• ~ (Y/n)'s Perspective ~ •

When the next morning came around, all I felt was conflicted. Waking up hurt, getting out of bed hurt, getting ready hurt, and spilling hot coffee on my hand really hurt. Ignoring my clumsiness, everything else hurt for one reason and one reason only.

The reason: I wanted a relationship I'd never be ready for. I have so much to work on and I want something I shouldn't have the privilege to have. But when I close my eyes I see him and it hurts. I wanted to cry, I wanted to confide in June, but I had a job and I wouldn't let the children down because my emotions are shattering my heart.

However when I got to the school, everything seemed to remind me of him in some odd or indirect way. The more obvious being walking past the science classroom. Ratchet would never admit to the way he truly reacts to the subject besides saying that he just liked/enjoyed the profession. However, when I was with him in his berthroom and they began discussing the subject: I saw his optics light up so bright and the way he talked about it was like a child fawning over their new toy.

Then, of course, I saw the children. Another thing Ratchet would never admit was caring about them. He seemed to like Raf the most, though he did like Jack and Miko. I had soon found that despite Ratchet's false disgust toward the energetic girl, he cared for her like a mother hen. In fact, the other day, Miko got scared by a spider and Ratchet picked her up when he saw her crying. The more maternal side of myself couldn't help but adore his response to her fears. He helped her calm down wonderfully and really showed his sweet side.

'My goodness! I need to get a hold of myself!' I was practically crying by the time I arrived in my office. My eyes stinging and my throat drying out. The reason I was so upset was from the years of abuse from my relationships that had built up inside of me. I wanted to be in a relationship with Ratchet, but I was so unstable.

The hours passed slowly, the students being the usual, though surprisingly she had no Miko today. However, she did have Jack.

"Hey, Astronaut, feeling ok?" I joke to the child I helped raise. He rolled his eyes, giving me a small grin. He shook his head though and we went to the room. I gave him a water and we started to talk. "So what's up?"

"Bumblebee got his t-cog back, but he might not be able to use it because it's so damaged. I'm worried about Bumblebee because of obvious reasons, but I'm also worried about Raf. He's had this really depressed aura surrounding him since he's came to school." Jack explained, sounding worried for his friends.

I give him a small smile and a pat on the shoulder. My mind went elsewhere for a minute as I sat in an uncomfortable silence with Jack. I couldn't decide what to say, my head was aching so badly.

"Worrying is natural, but the best thing you could do for both of them right now is be optimistic and supportive. Raf needs a friend and so does Bumblebee." I answer his unasked question. Jack was quick to smile and thank me before leaving.

The last few hours of the day sped by and as soon as the final bell rang, I left. I went home and cuddled with Freckles, awaiting Ratchet's arrival. The natural worrying running through my systems like a drug.

The knock soon arrived on the door and I could only prepare by taking a deep breath. Opening the door, I found Ratchet's holoform, his hands resting in his pockets. To my pleasure and surprise, he was smiling, ever so softly. I felt my heart melt and my cheeks heat as I quickly stepped to the side and let him in.

"Ratchet, I need to talk to you." Was what I tried to say. Unfortunately for me, the spinning in my head was overcoming my common sense and I screwed up my sentence. "Talk you need to Ratchet." A sudden silence went through the house as I loudly face palmed and shut the door. "That's not what I meant to say."

The house momentarily filled with silence once more before a raspy chuckle filled the silent void. Ratchet laughed. It now felt like my cheeks were on fire as I faked a giggle at my own stupidity.

"What did you mean to say?" Ratchet asked, he oddly enough seemed relaxed and happy. I suddenly noticed his relaxed behavior and chocked back what I was originally going to talk to him about.

"Did everything with Bumblebee's t-cog go well...?" I asked, though it seemed a little fumbled. Ratchet smiled and nodded, petting Freckles as he plopped himself down onto the couch. I was quick to follow and sat next to him, closer than originally planned, but he didn't seem to mind.

"It went wonderfully, he can transform again. It was nice to see him so happy." Ratchet answered with a bright smile. It made my heart melt and me smile dumbly. This was wonderful. The feeling was wonderful. I stared into his eyes and he stared into mine.

Slowly our smiles fell and our bodies slowly moved closer. My cheeks heated up as I glanced down to his lips, his cheeks heated while I was having my little staring contest. I shifted my seating slightly and smiled shyly as my eyes fluttered, begging to shut. Our moment was ruined abruptly when Freckles sat up and yawned.

We both sat blushing and flustered. Ratchet cleared his throat and I let out a gentle cough. I shook my head quickly then looked up at him with a smile.

"W-well... what I had meant to say was that I needed to talk to you." I repeat, brushing my hair behind my ear.

"Oh, alright, what is it?" Ratchet asked, looking me in the eyes once more. I stared into his eyes once more, instead of searching for desire or passion, I was now enjoying their beautiful color. A nice turquoise that had surprised me when I saw how good they looked on a human form.

Perhaps it was strange to remember that I was thinking about this man between my thighs yesterday.

"I- um..." I broke eye contact, suddenly becoming a thousand times more flustered. "H-how would you like to be my plus one to my sister's wedding?"

"What?"

'Dammit... screwed up last minute.'

"I-I know you're not super interested in human culture, but it might be a nice break. It's in a serene place and there's a lot more types of food you could try. B-but I totally understand if it's not your scene, I just wanted to ask because I figured I'd be nice to not have to go alone." I rambled on, coming up with an excuse for being so clumsy with my words. Ratchet stared at me momentarily before shrugging.

"Sure, why not. I guess it'll be nice to learn something new. Or at least, see the human version of connecting a conjunx." Ratchet answered. At least it was positive. I smiled and nodded.

We were soon back at base and I was on the couch, working. Well— it was more like me panicking onto my computer and labeling it as a work file. June was going to be arriving soon and I really needed someone to explode onto.

Soon I was playing a game with Raf while Bumblebee was out on patrol with Miko and Jack cheering me on. If only I had this kind of encouragement to ask out Ratchet.

The thought was slightly funny. Jack didn't like that June and Fowler were a little too close, Miko probably wouldn't care, and Raf might encourage it but ask too many questions. Though, they'd probably be the same questions I have.

"Woooohooooo! Go (Y/n)!" Miko suddenly took me out of my thoughts. Looking back at the screen I found the reason for her ear piercing cheer, I won. Surprisingly, I beat Raf and I wasn't even paying attention. Only Bumblebee really beats Raf.

"Haha... I guess my driving experience helps? Anyway, one of you two can swap out with me." I say, to which Miko snatched the remote out of my hand and took my spot as soon as I got up, making me laugh.

I then went back to my original spot and got back to dress shopping on my laptop. The wedding was basically a month away, but I needed to get a dress still. Thank Primus I asked Ratchet to be my plus one, or I would've forgotten about getting this dress.

"Hey, whatcha looking at?" Jack asked, sitting next to me. I took a glance at him and smiled, turning the computer slightly toward him.

"Just some dresses for the wedding." I answered, showing him the (f/c) one with a bare back and lace front. He nods, I knew he didn't really care, but he was just trying to be nice.

"Why don't you just wear one of the dresses you have?" He asked.

"Because they're all boring and bland and I'm the maid of honor."

"I don't understand weddings."

"Neither do I." I reply before we both start laughing. We were both suddenly surprised when we found June standing over us.

"Well look at you two giggling over here." June commented with her hands on her hips and a bright smile.

"Oh! June I need to talk to you." I say before setting my laptop to the side and getting up. Together we left to the hallway where all the bots rooms were for some privacy.

"This is about Ratchet."

"I almost kissed him."

"What?!"