killed our baby, Daniel!"

"No!  You did not kill anyone!  It just wasn't meant to be.  Please don't blame yourself."

"How can't I?  I was the one carrying the baby.. I'm the one that didn't want it."

"Jessica please.." Tears start rolling down Danny's face.

"I know how badly you wanted a baby.. I'm sorry."

"Jessica.." Danny looks into her eyes and tears start to pour down his face.

Jessica lays on his chest and he holds her tight.

***

James called Danny on their way back home to check on his mother.

"She's okay, we're coming home now."

"What happened?"

"Nothing, uh.. We're driving into the neighborhood now."

"Okay, see you in a sec."

"Bye."

"Why didn't you just tell him?  I killed our baby."

"Dammit Jessica, will you stop it?!"

Jessica gives him a look and Danny sighs.

"I told you to stop that.  It wasn't your fault."

Jessica ignores him and stares out the window.

When they get home Jessica goes straight to her room.

The boys try following her but Danny stops them.

"What's wrong?" Sam asks.

"Boys, sit down."

"Is she okay?" Zachary asks.

Danny sighs and says, "Boys.. Your mom.. She was pregnant but she.. We lost the baby."

"What?" Michael asks with a sadness in his eyes.

"Yeah.. The test she took the other day said negative, but they told her that it didn't read right."

"This is horrible.  How far along was she?" James asks.

"About seven weeks."

"Wow.."

"Yeah.."

"How is she?"

"She's still in pain, the medicine hasn't quite kicked in yet."

"But how is she doing?"

Danny bites his lip and nods his head.

His eyes fill with tears and he takes a deep breath in.

"She's... She's upset." Danny struggles to speak without crying.

"She thinks this was her fault.
It's not, there was nothing anyone could have done to stop this.  I just wish there was something I could do to make her realize it wasn't her fault."

Jessica's POV.

"Why did this happen?  I'm so sorry I said I didn't want this baby.  If I would have known I was actually pregnant, I would have been happy.. It's not like I wouldn't have.  Why did you have to take my baby away from me?!  Why?!

Oh God!" Jessica curls up in a ball on her bed and sobs.

"I want my baby!  Please!

I'm sorry.  I am so sorry I couldn't keep you safe.. Mommy loves you, baby."

Jessica cries hard and tries catching her breath, before she speaks in a loud and tearful whisperer.

"Sammy.. Please watch over my baby and keep him or her safe.. I don't want them to be lost.

It's a little bitty baby.. It doesn't know any better.. Please take care of it and love it for me, Sammy."