'I'm so confused. Am I gay? Do I like Ritsu Kasanoda? How will I tell the little ones? How will I tell Aunty Clair? How will the host club react? Will my family still love me if I'm gay? Aren't I too young to be gay? What am I supposed to say?' A bunch of questions ran through my mind at that moment.

"I.....don't know what to say, Ri." I said, all flustered.

"I understand, you don't return the feeling. I'll be going now." Ritsu said, tears streaming down his cheeks.

He ran off, faster than I could grab him.

"Ritsu?!" I called after him, making him stop.

I run up to him before he has a chance to leave.

Their was a beautiful cherry tree in front of me as I looked into Ritsu's beautiful eyes.

I smiled and wiped his tears away.

I looked down to see one of my tiny hands entwined with his big ones.

"Ritsu please....I...I just wasn't expecting to hear that from you...Honestly I never considered liking a guy before...."

My eyes grow wide as Ritsu grasps my shoulders and pushes my back up against the tree. I can't process what is happening as I watch Ritsu lean in and he slams his lips roughly against my own. I stand there stunned as I feel my deep blue eyes begin to close.

I can't seem to explain my actions as I begin to kiss him in return as my hands grip tightly onto the front of his shirt.

'What's he doing?' I thought to myself, in panic.

He dominates over me as he roughly holds me against the tree as our lips move together as one. One of his hands raises up and cups my cheek as he pulls away to allow us to catch our breaths. I feel my chest rise and fall as I open my eyes and stare up into Ritsu's. I feel his thumb caress my cheek as he gazes at me with eyes full of passion.

'Am I enjoying this?!' I thought, scared.

His lips separated from mine and he pulled away. "Hibiki...." He whispers as he leans in closer to me once more. I feel my heart ready to burst from my chest as he places his lips next to my ears. "I....really like you." I am too stunned to speak a single word as he pulls back to gaze at me. I watch as his eyes travel down and gaze to my lips once more.

I don't know what is coming over me as I don't stop him from capturing my lips with his once more.

'What am I doing?!?' I struggled to raise alarm in me, but my body was relaxing.

His hands slowly glide down my body to my waist where he tightens his grip on me, and he ever so easily he picks me up so we are the same height as my back is pressed tightly to the tree. Our lips never separating once.

I can't explain this feeling I have, as Ritsu roughly kisses me. For some reason it doesn't feel completely wrong.

'This feels......so natural. ' I thought, slipping from my reasoning and started to enjoy the kiss.

My hands wrap around his neck as I allow my fingers to play in his red hair. It is surprisingly a lot softer than I imagined. It feels amazing to run my fingers through

We separate both panting for breath. A single strand of saliva connects our lips together as he takes my lips once more, before I can catch a single breath.

My heart pounds as I feel one of his legs moving between mine.

"Nnnn Hahhhh" I can't stop the sounds from escaping from my lips in between our kisses. This only seems to turn Ritsu on as he begins to lower his kisses from my lips to my neck. My head falls backwards as I feel him playfully bite my skin. My heart pounds as my senses finally return to me.

My blue eyes shot up, waking me from my trance, as soon as he bit my neck. I push his chest as hard as I can.

'That was almost too far! What was I about to do with him?!?!' My brain jump-started, making me jump away.

He stumbles backwards and I fall towards the ground landing back on my feet. I stare at him with a red face. My chest is rising and falling rapidly as I try to catch my breath.

'He wanted me....As his own.....he wanted to make me his...' I thought, hyperventilating.

"Hibiki....I..." Ritsu started, but the words stumbled out of his mouth.

I turn from him and run as fast as I can while tears fall from my eyes.

'What the heck just happened? Ritsu confessed feelings to me, then kissed me.....but I kissed him back.....I don't even know what to feel right now.' I thought, running to my home.

'I need to work extra hours to earn money. We're about to run out.' I thought, straightening my thoughts and trying to forget what just happened.

*time skip*

I walked through my rusted old door and got tackled by 5 year olds.

"Bubby!!" They screamed in excitement.

"How'd it go?" Miyu asked, a curious smile on her face.

"We talked and I have fun. Nothing more." I said, quickly.

My face slightly heated up in embarrassment.

"Oh, what did you two do." Soshi asked, a teasing look in his eyes.

"We went to the park and that's it!" I said, my voice slightly raising.

"I don't thinks that's all you did. What really happened." Kika teased.

"Tell us bubby, tell us!" The little ones shouted, excited to hear.

"Yea brother, tell us." Aya repeated, teasingly.

".......he kissed me." I said, quietly.

"What was that! I couldn't hear you?" They all shouted.

"He kissed me!!! He told me he loved me and I think I'm gay!!! There." I said, in a huff. I ran up to my room and slammed the small door.

Then I cried, letting out all of my confused emotions.

"Why, Ritsu, why?!" I screamed into the pillow.

I felt a small hand rub circles into my back, which made me cry even harder.

'I didn't even cried for my family abandoning me, and this is what gets me. And I can't believe I yelled at my family like that.' I thought, beating myself up and making my pillow wet with my salty tears.

"Its ok, bubby. We're not mad at you for yelling at us. We did deserve it, especially with all the crap you deal with from us everyday. We pushed you. I'm sorry." I heard Taiga comfort and apologized to me.

"Its ok, Taiga. I love you." I said, sitting up and hugging my little brother.

He crawled into the tiny bed with me and I put a protective arm around him.

"I love you too." He replied, as I felt some tears slip onto my shoulder as well.

That was the last thing I heard before I drifted into an uneasy sleep, with my other brothers crawling into my arms as well.
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Hi guys.

I know its been a while.

I'm sorry. I can't write romance.

So, I asked my good friend pink-angel_101 to help me, since she's written so many amazing Yaoi stories.

(Wink wink go check them out nudge nudge)

Anyway. Hope you liked it.
Bye, until next chapter.

:)

This is chapter 17.